Sydney

don’t follow me if you don’t wanna see how depressed i can get this blog is for me

[blackshvck]

the idea that every summer will be as hot if not hotter than this for the rest of my life is unbearable i need to (remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health) murder an oil executive

[salamanding]

my birthday is long past over at this point, but i forgot to post the things i drew for it on here so here they are!

[salamanding]

object shaped like a person

[pincushionsoup]

[lunarsydney]

why does just existing hurt so much

[lunarsydney]

i get why people use the phrase “emotional labor” now, like, when I didn’t have any friends it sucked and I was lonely but I wasn’t constantly sapping my energy, and it’s not like I actively dislike any of them? it’s just so much, I feel like I can’t possibly give everyone what they want from me

[lunarsydney]

how can i tell people no when i *know* that they have literally nobody else

[lunarsydney]

I hate that I still feel guilty about wanting time to myself. I know I need to listen to my body/mind and like when it's too much and stuff but I still feel like I need to do everything to make everybody happy. And I feel guilty for even thinking this but a part of me is like "why do so many people want to hang out with me?". It's a really weird problem to have, especially when I basically didn't have friends until my third year of college

[lunarsydney]

Y'know, of course depressed people tend to self-isolate, like, putting effort into maintaining friendships is so hard when you're constantly exhausted and overwhelmed

[lunarsydney]

I hate that I still feel guilty about wanting time to myself. I know I need to listen to my body/mind and like when it's too much and stuff but I still feel like I need to do everything to make everybody happy. And I feel guilty for even thinking this but a part of me is like "why do so many people want to hang out with me?". It's a really weird problem to have, especially when I basically didn't have friends until my third year of college

[captainkisser]

our princess of the dark

[clausilly]

the aquas

[ghostpotion]

🎀

[tallytime]

shes so cute aw

[veryfunctional]

[yellow-cat]

(voice of a person spiralling) its embarrassing but i still havent figured out if its ok for me to be alive

[lunarsydney]

how am i supposed to do anything when i wake up wanting to die

[lunarsydney]

i wish i could get anything done