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Another old royed art that hasn’t seen the light of day until now

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Trick or treat, but I'm greedy. Can I have a treat, please? Prompt: trick.

Someone far less clever than he is has been attempting to prank him. Or at least, someone far less devious.

Normally he wouldn’t boast about his relative cleverness.

Alright, normally he wouldn’t boast a decidedly uncouth amount, but he thinks he is well within his rights here. There is ink splattered all over his paperwork, but not a single drop has touched his antique walnut desk, or his beautifully worn, leather desk blotter, or his pristine uniform with its stark white gloves.

Roy stands very carefully—it wouldn’t do to mess his uniform up now—and strolls to the outer office, his hands tucked neatly in his trouser pockets. He leans against the doorframe, striking the perfect balance between intimidating, accusatory, aloof, and debonair.

None of his unscrupulously cruel teammates deigns to look up at him. A-ha! Guilty, each and every last one of them.

Well, perhaps not Hawkeye. She finally glances over, and the corners of her lips turn down into the approximation of a frown.

“Can I help you, sir?”

“Why yes, in fact, you can. I just had a rather unfortunate accident. It seems someone misplaced my Waterman—which they should know was a gift that I happen to cherish—for a trick pen, or at least one that has been tampered with, and there is an entire pen’s worth of ink currently being absorbed by my very important paperwork.”

She sighs.

“Are you sure you weren’t the one who ‘misplaced’ your pen, sir? That sounds an awful lot like something you’d do to get out of work early.”

He scoffs. He sputters. He says, “I would never.”

Across the room, Ed snorts.

“If the Chief did it on purpose,” Havoc says, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms behind his head. “He’d have gotten some on his shirt so he would have to go home and change.”

“I already have a plan for that contingency,” Hawkeye says. “There’s a spare hanging in the closet.” She looks at Roy. “Don’t even think about it.”

Roy grimaces. Hawkeye is always prepared for the worst. It comes from a long time spent side-by-side with Roy, who orchestrates stints of bad luck for strategic gain and has come to rely on her to help with cleanup.

“Oh, ye of little faith,” he says to her. “I suspect someone has run off with my pen and left me a pale comparison in hopes that I finally run afoul of one of the various and sundry pranks that have failed to ensnare me of late. Unfortunately for them, and rather fortunately for me, I noticed the difference in quality just in time to salvage my uniform.”

“But not your paperwork,” Hawkeye says, at the same time Ed says, “What?”

Roy ignores Hawkeye by looking at Ed and assesses him for signs of a guilty conscience. “What part of that was unclear?”

“Fucking… all of it.”

“I think the Chief means he noticed the pen was a fake and uncapped it over his paperwork anyway,” Breda says.

Liars and traitors, the lot of them.

Ed starts snickering and ducks his head back down to scribble in the margins of his work. It feels like a dismissal, which is an entirely different pang to Roy’s heart than the thought that someone outside their office might have stolen a pen which is, in all truthfulness, quite precious to him.

“Are you sure it’s not your pen?” Fuery, ever the diplomat, asks.

“Yes, I am.” Watermans are beautiful fountain pens not prone to exploding all over one’s desk. He would have had to do something very impressive to get it to malfunction that spectacularly. He wouldn’t put it past someone like Ed, but Roy’s a bit more careful with his belongings.

“Why do you think someone’s been pranking you?” Havoc asks.

“There has been a string of suspicious events that led me to that conclusion. First, I arrived at my car last night to find someone had daubed soap onto the driver’s side door handle, possibly to soil my gloves. Then on Tuesday, someone left a piece of paper with glue on it on my desk chair. Luckily, I glanced down before I sat.”

“Did the paper say anything?” Ed asks casually.

“In fact, it did, Edward.” Roy would rather not say what, but his team is thorough when it comes to solving a case, so—

“What did it say?” Fuery asks.

Roy sighs and pinches the bridge of his nose. “Kick me,” he mutters.

Silence.

“That’s not very imaginative,” Breda says.

“But it sure does do the job,” Havoc laughs. Even Hawkeye’s lips are pursed like she might bust a gut any moment.

“Yesterday,” Roy continues over them, “the handle of my usual coffee mug broke off in my hand when I went to fill it. And that is just the last few days. I would have suspected an alchemist for some of the more creative attempts—”

“I want to know about those,” Havoc says.

Roy ignores him in an attempt to salvage his dignity. “—But all signs point to the culprit having access to our office, and there are no alchemists besides myself with a key.” Not that that would stop a dedicated alchemist. Roy feels bad saying it, because it makes Ed’s shoulders wilt just slightly. Ed never talks about it with them, but Roy knows it must hurt to have given it up, no matter how worth it.

