Forgotten Memories

Here's to the damned, to the lost and forgotten. It's hard to get high when you're living on the bottom.

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You see me standing but I’m dying on the floor.

[lucky-ellie]

"I had no hope that You would own A rebel to Your will And if You had not loved me first I would refuse You still"💕 -------------------------------------- Although I fall and get bruised by the struggles of this world, I try to look unto your unending grace to change my heart. I've been beating myself up for falling short, for not being good enough, I just pray that You would continue to show me light in my darkness as I pursue to reflect on your greatness. ------------------------------------ Teach me how to forgive myself as you have forgiven me. Teach me how to love like you have loved me. ----------------------------------- #allihaveischrist #takemeback #cowr16 #mountains #godisgood #itsgonnabeokay (at Lookout Mountain, Montreat, N.C.)

[lucky-ellie]

Roomie picture from #cowr16 this weekend. It was so great to share a room with these beautiful ladies! ❄️💕😁 ------------------------------- "For whoever wants to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life because if Me will save it. What is a man benefited if he gains the whole world, yet loses or forfeits himself?" -Luke9:24-25 This weekend I saw how beautiful life truly is, how great God truly is, and how loved I truly am. I'm always going to be amazed by the beauty of God's Great Creation.❄️🌀😍 (at Ridgecrest Retreat And conference Center)

[lucky-ellie]

Prom Fashion Show 2014💃 ------------------------- I will never get tired of this picture.💁✌️ -------------------------- You're pretty cool man, I love you!👯 I hope Disney is everything you've dreamed and more!😁 #tbt #bestfriend #highschool #iconic #models (at Goose Creek High School)

[lucky-ellie]

"When my life is like a storm, rising waters all I want is the shore. You say I'll be okay and make it through the rain. You are my shelter from the storm. I'm not my own, I've been carried by You All my life." -------------------------------- Sometimes it's okay to be weak, it's a sign of strength.💕✌️💪 #hopenow #Enough #brandnew #charleston #sunset #calmplace #Grace #godisgood #hope #holdon #notalone #staystrong (at The Battery)

[lucky-ellie]

This week has pushed me to new extremes. I was knocked down and I've seen some things that I never wanted to see, I had lost hold of myself. -------------------------- But today was different... Today when I thought all hope was lost, I ran to the place in which I seek comfort and peace, I ran to the wondrous mystery of the water. I sat there with my face in my hands crying out for help, crying out to God to find me because I was so incredibly lost. I sat there in a powerful silence searching. I didn't need answers, I just needed to be heard... -------------------------- "Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation. The old has passed away; behold, the new has come!" 2Corinthians 5:17 It was in this time I spent by the water that I realized I was not myself, I was not who I was meant to be... Tonight I prayed to God, and I truly, full heartedly invited Him into my heart. These past few months, He has been pushing me toward Him and I have been brushing Him off. In the silence I finally heard Him reach out to me in a way that I couldn't begin to explain. Tonight I surrendered my Life to The Lord. Tonight I become a new creation in Him. And I cannot wait to see how He will use me. I am so excited for this new chapter of my life, and I know that it's not going to be easy, but it is going to be worth it. I am forever thankful for this new beginning in life that I have been given in The Lord. #Grace #Enough #godisgood #brandnew #newbeginings #immadenew 2/3/2016 (at The Battery)

[lucky-ellie]

I don't know what else to do, but I'm trying to turn to you in these moments. When nothing else seems to be going right and the world is crashing around me, I'm trying to look beyond the troubles of this world and fix my eyes on You. I don't know where else to turn so I'm trying to turn to you. Because even when I can't find the strength to get out of bed, You give me the strength to fight another day. And for that, the least I can do is look to You in my darkest hours, and for that, I am trying. ------------------------- I tried to be artistic and this is the final result.... Romans 3:23. #hope #holdon #notalone #godisgood #Enough #imokay #Grace #staystrong (at College of Charleston)

[lucky-ellie]

This week has been hard to handle. It's felt like everything was knocking me down and nothing could help me get up. I'm so broken and torn apart inside, everything seems to be pulling me opposite directions. I'm in a million pieces. ------------------------- Tonight, I'm at a low, but I can't give up on everything. As I sit here with an herbal tea and I walk through a bible verse in 2Peter, I think back to where I was a year ago, what I was doing and how I was living. I've got a lot of work to do in my life to become who I want to be, but I've come a long way from who I was last year at this time, I'm stronger, and I won't let this world get the best of me. I'll wipe my tears, hold my head up, and smile. Because I was not made to be a people pleaser, I was not made for this world, and I will hold out hope that things will get better.💪 #Enough #holdon #godisgood #notalone #smile #imokay #hope (at College of Charleston College Lodge)

