Thanksgiving was my very favorite ever! Best thanksgiving ever for real! Three baby’s! The level of cuteness was through the roof! A best bud from my bridgeport days is visiting for the weekend! My whole family is here! Strangers were invited too! The strangers were vegitarian! New Friends! Inspiration from fellow engineering majors!
You wanna hear the best part? No lie, the part that brought me the most joy was the cooking and the spread. So my sister and I both make a lot of effort to eat vegan. She made three vegan dishes, i made one too! My aunt heard i was vegan and she made three! MOST OF THE FOOD FOR THE FEAST WAS VEGAN! MY PLATES FOR THE LAST 365 DAYS HAVE NEVER BEEN SO FULL AND DIVERSE! I HAVENT FELT THIS STUFFED SINCE I WAS A MEAT EATER! I used a recipe gabby’s mom actually recommended to me lol. I changed it a little but it was a home-run! Jesus, it was a big win for vegans today. I felt a lot of love and acceptance actually. It was also the first day I haven’t thought about school! Present and energized and interested in others. I liked who i was. I feel good.
But honestly, my pal from the olden days seems to be struggling AF. Imma take him out to breakfast and hopefully we can actually talk and share. Yea, lay down some real foundation.
Yo frfr I haven’t even thought of this seriously. That prayer condition at the beginning was kinda insincere... Sowwie :| I think personal reasons were kinda shady, but public goals were easier. Frfr though you cant have one without the other so idk. Anyways, here’s my thoughts. I am open book bitches:
[Here we go! Goals! Ya’ll ready for this? It’s gonna be idealistic af
I definitely want to make new connections through loved. Especially the ones who don’t even know they haven’t been getting/accepting/feeling loved you know?Â
I wanna have a one on one.Â
I wanna go out of my comfort zone comforting others.Â
I wanna be totally focues and present on the how the kids are doing
I want to be attending to the team + leaders generally
I want to experience God personally!
I want to be confident in what im giving. [Damn i really don’t wanna feel like im unworthy coming into this. I frfr feel pretty lame compared to the amazing humans we got for staff. Especially you two!  I'll set hella conditions, abandon negative habits draggin me down, report everyday. I don’t want no baggage that I feel will be holding me back. I know from experience you can’t connect to God without being in the right space. Getting to that point isn’t always a one day, one prayer, one try thing. We have to kind of trek to a whole different place.
Man idk..  Damn why am i doing this... Dude i really just want to connect to God. That heart to heart relationship is why i do all this youth ministry stuff. It’s kinda sad actually. Like a lil boi just wanting to be with his pops. But i feel like there’s so much between us. I do YM to help me grow too! But mainly that’s my deepest desire for youth ministry - God relationship. Screw all the days i went to YM forgetting that. I mean, the relationships with the kids are great and they bring me a lot of joy, but man Luke get your head on straight. Always battling.Â
 Idk, how can i connect to Gods heart through youth ministry workshop guys? I know, giving talks+recieving love from my peers is how I’ve experienced it in the past. It’s been a while since I’ve considered this.... hmm...Generally i want to focus on how i can understand Gods heart. Aju
But thats just me. When it comes to goals for the team, I think im already pretty clear on that. I want to just help them become close. Honesty, and vulnerability, and co-dependance. Especially in terms of their lives of faith. How freaking cool would it be if they were all down to support each other. affirm each other?! wowza.
Sorry I’m a little meh. Thanks for reading yall