“Well, sir,” Fuery says much too innocently. “I’m not sure about the alchemy part, but these all sound like pretty harmless pranks until now. Theft seems like an escalation, even if it was just for a prank. Maybe it’ll turn up.”

“Hmm,” Roy allows himself. He also leans artfully against Hawkeye’s desk and folds his arms, even though it annoys her greatly. “I really would be put out by that pen going missing. My aunt gave it to me. It belonged to my father.”

The quality of the thoughtful silence changes as soon as Roy says ‘father.’ Gone is the easiness of it, the casual ribbing and clear signs that they are all in on it—or at least hiding the perpetrator. They all know intimately the importance of family, and they all know Roy never knew his father.

“Fine,” Ed says. He stands and his chair scrapes back from his desk. He crosses the office in a few quick strides, jerks open a drawer in their large filing cabinet, fishes around inside it, and pulls out a small bundle of cloth. He turns and stalks up to Roy and shoves the bundle out between them. “Sorry,” he grits out between his teeth. He’s not making eye contact.

Oh, Edward.

Ed also knows what it’s like to never know a father, and to wish he had something to remember him by, even if the reason he doesn’t is his own fault—perhaps especially because of that.

“It’s quite alright,” Roy says. He takes the pen, wrapped carefully in a square of fabric meant to clean glass lenses, and holds it to his chest. He doesn’t have to check to make sure it’s been unharmed. Ed would never do something like that. Ed would keep Roy’s more precious things safe even if he tried to poison him with fat free milk instead of full cream in the office pitcher. “You didn’t know.”

“No,” Ed agrees. “Still. Went too fucking far.”

Ed still won’t look at him. His cheeks are ruddy from embarrassment.

“Why?” Roy murmurs.

“Because.” Ed shrugs. “You’re fun to mess with.”

“Is that all?”

Ed scowls up at him, eyes flashing. “Yes,” he hisses.

Roy has a choice. 

There has been… something… in the air between them for some time now. Roy had thought he’d leave it unvoiced, relegated to a slow, painful death as time and the military machine further churned them both up and spat them out. However, there has always been something about Edward that urges Roy not to give up—to shake off the yolk of old rules and fears, to push out and up, to stride farther, to take instead of being taken.

If he listens to that part of him now, that internal voice that sounds an awful lot like Ed, maybe there is only one real choice at all.

Granted, he can’t help but be a bastard while he’s at it. Ed wouldn’t love him like he does if he wasn’t.

“Why Edward,” Roy purrs. “Is this your not-so-subtle way of flirting with me?”

The next silence in the room has a different quality. Now everyone is holding their breath.

Ed’s eyes narrow, and his lips purse, and he exhales long and slow while Roy waits.

“You wish,” Ed says, voice low.

“I do, in fact,” Roy says. “Very much so.”

If anything, Ed looks even more suspicious. Then he seems to relax a little, letting out a little huff and leaning back on his heels. His scowl turns the slightest bit smirky.

“Havoc came up with the ‘kick me’ sign,” he says.

“Betrayal!” Havoc shouts at him.

Ed throws his head back and laughs. He loops an arm around one of Roy’s and starts dragging him towards the door to the office. Roy hurries to tuck the Waterman safely into the pocket of his lapel.

“Can I borrow him for coffee?” Ed asks Hawkeye as they go. She just rolls her eyes and waves a hand at them in dismissal—because she’s the one they all know is really in charge.

As Ed escorts Roy on what could potentially be called their first official date, Roy leans in close to say, “Thank you.”

“For what? Being a dick to you for the last week? Al told me I should just ask you out, but the guys are convincing. Why is Al always right? I’m never listening to Havoc and Breda again.” Ed shakes his head and continues before Roy can respond. “So, tell me about this fancy pen of yours, Bastard,” Ed says.

Roy sighs and smiles.

“I’d be delighted to.”

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SuzaLulu fanfic recs

I’ve finally gotten up my arse and finished this list! Yay me. This is for imouto-chan. Happy reading.

Note: SuzaLulu unless noted. There are a few gen fics in there, but I’m too exhausted to sort them out. Also, these are only from fanfiction . net. Will update later with fics from ao3 once I’ve sorted them out from my other otps. All 2.15 GB worth of them. This may takes a while.

1) The Cradle of Time by Aynessa

Summary: And so the years passed. But Lelouch stopped counting them, and slowly he came to understand the depth of C.C.’s despair.

2) Only the Forgotten by kayura sanada

Summary: It seems there was still an Immortal, and the woman may just be the one threat that reveals everything, destroying the peace Lelouch gave his mortality for and the friend for whom he was willing to risk everything else.

3) Nobody Wants To Hear You Sing About Tragedy by YamiPaladinofChaos

Summary: “Okay… ignoring the insinuation that you masturbated to a fantasy about me and Lelouch… why do you care?”