[lucky-ellie]

"Tell me what I need to hear, tell me that I'm not forgotten. Show me there's a God who can be more than all I've ever wanted. 'Cause right now I need a little hope, I need to know that I'm not alone." #calmplace #notalone #Enough #sidewalkprophets #savemylife

[lucky-ellie]

On this day 5 years ago, Demi left treatment at Timberline Knolls. And every year since she has proven her strength and determination to put her health first. She continues to share her story to reach people who need help, because at least one person stands up every time, at least one person needs to hear it. Today and every day I am proud to be a Lovatic. Her strength is admirable and she has inspired me in a number of ways to stay strong through these years. Today is Lovatics day, and Lovatics Are so proud of you, Demi Lovato.😭💕💪✊ #Lovatic #happylovaticsday #staystrong #inspiration #5yearsstrong #Proud #confident

[lucky-ellie]

You're obnoxious.... But I love you💁💙 Happy Birthday Bubba! don't hit the ground too hard🙈✊ #missyou #crazy #siblings #birthday (at Royal Lanes)

[lucky-ellie]

"Come to Me, all of you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. All of you, take up My yoke and learn from Me, because I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for yourselves. For My yoke is easy and my burden is light." --Matthew 11:28-30 featuring tattoo #10 "Come as you are" because there is meaning that runs so much deeper than I can explain in words. I've walked through fire to find myself on the floor crying out for help, help that I constantly think I need to clean myself up for. "You don't need to clean yourself up to come to Jesus, He wants you just as you are!" I haven't heard this nearly as much as I needed until the past few months and even though it's such a fight for me to realize that, my heart knows it's truth. #Enough #changeisgood #Grace #ComeAsYouAre (at College of Charleston College Lodge)

[lucky-ellie]

"The only way to make sense out of change is to plunge into it, move with it, and join the dance." Decided to dye my hair last night. 💆✌️#badlighting #deepburgundy #changeisgood #Enough (at College of Charleston College Lodge)

[lucky-ellie]

"The Glory of God is His Grace to save sinners like us. His Grace is His undeserved love for sinners like us. There is One Love and that is God's Love for us." -Matt Reagan, 12/40/2015 Milwaukee, WI This life is not my own, it's not about my love for Him, but instead it's about His Love for Me. Too often I stumble and fall and try my hardest to be 'good enough', to be accepted, but that's when I need to stop and take a step back because it's Grace that saves and Grace is free, Grace is undeserved. And if I remember nothing else, I want to remember this. #conyc15 #coonly1 #Milwaukee #takemeback #Grace #Enough (at Milwaukee, Wisconsin)

[lucky-ellie]

'I know I don't need your approval to do anything any more, it's my life now. But sometimes I just need to hear you say that it's okay.' They always said that she'd be my bestfriend, and sure enough that's exactly who she is, my bestfriend, my very first friend. My mom may not like every decision that I make but she will always support me in life and I am so beyond thankful for her and everything she has done for me. You're a very special woman mom, and I couldn't ask for another as great as you. 💕👭 #thankyou #iloveyou #mommadukes

[lucky-ellie]

"...I never thought things would end up this way" I never thought that meeting you would mean so much to me. We've been through hell and back, you've seen me at my worst and you've seen me at my best. You've taught me to love myself and to appreciate the littlest things in life because they become the best memories. You've shown me strength when I was weak and I am forever grateful for you and everything you've brought to my life. Our journey hasn't been easy, in fact it's been messy as hell, but "I cannot tell you how how thankful I am for our little infinity, I wouldn't trade it for the world." Happy Birthday Tommy! Here's to you, and to so many more!💕😘✊ #HappyBirthday #mybestfriend #staystrong

[lucky-ellie]

CJ, I can't thank you enough for talking to me about God and for helping me start to truly find him. I learned so much this week at #CONYC15 and as these words and messages start to really sit with me, my heart is starting to open up. There is still so much I have to learn and grow into, but it's become clear to me that everything happens for a reason, and getting to Conference wasn't by chance. I am so broken but I can't wait to unfold with this New Year and explore more about living in the Glory of God. #COONLY1 (at Milwaukee Downtown)