Why Me?

I like better living in dreams

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This man. He creates magic through his fingers.

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I’m a little tipsy for drinking too much red wine. I want to love and be loved. I want to live.

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I need to get thin, I wanna feel fragile and naive even on the outside. I’m soo big and I feel it doesn’t represent me. I need to feel tiny, I got so fat...

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He’s in a relationship with a girl he told me not to worry about...

I think that for the first time I’m feeling free, he can live his life and it won’t affect me, at all.

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SW/CW: 66kg/145.5lbs

GW: 60kg/132.2lbs

UGW: 55kg/121.2lbs

If you have any tips, accounts to recommend or anything please tell me:)

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I saw him during easter holiday. For one day. At the beginning I couldn’t look at him in the eyes or talk for I was too angry, but I felt the same as before. I’m physically and platonically so attracted to him. In the evening everything was going fine, the embarassment was almost gone, but it was nothing like before we even started dating and it never will be. I miss him as a friend. I don’t know how I’ll behave in august...

I thought that maybe, someday, when we’ll be grown and changed, something could happen again.

Is it a sick thought?

How can I forget him? I liked him for so long, I don’t even know how it feels to fall for someone new...

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Rupert Everett and Colin Firth, 1984

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Billie Holiday

<3

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Tracy Chapman

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Him

I had a relationship with a guy I have known since I was young. Now I’m 18, he’s 16. We live in two different cities, I live in Milan, he lives in Como. At the start everything was fine, I always see him in summer and in september we kept in contact. It went on and, even though we rarely saw each other, we were happy and kind of in love. But, from the start, I had some doubts. He is younger than me and I was scared he wouldn’t have had the facoulty to manage a serious relationship. It came out to be true. He didn’t understand how important calls, messages and hanging out was for me and for us. Things started to drop, he was always “too busy” for me and I started to feel so bad. I told him, and everything ended. We haven’t kept in contact for a month. Yesterday I saw him at our friend’s party. I was so drunk for I was scared I wouldn’t be able to manage the situation. In some moments we behavied as nothing ever happened, as if we were friends. I asked him to talk and he behavied in a so stupid way. He kept on saying “I’m so drunk, I don’t understand anything”. It was sooo fake I would have killed him. I was so disappointed. How was it the same person who said to love me (by messagge let me specify). He than messaged me to tell me that he didn’t remember that moment between me asking him to talk and the moment right after he went away without saying nothing. Why couldn’t he just say “I don’t want to talk” instead of acting? So sad. Today I sent him a message to clarify asking him his thoughts, he replied with two tiny messages. He needs to grow up, I shouldn’t have started a thing with a boy younger than me at this age. Anyway I miss him everyday even though our was a non-existing relationship. I will see him in august and then he will leave for America where he will stay for almost a year, that will be a sad month...

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Billie

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Jake

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Tove Lo

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Tracy

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Hugh

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