4) Super Beachtastic Fun Times! by elarief

Summary: The Ashford gang goes to the beach, Lelouch brings every item in existence to protect himself from the sun and gets gently mocked for it, Suzaku is the one who gets heat stroke. Also, Milly is terrifying, Britannians are racist, Rivalz is a true bro, and Shirley and Suzaku have a surprising amount in common.

5) Que Sera, Sera by Syncidence

Summary: For but the flip of a coin the outcome of any event can alter drastically. And it is with this in mind that Lelouch vi Britannia places his future on the flip of a coin. Heads? He plunges forward into the world of politics in the name of a better tomorrow. Tails? He closes his eyes to the truth of the world and buries his head in the sand. So… what are you waiting for?

6) Turning Points: Teamwork by elarief

Summary: What if Kanon never followed Suzaku to his rendez-vous with Lelouch? Together, Suzaku and Lelouch can accomplish anything, including breaking down Lelouch’s inherent mistrust of other people, even his father. Sometimes the road to hell is paved with the best of intentions and not every turning point leads to a happier ending. SuzaLulu if you tilt your head sideways and squint.

7) A Multitude of Possibilities by spirithorse

Summary: A series of one-shots based on prompts from the Challenge on Infinite Worlds 30 day writing challenge on tumblr. Pairings include Suzalulu, SuzaEuphy, Lelouch/C.C./Suzaku, Kanon/Schneizel and Nunnally/Rolo.

8) Give ‘em Something to Talk About by elarief

Summary: Lelouch wins that chess match, and gets Suzaku as his prisoner. The Black Knights have mixed feelings about this. On one hand, Suzaku no longer fights against them. On the other, they’re rather uncomfortable at the… homoerotic undertones between Zero and his prisoner.

9) Of Siblings and Masks by Dracon Asahara

Summary: Post R2. A Nunnally introspective. In which Suzaku realizes what it means that Nunnally and Lelouch were siblings. Because just like Lelouch was no true demon, Nunnally is far from being an angel. And they all wear masks. dark-ish. Suzaku is Zero. One shot. Gen.

10) Sinister by BeautifullyChaotic49

Summary: Suzaku was most definitely sure that Lelouch was right-handed, so why was he writing with his left?

Note: It’s not exactly great, but the fic has such a canon-like atmosphere that it’s uncanny.

11) Code Geass: Fukkatsu no Lelouch by Death Can’t be Trusted

Summary: It was thought to be peace after Zero Requiem. Yet some twenty years in the aftermath, a new threat arises. The Geass Crusaders believe they have found the reincarnation of Lelouch vi Britannia. It is now a race between the Black Knights and the Geass Crusaders to either destroy or restore the world as it plunges further into chaos. Rated M for adult and violent themes.

12) Blank State by rkemy

Summary: This is what Suzaku wakes up to: a white ceiling, a dead princess, and no memories whatsoever. At rock bottom, he’s trying to piece his life back together. And then there is this Lelouch guy who claims to be his boyfriend.

13) Belated by Mr. Flying Mint Bunny

Summary: A belated confession, a belated reply. When will Lelouch and Suzaku know the meaning of time management? Takes place during R2 ep. 25. Suzalulu. Character death.

14) The Demon of Avalon by spirithorse.

Summary: When Rivalz Cardemonde escaped from the cells of Avalon he had only wanted to go home. Instead, he found himself swept up in a scheme of revenge, dealings in magic and the most feared man in Britannia, the Demon of the North. A Ladyhawke AU.

15) Catching smiles by MillyAshfordFan

Summary: 10-year-old Suzaku has an unnerving habit of sticking his fingers in places where they really don’t belong. Pre-series.

16) Suffocation by MillyAshfordFan

Summary: It’s okay. Suzaku can kill Zero and still keep Lelouch Lamperouge alive.

17) Changed by Suffocated Entity

Summary: “You are a mystery, Suzaku Kururugi, and you’re the reason why I just may start to smile again.” /Childhood/Kururugi Shrine drabble

18) Shattered Chain by Penglaive

Summary: In the aftermath of Zero Requiem, a murder mystery in reverse. From the start, the assassin is known, and the victim is willing. What, then, could possibly go wrong?

Note: I don’t recommend the sequel, though. It’s not nearly as good.

19) Cicadas by Maidenstear

Summary: It won’t be until later that he will think of summer.

20) Turning Points: REvelation by elarief

Summary: What if Suzaku knew who Zero was almost from the start? Friends can agree to disagree over small matters, but when live and let live is almost impossible, something has to give. Gen, SuzaLulu if you tilt your head sideways and squint.

21) Geass Noir by Aki1.

Summary: When the Britannian Crown Prince is murdered in his own home, everyone in the Royal Family becomes a suspect. As the primary detective assigned to the case, Suzaku thinks this might finally be the death of him; that is, if a certain raven-haired pianist at the bar he calls his second home doesn’t kill him first.

