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Funny how she said she never asked him to stay but was so confident that he'll come back crawling. Dear, our baby boy in the family got disfellowed. Though it's obvious who's at fault, it always takes two to tango. Sucks. But it is what it is.

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Will soon be writing 2 resignation letters, can't believe.

Apparently, I do many things in my life, and I feel like not wanting to do them all anymore, but I'm on a landslide and all I can do is just make the best out of it.

I think it's not good when we get used to things. I have been so used to working so much that it became a habit even when I didn't need it, but now I do because of added responsibilities.

Here's a little space for me to romanticize hard-workingness if there's such a word as that, haha, or if it's allowed, I'd like to thank myself for hanging on. Right now, I need to survive this whole year while having fun.

U see, I'm a paradox on a deep shallow sea. While planning my exit to the International Industry, I am contemplating if I should continue my application to Douglas College. I mean, SAIT has been great, and I found friends in Calgary, but I would like to check a different work environment. If there's anything that I didn't like about the other schools, it's how they can't beat SAIT in aesthetics. NGL, the gap is too far wide. Besides, the 💰 is way higher. And it'll be a new environment. I think I want that. Also, it's in Vancouver.

I usually trust my instinct about leaving a job. I just feel like it's time, though of course, I have to pray for it.

"Was there a time that you blamed God?"

I think the only time that I did was when I didn't know about the truth. I can not recall a time after my baptism that I actually did blame my Creator. Oftentimes, I am aware that my tragedies are either caused by me mostly and could be by other people's imperfection. Sometimes, by accidents, but never has something to do by Him.

I have none to zero even as of the moment. Some people probably hit the rock-bottom and ask God why. That's a humbling experience, I think - of how reliant a human is with the highest above. On my end, I sometimes feel worthless and should not have been born, I get reassurance from His words. But I don't blame nor hate Him.

Now let's say I come to be diagnosed with diabetes, I would definitely come to a realization that this, my dear, is a suffering caused by my dopamine dependency. I like sweets a lot. Something like that. And if let's say I love someone from the world, that, my friend, is my heart's very own sin. 🤷‍♀️ Not because I was born with a freewill, but because I let myself feel that way. 🍄

But I'll attempt to visit you and try to help you still 🤍

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I watched her when she said, "No, I won't if we won't be together."

It's as good as pulling him apart. It's as good as making him choose.

It's as good as gaslighting.

Nothing good will come after that if you don't want to take the longer route.

It's hard to explain things to someone who doesn't share the same beliefs and customs as yours. And it was even harder when the person didn't want to learn your belief and customs without a motive and drive. And of what options are left?

If there's anything that I learned out from these things, it's to always listen to what you learned from the Book of Life. Heart is treacherous. Heart follows what it wants and will pull you apart after, make you veer away from the things that are decent, proper, correct, and peaceful.

If there's one thing I could say to the young girl, it's to test herself of up to what stakes could she live up to? What lengths and what heights. How much could you embrace to be with your person? Because if you're making him choose and leave with no choice, and he follows you, you both might be found outside wandering. What life your gods will offer him? I don't see that as love. And of what life can your gods offer you?

Have you ever dreamed about your ex?

Hope he's happy. With her.

And as for me, I am happy to be home after being heartbroken from the world. My love for what's right is bigger.

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It would be easier if you'll just accept the fact that if she says no, she doesn't want to meet you halfway, she's not the one. I've seen this movie before. We read Adam and Eve's story over and over again, you also know it too well.

As a big sister to you, I hate to say these things out loud as of the moment because of your vulnerable state. I pray you heal and find peace in our God's wings like how Ruth did.

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Have you ever seen a slow-mo?

I did. It was when he was playing with kids.

And for a second, I had to snap myself and look away.

It might be really funny to have a crush at the age of 27, hahaha and now I'm 28, but it's a cheerful way to get by and be reminded that I now look past the physical things. It's not like he's not attractive, he is! He got the nicest smile, doe eyes, and pretty curly hair specially during summer hahaha just that I think I saw his inside personality first before the outside. I just appreciate them better now, those who are able to show God-like qualities when they're dealing with situations and people.

And dear, I don't even want to do anything about it. Hahahaha it's just nice to adore someone beyond what eyes can see.

#diary entry #livelifelove #teacher crush #old maid #Funnyyyy hahahaha