TheLuveMorsche

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“I can’t say hello to you and risk another goodbye.”

— I Almost Do, Taylor Swift

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ive been drowned into my own darkness, and tonight I’m still trying to fight all the pain. and I dont know that am I waiting until I become numbs, or just give up and let myself die. I’ve been consumed with my own disappointment, yet people still judge me as being too much, and not deserve an apology, in fact im the one who need to apologize. my inner side might want to do that, as i get used…

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am I happy

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Just a story

what I wanna say is, Ive said to much, over and over again about the same story. at this moment, I really wanna write you and say “how are you” but I dismiss my feeling when I’m thinking again what was happened a days ago. To me is pretty hard to invalid my feelings as BPD survivor. especially when it comes rejection, and again, when people yell at me on public. somehow i didnt even realize if…

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THE FEAR I HAVE

Today, you might wonder why would I fear you? I understand if at one point it sound threaten for you,how could no… when someone who you love and love you have this kind of terrified feeling. You might wonder, if I love you then why would I fear you?Trust me, it’s not an easy answer for me too. And I wish I could find the answer on you. After this time, I was really overwhelmed how to tell you…

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JUST a BETTER ME

To me you are someone who bring a positive impact to me, you open my eyes for being feminine.You changed everything I believe in once. I’ve been raised as tomboy, ive been taught to survive and fight alone. And then life gave me another trial that strengthened my belief. I’ve spend my childhood to see unfairness to my mom from my dad, where woman should fight harder in order to keep family…

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I love you the same

Tonight I want to pour all the feelings I have that you might never hear from me. I do love you with all my heart, and like I always said a hundred times, my feelings to you will never change.I feel so damn lucky to be loved by you, showered with unlimited affection, plenty of understanding. In my eyes, you were more than a boyfriend, and I would lie if I said I have no future plan with you.…

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A Naked Feeling

It has been a hard week for me, yet no one noticed. Or maybe I just shut the fucked up and swallow shit by myself. Ive been crying so fucking loud inside of me, I scream as loud as I can, my eyes reflect pains, yet still noone notice. Ive just been through the hardest heartbreak ever.abortion an innocent baby from someone I truly love dearly, only because I was afraid.I love him, but I am afraid…

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Tranquillity

Hello, World. Tonight really feels so calm, and here i am thinking about weather its just calm vibe, or my heart just in calmness. in fact i know its not really true, i didnt feel calm, beside i feels terrible turbulence. in one minutes im really really sad and become depressive,in the next minutes, i feel pity for myself. in the next minutes, i dont really give a fuck about anything. in the…

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Change is Hard

Change is hard. At this moment I keep saying that I have no idea where I wanna go, or what my purpose is. The truth is, I do know it very well. I just need to be acknowledged, and feel safe in saying what I want. When the energy doesn’t match, all that I’m saying would sound weird. I don’t fuck with culture, society, or dumbness. I am open to everything if it benefits my self-development, and…

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A piece of shine about ME

33 years ago, a girl has born into this world in a small city in the west of Indonesia, somewhere near 0 point of measurement of Indonesian island.And now I live in paradise island, they said. a thousand of gods island, so you know where I live now, won’t be that hard to find me no??I’ve been blessed with 2 kids and should raise them on my own, and I still feel grateful about that. Girl and boy…

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