Note: Read this even if it kills you.

22) Surveillance by MillyAshfordFan

Summary: Lelouch begins fantasizing about Suzaku after being memory-wiped by his father. When his memories return, the fantasies persist, and Lelouch has to deal with the fact that the Office of Secret Intelligence is aware of his desires.

23) First Kisses by MillyAshfordFan

Summary: Nunnally reveals to the student council that Lelouch’s first kiss was Suzaku. The council members freak out, and Lelouch acts like a dork. Oneshot

24) Zero Sum Equation by elarief

Summary: After Zero Requiem, Suzaku struggles with a mental breakdown. He holds Zero close, and Lelouch even closer, confusing himself with them both. Flashbacks, M/M, explicit, identity crisis, delusions, accidental self-harm.

25) And there will be time by Aynessa

Summary: Suzaku had always been able to get under his skin.

26) Turning Points: Loyalty by elarief

Summary: What if the Black Knights didn’t turn on Lelouch when they found out he was Zero? Without the power of his despair, Lelouch has more to lose, and yet more to gain in defeating Britannia. But his tools and motives have changed. Gen, SuzaLulu if you tilt your head sideways and squint.

27) Between Professors by spirithorse

Summary: It had been a year and a half since he had seen Suzaku. They had both been busy through the last school year. It did nothing to explain why he was at Hogwarts.

28) Divine by MillyAshfordFan

Summary: Suzaku cannot think how this situation could get any more bizarre. It’s probably two o'clock in the morning, and his best friend, princess, enemy in combat, and student council president are all staring at his naked ass. Lulu/Suzaku/Euphie threesome PWP.

29) Amor fati by N. Silvutra Mayhem

Summary: Suzaku clenched his fists. “Britannia started the war,” he growled. “They killed him. I will crush Britannia.” / / Seven years ago, Kururugi Genbu fell to a different death. Role reversal, not Suzaku-centric AU.

30) Shades by MillyAshfordFan

Summary: Lelouch takes many shapes: a haughty bird, a femme fatale, a lethal snake, a familiar face — the possibilities are endless. But does he even remember his true form? Is Suzaku holding onto something transient?

31) Committed by elarielf

Summary: Geass!World is all in Suzaku’s head. LOCATION: A Psychiatric hospital. CONTAINS: M/M, oral, possible medical squick.

32) Forgotten by elarielf

Summary: When the Lancelot blows up after his last fight against Kallen, Suzaku hurts his head and gets amnesia, losing all his memories. This is version 2/2 - the cracky version. M/M, Explicit, fourth wall abuse

33) Wasureru by elarielf

Summary: When the Lancelot blows up after his last fight against Kallen, Suzaku hurts his head and gets amnesia, reverting back to his pre-knighted memories. This is version ½ - the angsty version. M/M, Explicit

Note: I’m such a sucker for angst.

34) My Mirror, Sword and Shield, its sequel, Never Meant You Harm and Back to the Start by spirithorse

Summary:

For My Mirror: Suzaku always knew that Lloyd was eccentric, but he never expected Lloyd to build a time machine, let alone one that worked. Nor did he expect to be transported eighteen years into the past and meet the infamous Demon King. Base on Back to the Future.

For Never: Nineteen years after her brother’s death, Nunnally gets a shocking surprise.

For Back: There were probably a thousand more reasons why she wanted to help this boy, but the most pressing one was because he was abandoned and alone, and she knew how that felt.

35) Turning Points: Chess Match by elarielf

Summary: What if Lelouch took Schneizel’s king in episode 9 of R2? With Suzaku out of the picture, Lelouch takes the opportunity to turn the tables. But then he still has to deal with C.C., Suzaku, Nunnally, the Ragnarok Connection… Gen, SuzaLulu if you tilt your head sideways and squint.

36) Meikyuu by elarielf

Summary: Nine years after Zero Requiem, a tired Suzaku is lured to a maze in a deserted area. Nine years before Zero Requiem, Lelouch finds himself in a similar predicament. Time and space become mutable as they both roam the maze, searching for an exit. Maybe.

37) Countdown to Hope by elarielf

Summary: 5 Ways the SAZ could have fallen - and one way it wouldn’t have that don’t include canon. No pairings unless you want there to be. Characters: Lelouch, Euphemia, Suzaku. Short chapters, 6-parter. Gen.

38) Bird’s Eye View by Aki1

Summary: In 1977 L.L. traded his Geass for immortality at the age of 18. Forty years later he would meet a young Japanese soldier whose lofty dream was to change an Empire from within. “Together, you and I can accomplish *anything*.”

39) And All the Days After by spirithorse

Summary: Nunnally comes to terms with what happened during Zero Requiem. Gen.

