2016 here I come
Well lets see... much has changed in my humble life since I wrote here. Unfortunately I was laid off earlier this year in June. I knew this was coming for years so it was not a surprise. Here we are in December coming up on Christmas and I am still currently unemployed. I have never been out of work this long in my working career.
Of course when any big event in my life happens I tend to think of everything in terms of Astrology and transits. I currently have Uranus (freedom, unexpected events, unstable energy) transiting my 6th house of work/daily routines. Saturn (responsibility/structure/long-term goals) went into my 2nd house of earned income/values. The good news is that as long as Saturn is in Sagittarius it is trining (good conversation) with Uranus in Aries (both fire signs). Meaning that they are helping me achieve a better position. This is also good for my health as the 6th house represents my health as well.
The truth is I wasn’t happy where I was at. My job bounced me around team to team and one of the last years I was employed I actually had 8 bosses in the same year. It became very frustrating and stressful trying to move forward in my career. Although I was happy for a change it has been very difficult and stressful being unemployed. Especially around the holidays. I can certainly see why they say that depression rises around the holiday season for some people/families especially if you’re not in the best situation.
I think this energy not only resinates to a lot of families this year but it is also in light of what’s going on in the world and in our country in the United States. Just watching the news I’m seeing cancelations of all public schools in LA county. Born and raised in California it is hard for me to see my home being attacked. So much changing around us, 2015 has not been easy for anyone. As an astrologer I have always told my friends, loved ones, and clients that everything that is happening is for a reason. However, when you’re actually going through the chaos and the turmoil it is very difficult to believe that.
As I write this I am snuggled under my Betsey Johnson bed spread listening to my Mom pack up her things as she plans to move out of our condo next week before Christmas. I am devastated and angry she is moving because I signed a lease for a two bedroom with her in mind. Now all I can do is pray that God will help me during this very difficult situation. If I cannot find employment I will not be able to afford my very expensive rent/utilities and will be homeless. When we moved here two months ago I had the opportunity to rent a room instead of a large condo. But with my 55 year old Mother in mind I made the decision to sign a lease so that she wouldn’t be on the street. Unfortunately her life choices and circumstances have ruined her credit and no one was willing to rent to her.
Even after making this very selfless decision to help her and myself start over in a new home, she is ungrateful. My Mother is an alcoholic and very unhappy with her own life. She has lead a very sad and unfortunate life that has lead to her very toxic negative attitude. So even though I have anger for the situation I am in I know in my heart that her leaving is the best for my own situation. God knows I need to be around positive, happy, supportive people. I don’t need someone controlling my living situation and nit picking every single thing I do each day. At 30 years old, I am an adult. I do not have the patience to be talked down to and controlled. I have every intention of also severing the relationship with my Mother after she moves back to Washington state.
The reason I share this here is that everyone is not perfect. We all have problems especially in our families. I can’t afford a Christmas tree this year and we have absolutely no decorations up. Those are packed away in boxes that she is conveniently taking as she plans to leave 3 days before Christmas day. But I can’t harbor anger toward her and her actions. She does not control me or my reactions to situations. I choose to be happy and seek love. I choose to make better choices and have a better life than she did. I have goals and dreams that no one is going to stop me from achieving. I choose to be grateful for everything I do have in my life instead of focusing on negativity.
I have a roof over my head, which two months ago I didn’t think was possible. I also have amazing friends that helped me get that roof over my head. God has blessed me with people that have treated me like family. Even though my actual family is split up around the county and not close at all. I am so very lucky to have so many people in my life that care about me! I get emotional when I think about my friends and how awesome they are. I don’t know what I did to deserve to meet so many amazing people but I am so very lucky. I have learned to be a loner in a state with no family. I have learned to spend holidays with others and their families. Holidays are a lot different when you don’t have family to spend them with. I always feel like an outsider or a charity case. “Awwwee lets invite Drea, she has no where to go”.
I don’t have all the answers even though I have been through so much in the short 30 years I’ve been on the planet. What I can tell you is that life is what you make of it. You are choosing anger, sadness, depression, negativity, and hopelessness. Life is too short to be unhappy. I’ve learned over time to figure out what is making me unhappy and get rid of it. Build a better life. Don’t like where you live? Move. Don’t like your job? Get a new one. Are you lonely? Make some friends. Find a new hobby. Unhappy in a relationship? Leave. No one is preventing you from a happy life but yourself. You are in control of your life. Nothing “happens” to you... you make those decisions. Either literally or energetically.
2016 is only 16 days away. Here’s what you should do. Make a mason jar or a box with a slit or small opening. Write down all your goals for 2016 and all the things you loved from 2015. Keep it positive! Stay motivated!
Love and Light.
Drea.
