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@luffymugen
Listen, I’m smart enough to want to take things slow with him, he lives across the country for now, and so, I have to take it slow, and I’m trying not to be too forward, but on my life I want to sit him down and sit on his lap, and do all of the dirty things I’ve been thinking about doing with him. I want him so god damn bad I can’t think most days.
Why do we have to be 1300 miles apart.
Sometimes I tried to excuse crying after s*x with “a lot of emotions happen during, and if you’re holding a lot in, then it will happen” and then I had s*x with someone new, and I was just happy after and I realized it was just that I knew that you didn’t really want me, and I was just there, and I cried because I knew I was being used.
Here’s me screaming into the void, since I can’t actually scream this at the person I want to scream it at
I thought you were different
What the heck
Why would you tell me how much you like me and all the things you want to do with me, cute things like take pictures and snuggle and watch tv and just be cute together, if you were going to just ghost me and disappear from my life
I believed you! I wanted to believe you! You seemed so different from everyone else
I am so hurt, and I just want to talk to you. That’s all I want, I miss talking to you. I miss thinking we might actually get to be something.
I’m sorry if I acted too happy, or like I wasn’t hurting, I’m scared to show you that yet. I just, really really liked you
And you, just left me high and dry, with a sadness in my heart, and a text thread full of empty promises.
Why.
Pictures
I saw your picture today
It hangs in the fridge
I think about how you said we’d take more
That we’d spend days together
That you’d show me the affection I’d been missing
I never asked you to say any of it
I just wanted to believe it was true
I saw your picture today
It hangs on the fridge
We haven’t spoken in days
But I remember everything you said
I saw your picture today
But it’s just a picture, and I wanted it to be you
How do yall keep finding these men that love you unconditionally, and are happy and excited to have you. Best I can get it “tolerates me enough to still live together” and boy is it rough.
Update: a guy that really likes me and is excited to talk to me has found me. 🤷🏼♂️ not sure how that happened
Second update: He ghosted me, and I’m just sad about it
I wish you weren’t so far away, I don’t know what your lips feel like, but I crave them more than water.
I don’t know how it feels to have those quiet sweet moments with you, just hanging out and watching tv, but I am homesick for a feeling I’ve never had.
I don’t know what it feels like to fall asleep in your arms, but I am sure it will be the best sleep I’ve ever gotten.
I don’t know what it feels like to be truly loved by you, but I long for it every day.
Dreaming of snuggling with one specific person. Sigh. He really did get me.
I have kind of fallen for a guy, and I know I shouldn’t have, but I’ve had a crush on him for a long time, but we were both in relationships. I recently got out of mine, and we find ourselves both single. He told me he’s also had feelings for me for a while and had always hoped I felt the same, but the person I was in a relationship with was his friend, so it was always a no go. The person I was in a relationship with was, not great, constantly texting and Snapchating other women, and just in general sticking me with a bunch of trauma. I’ve realized recently that I am so very torn between, I shouldn’t like this guy, because he is friends with my ex (but a good human) because he’s 1300 miles away, because sometimes he seems so nonchalant, but what if this is the reason everything happened. What if he and I could be great? What if we decided to give it a try, no matter the distance?
Thanks Tumblr for being the place no one listens to me, and I can put my thoughts out in the world. I kinda really like this guy, and I don’t know what to do about it.
I like that he is soft and sweet and also tough. I want him to kiss me, and hold me and be tender, but I also want his hands around my throat.
I want this man to be the one to show me that you can be gentle and violent and loving. I want him to show me that strength and anger do not have to coincide, and that he can pin me down and love me, the same way he can kiss me and tell me I’m beautiful.
Me: gonna wait for him to text me, don’t wanna seem needy
Also me: well this is going terribly.
Me about a month ago: I’m not going to like his thirst trap pictures, I’m not gonna let him get me
Me now: oh no, he got me.
In January I was let go from a toxic work environment I knew I didn’t want to be there, but I didn’t have many options. It was really rough, and I had never been fired from a job before and I cried a lot. However a few months later I was offered a better paying better for me job that I really enjoy and that is giving me options for advancement that I’ve never had before.
This past Monday I was let go from a toxic relationship situation. There was no fighting or abuse or anything like that, he just was always talking to other women and just always seemed to want the single life over the family life with me, so he told me he met someone else while out of town, and told his family he was just happier away than home with me. I was mentally already checked out, but, it still hurt me emotionally to see it finally end. 2 days later I messaged someone, not flirting, nothing just a hey, when’s the next time your work brings you to the area, and we got to talking and I told him about what happened, and he immediately tried to make me feel better, and in our conversation we realized how much we have always liked each other but, life right, and so now we are talking and I am just hopeful, that much like my job letting me go, and I found something that was better for me, that him letting me go at just the right time also means I get to find something better for me.
Me for the past year: if/when this relationship ends, never another wrestler, and never another guy younger than me, I can’t handle this again
Me since yesterday: maybe it was just the wrong one, and not all of them are bad, I think I can do this again.
How do yall keep finding these men that love you unconditionally, and are happy and excited to have you. Best I can get it “tolerates me enough to still live together” and boy is it rough.
Update: a guy that really likes me and is excited to talk to me has found me. 🤷🏼♂️ not sure how that happened
How do yall keep finding these men that love you unconditionally, and are happy and excited to have you. Best I can get it “tolerates me enough to still live together” and boy is it rough.
Personal Relationship advice for today, since it’s been a while:
Make sure when you find someone to be with, it is someone that you can talk to about everything, the big things, the small things, the hard things.
Feeling unheard is hard
Feeling unwanted is hard
Feeling lost and silenced is hard
Make sure you are with someone that doesn’t make you feel that way.
You ever have a conversation with someone and they mention something that is one of those *kept deep down except when complaining to Tumblr where no one knows me* feelings and you’re stuck between, maybe it’s just a feeling people perceive and oh no, they know.
I don’t like it.