40) The Sound of Breaking by Aynessa

Summary: She had always thought that Zero might be slightly unhinged. Gen, SuzaLulu if you tilt your head sideways and squint.

41) Touch by elarielf

Summary: *Spoilers for end-of-series* They never touched.

42) Art by elarielf

Summary: They were all artists in their own way, flawed, but beautiful. Gen.

.43) The Ghost in the Machine by RobinRocks

Summary: Lelouch can’t let the world be and, likewise, Suzaku can’t turn his back on his prince, no matter how much he wants to. The world might not be so easy to change this time around, however. Their enemy? Geass itself. Post-R2.

Note: For anyone who’s familiar with the APH USUK fandom, just the name of the author itself is enough reason to start reading like there’s no tomorrow.

44) Blank by Vermillion Lies

Summary: A Zero Requiem fic. Some SuzaLulu. Possibly disturbing content - hence the rating. Spoilers. –He didn’t, maybe he’d regret it later and do it in his dreams, but he didn’t do it then.-

45) Delusions of Grandeur by Diamond Mask

Summary: In which the fitness-challenged Lelouch has aspirations to dominate Suzaku, and Suzaku proves to him that he was only ever meant to be loved.

46) Complex by RobinRocks

Summary: Suzaku is so used to Lelouch hiding one thing or another from him that now he expects him to.

47) Monomania by RobinRocks

Summary: It’s a strange old house, but stranger still are the things which happen within its walls. Not that Suzaku Kururugi would ever allow himself to become obsessed with anything. Poe-inspired Victorian AU for Halloween.

48) Hush by RobinRocks

Summary: Suzaku smiled as Lelouch gasped out his name, breaking the silence. “Hush,” he whispered in reply, mending it again. SuzakuxLelouch. Set in Season One. Oneshot.

49) Detention, Peccadillo, By Way of Mouth, For Me, It’s You, Thirst, Adjournment by Val-Creative and Diamond Mask.

Summary:

For Detention: “Kururugi-kun. Do you know why you are here?” At the ‘kun’ address, Suzaku deepens his frowning, “Someone ratted me out?”

For Peccadillo:“I kind of like the sound of extra credit,” Suzaku leers.

For Thirst: The first time… Lelouch only allowed himself that night a small sip. It hit the back of his tongue with a sour, powdery orange tinge…

For Adjournment: “You do not disappoint to make a perfect appearance,” Lelouch addressed him, tossing him the sword. “Go on then. For our beloved countries. Kill me once again.”

50) Just Like Magic! and its sequel, Imitation Magic by Vermillion Lies

Summary:

For Just like Magic!: A fairy tale gone wrong in which Suzaku finds the wrong castle and Lelouch is a not-princess with some serious family issues.

For Imitation Magic: Because –Just Like Magic!– wasn’t silly enough.

51) You Wouldn’t by RobinRocks

Summary: And Suzaku didn’t. Spoilers for finale of R1.

52) Blue Blood by RobinRocks

Summary: I’m so glad you came, Suzaku, to keep your promise. SuzakuxLelouch. Their final night together, overshadowed by the Zero Requiem. Spoilers for the Final Turn of R2.

53) With Your Arms Wrapped Tight Around My Neck by dahliadenoire

Summary: “I had a bad dream.” - “Come here, then.”

54) The Prince and The Knight by Happiness’s Deceit

Summary:  There was once a prince. He was not a golden prince, as so many are, but he was a prince.

55) The Cradle of Summer by Iluxia

Summary: Oneshot, complete. Suzaku/Lelouch. It has been more than a decade, and at long last, Suzaku is free of the mask. His heart, however, will never be free of his King. Post-R2 25, spoiler warning.

56) Orchid and Rose by Mikomi’s Pen

Summary: Clovis. On being caught between goodness and greatness. Gen.

57) Survive by RobinRocks

Summary: “It wasn’t a suggestion, Suzaku. It was an order.” Threeshot. COMPLETE.

58) Family Matters by DnKS-giRLs

Summary: “It’s true, isn’t it?” Rolo said as he looked at Lelouch and Suzaku in most dramatic way. “You are my parents…”

Note: Glorious crack.

59) Guinevere by DnKS-giRLs

Summary: A somewhat-SuzaLulu-fic. As Lelouch Lamperouge watched The Knight of Three, Gino Weinberg, browsing through the school’s old photographs, he began to think that brain was surely not an important factor for someone to be accepted into The Knights of Round. Gen, mostly.

60) The Road to Stockholm by Jusrecht

Summary: After the shot from Avalon, Suzaku was captured by the Black Knight Order and from there, things got a little problematic. [Zero x Suzaku, hints of SuzaLulu]

Note: I don’t recommend the continuation.

61) Nothing So Simple by RobinRocks

Summary: If only it truly was as simple as a single sentence.

62) Code Geass: The Black Prince by R334

Summary: would have Lelouch become a different person had Cornelia taken him in and spared him exile? One thing is certain: his desire to find justice has certainly not abated… Gen.

63) The Fool Ascendant by Mikomi’s Pen

Summary: What leads up to a gunshot, and what follows it. [spoilers up to 25]

Note: The fic that started it all. Read it even if it kills you.

64) ashes, ashes by Neko-chan -Silvered Tongue

Summary: You are dead,’ said the dispassionate king. .. A brief glance at Lelouch. Lulufocused slight LuluSuza.

65) Marker by swanfrost

Summary: What if Marianne/Anya acutally did draw on Suzaku’s face? How would the battle with Charles si Britannia go? Minor OOC, crack.

66) One Good Turn by elarief

Summary: Code Geass, Genbu/Suzaku, Suzaku->Lelouch, Suzaku&Lelouch - Suzaku looks like his mother. He knows this because his father tells him so late at night when he visits Suzaku’s room when all the rest of the house has gone to bed. Apparently in the dark, Genbu can forget that the person beneath him is a child and not his dead wife. Lelouch finds out and, when the time comes, he, not Suzaku, kills Genbu. Incest, pedophilia, shota

Note: Read this even if it kills you. Figuratively. Heed the warnings. Don’t read this if they trigger you.

67) Indecent Proposal by elarief

Summary: As a condition to agreeing to the SAZ, Zero demands one night a week with Suzaku, which Suzaku altruistically agrees to. He isn’t entirely surprised when things turn sexual, but he is surprised at the care and effort Zero puts into making sure Suzaku’s enjoying himself. M/M, dub con, manipulation, BDSM-flavour, pseudo-infidelity/polyamory.

68) Hunger Geass, Hunger Geass: Recurrent Knighmare and Hunger Geass: Zero by elarief

Summary:

For Hunger Geass: Britannia has its own version of The Hunger Games, occurring annually. Fusion!fic with Lelouch and Suzaku sharing the roles of Katniss and Peeta, and other Code Geass characters added as needed. Rated for violence, explicit sex, dubcon, explicit descriptions of injuries. Book-verse-based world.

For Recurrent Knighmare: While Lelouch and Suzaku have returned to Area 11 in one piece, the illusion of safety is quickly stripped away by Pendragon politics and Lelouch’s screwed-up family. More Code Geass characters enter the mix as Lelouch and Suzaku return to the Games, once again fighting against other Tributes and the system that put them there. Rated for violence, explicit sex, dubcon again.

For Zero: The Hunger Games are over and the rebellion is under way. Suzaku and Lelouch are tested to see just how broken they can get, by enemies and allies alike. Betrayal is inevitable in a civil war, and political jostling for power leaves behind ruin, but neither Lelouch nor Suzaku are content with merely being anyone else’s tools. Rated for violence, explicit sex, some infidelity.

68) In the Army… by elarief

Summary: Military officer!Lulu and Solider!Suzaku. Kinks: crop whips, military uniforms, topping from bottom, and dirty talking. M/M, explicit, dubcon, roleplay, hair tugging, plus all of the above. There’s a reason it’s 11,000 words ;p

Note: Glorious, glorious PWP.

69) Enemy at Home by elarief

Summary: Suzaku is an FBI agent tasked with finding Zero, a politically-motivated serial killer. But when Zero starts targeting the agency, even Suzaku’s lover Lelouch might be in danger. AU, Explicit, M/M, M/M/M, M/F, violence, sexual violence/inequality.

70) Red Geass by elarielf

Summary: Crossover with The Mentalist. The death of a person of unknown origin at Ashford Academy wouldn’t normally warrent the Area Burreau of Investigation. But when the suspects are an Eleven in the military and his odd friend, Jane might be a little too clever at his job for his own good. Gen.

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[lumisenti]

Today I came to terms with my grief. Today is the day I resolved myself to move on. For weeks I've been depressed and low energy and unable to do anything about the rot accumulating in my room. I shower when I have the energy and overindulge in an attempt to feel better about myself.

It ended today. At least a little. I spent time with Zayne today and he said that he'd make time for me. He wanted to. He's so busy but he sat with me in silence because I asked him to. When have you made that choice?

While sorting my clothes, cleaning my trash and the filth in my room, I came to the realization that I want to be someone's first choice. When Akira told Goro that he chose to love him, it made me ache and howl with a feeling I didn't know. Envy? Sadness? Joy for the fictional character in my story who has suffered so much?

I'm sorry for dragging you into my impulses and for breaking you, but I hold true that no matter how much I love you and you me, we can't work. I never have been and never will be your first choice. You will always pick your friends or even yourself over me. You will never stream the game I want because you and your friends are already halfway through and you don't want to do it without them. We will never have a watch party or a book club because you and your friends already got something going on and I am only allowed entry if I do what everyone wants. But what about me? Your friends will berate me and curse me and all you'll ever do is pretend I don't exist because being a doormat is more tolerable than picking a side. Though, your inability to pick a side has already sealed your fate.

You will always pick them, their sorry excuse for company. You will always indulge them and their hobbies in a way you can't for me. And because of that, we can't be happy.

[overshelter]

REVIEW: Case File Compendium/BingAnBen/BAB

WARNING: Contains SPOILERS, so beware!

BAB was a trip.

It has a very good pace of world development until about halfway through. After that it gets a bit, hm, stagnant. But it's not totally disappointing, it just doesn't give you that extreme anxiety to know more about the investigation and the whole criminal organization of the Mandela Plan. Besides, I thought the whole science fiction thing was a bit of a misnomer. I think Meatbun faltered a little there and could have been more careful. Perhaps it lacked a certain stimulus, I don't know.

Well, apart from what I've said, what I liked most was undoubtedly the emotional and mental work. Especially Xie Qingcheng.

His whole vision of himself as a person, of the world and how he had a vision, a future in which he saw himself as disposable, only to end up as someone who thinks: "I'm wanted, I'm remembered, I'm loved" really enchanted me.

The analogy of him being a patched-up teddy bear that nobody would want got to me so much! Especially in the narration of his past, how he felt like an imposter when he came back and got that reaction from Xie Xue.

For this reason, until now, after reading the entire novel, chapter 132 remains my favorite and the one that got me the most. That "thank you for coming back alive" from He Yu was something Qingcheng always wanted, but could never have. Knowing that he was right to fight, right to persist in living and how happy he made someone in his life by not giving up and undergoing treatment with RN-13, was... beautiful. Really.

He Yu made him think that his life still had value, that despite being a patched-up teddy bear, someone still wanted and cherished that teddy bear, even with all the cuts, patches and replaced parts. That teddy bear still brought comfort and could still be loved.

AND THAT'S EVERYTHING TO ME! BAB CHAPTER 132, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!

Okay, okay. Moving on.

I also really liked the work with He Yu, even if I thought that the author faltered in some areas, but in general he's my baby dragon who makes me tap my feet with how adorable he can be, especially in the extras! And, sir! I love, LOVE how disgusting He Yu can be! He's totally a young master, never stopped being one!

Concubine He and Dr. Xie really do have complementary personalities, and I firmly believe that, even if they tried, they wouldn't feel complete with other people. They were meant to be together! And, like, in every way!

What He Yu lacks, Xie Qingcheng fills and vice versa. I strongly believe that these two argue a lot and have fights over ridiculous things. And that delights me, as I'm sure they'll be in a loving mood by the end.

IN SUMMARY!

Case File Compendium/BingAnBen/BAB is a good choice of reading for those who like the "mental, investigation and fiction" theme. I recommend it if you've checked the triggers/tags and like a "love/hate/HORNY" couple KEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKEKE

[lumisenti]

I think it's time to leave. Time to leave it in the past. I love you. I can say that sincerely and so strongly. I want to say it's unconditional, but maybe there are conditions. You helped me so much and you were my company when I was alone. But I think you're tired. And I want to change. I want to fall in love and make friends and be with people who actually like me. I want to stop having you haunt me whenever I think about my future. I'll always love you and have you in my heart, I will always cherish your memory. I can't keep tying you down to me. I'm sorry. Don't feel obligated for me. I'm more than grateful for everything you've done for me.

I think it was about time. I suppose that deep down, I knew I was never a priority. I was never a first or even a second choice. It always hurt me that you stayed with people who actively loathed me, long after I left. What does it say about your conviction and your values? Am I that inconsequential, that unimportant? I'm so tired of being a secret. I'm so tired of being hidden and only dusted off after making excuses.

Thank you for all the lessons. I hope I meant something to you too. I'll stay until the tickets are delivered but after that, I think we're done. I pray you meet with like-minded people who love and respect you. I wish you success. I wish you peace and growth and stability and for you to be able to rely on someone the way you were never able to do with me. I love you. Be safe.

[junosswans]

I wanted to make postcards with new art, but my progress was SO BEHIND so I ended up polishing a 95% finished one and took this to print instead. Fortunately this piece turned out really good and I love it a lot 🥺♥️

it has all my favourite elements, Taisho era, sakuras, Roy being a meanie..... And I'm honestly quite satisfied with the outcome 🌸💖

Printed version ⬇️

A bunch of technical issues happened at the printing shop that I went to, so I accidentally ended up with wayyyyyyyy more copies than I meant to order.... And got a few XL sized ones even (because of formatting error).....I have no idea what to do with them lmao

Regardless, I'm quite glad that I took the drawing to print and it makes me giddy looking at the prints. The last time I printed anything was like, 6 years ago and it was rather embarrassing cbjskcmzmxm

Mutuals, if you want one please feel free to DM me!! ♥️ I'll be very happy to send you one.

Mutuals who aren't into RoyEd, I do plan to draw and print another two or three pieces (1 AlMei and 1 EdWin, still considering the last one, maybe RizaLust?) so please look forward to that too 🥹♥️

I might sell the remaining at a con or online, but tbh I don't think many ppl will be interested 😂

[darkcrowprincess]

Royed thoughts:

Another thing that's my favorite in Royed fics, the slow gradual process of Ed going from Calling Roy "Bastard/Colonel Bastard," to "Roy". Like it gets me in the feels everytime! Because him calling him Roy is the sign that he trusts him!! Another thing I love, Roy being one of the few people that gets to call Ed "Edward." To most people it's Ed or Fullmetal. But Roy calls him Edward. Especially in that Mustang voice. Just the use of first names as a sign of trust is everything to me with Royed! But especially coming from Ed.

[elric-art]

[maeverade]

happy holidays🥂✨️

[owarinaki]

Fullmetal alchemist : Roy Mustang & Edward Elric Official art 1

[tierfal]

ok but can u just imagine royed with ed being ishvalan?? like ed hating roy at first but then slowly coming to love him??? idk

I AM NOT ASHAMED TO SAY I HAVE THOUGHT ABOUT THIS A LOT

‘Cause you also have to consider how much more directly Roy would have to face his PTSD (especially if we’re working in an '03-ish 'verse) if he hired a walking reminder of all of the horrible shit he’s done.  And I think that would intensify every single aspect of all of his struggles – with Ed’s position particularly, e.g. Exactly how much shit can I put this child through without doing permanent damage to his psyche / while still being able to live with myself when the shit Ed’s ALREADY been through is so much clearer and more prominent in his mind; and with the weight of his guilt and his quest for atonement having a physical presence in the room.

And obviously Ed would pretty much see Roy as the embodiment of everything that is shitty in the world, and his resentment of the necessity of the game he’s playing with the military would be magnified by a power of ten – probably he’d come within a hair’s breadth of quitting every other week; and I imagine he’d probably scare himself with some of the things he’d consider as far as being revenged on Roy.  We all know Ed’s not a killer (…on purpose), and I think deep down Ed knows he’s not, but he’d fantasize about it in such detail that he’d terrify himself, and then he’d feel all Hamlet-guilty for not having the balls to do it when it’s clearly the only productive use of his position, and think of all the people he knew and was related to who are dead because of this fucking guy whose boots he’s licking as a means towards a selfish end instead of taking this whole fucking building down and trying to pull the rotten country with it…

ANYWAY, you could do all kinds of fascinating stuff with that – I tend to feel that both of them have endowed the other with some symbolic qualities in canon*, and I think in this case, that would be so much more complicated, because each of them would be imposing all of the war-related strife on the other as well, and there’d be so much projection of all of the anger and guilt, and… eventually there would be these startling moments where, like, Roy would just dryly say something RIDICULOUSLY funny, and Ed would be rooted to the ground for a minute like Wait what the fuck he’s a person he is a PERSON; and vice versa where Roy would see Ed, like, playing hopscotch with a lonely kid on the sidewalk and arguing about the rules, and Roy would be just too far away to see the color of Ed’s eyes, and the sunlight on his hair would make it look more white-blond than white, and he’d have this jolting epiphany that pretending that bailing Ed out of small-scale trouble is somehow making up for anything that happened in Ishval is an insult to everyone involved, and…

…shit, dude.  I have too many projects going already, and also feel like I might shortchange the amazing elements of this premise, or I’d totally write some shit. XD

*To me, at least, Ed is very much a sort of beacon of purity to Roy, insofar as he wades through the dreck and comes out on the other side with his morals intact and unshaken, and it’s not that I think Roy wants to be pure like that or thinks he ever could and still achieve his end goals, but he admires it all the same.  And y’all know by now that “Ed gives Roy hope like no one else on Earth” is a fundamental part of this OTP for me. XD”

For Ed, the Cold Flame ep of BH especially makes me feel strongly that he thinks of Roy as a source of just, if not unerring, power/protection for those who can’t protect themselves; and he sort of relies on the combination of mastermind puppeteer + alchemical powerhouse as a foundation of safety that allows him to run off and do crazy shit.  Finding out otherwise is a huge betrayal.

[psych3-delic]

RoyEd ABOverse + Hohenheim

Hohenheim realize that the alpha scent that lingers on Edward is his CO 🤭

[psych3-delic]

“Papa’s home, Mae.”