Co-Stars turned Lovers
A Callum Turner love story
Chapter 2: "Falling behind"
Pairing: Callum Turner x Fem!Bestfriend!Actress!Reader
Warnings: angst, reader feels down, Callum and reader's relationship is on pause, special guest: Barry Keoghan, hurt to comfort, reader feels left out, long talks with Austin + some smexy tension, PLOT TWIST, fluff, reader goes out with Austin and has fun... enjoy!
Summary: {In this chapter, reader finds herself in her thoughts after being out with friends. All of her friends are falling in love and she's falling behind... Her feelings for Callum slowly fading away but she will have to face the fact that she can't have it all...}
THIS CHAPTER IS BASED ON THIS SONG:
Previously on Co-Stars turned Lovers...
That night was a night you've never forgotten but what you were completely oblivious too was that that night was unforgettable to Callum too.
He thought about that night everyday he looked at you... everytime he touched you... everytime he sees lip gloss coat your full lips.
It plagued his mind like a virus corrupting a humans mind. He wanted you badly but he knew he couldn't have you. He couldn't ruin this relationship he had with you, this beautiful friendship, but goddamn were you addicting.
you and Callum were polar opposites yet destined to be together...If only you two could open your eyes and see what is right in front of you.
You and him were made for each other, you just needed to find each other. Like two lost souls searching for a purpose. Like the Earth and the Moon, they look platonic but one can't live without the other. Destined to fall in love either way.
Love, fate, and desire... Something you two need to give into in order to find yourselves.
You were out to brunch with a couple of your friends from high school. You guys were a tiny knit group, just the four of you, together all the time and never breaking up.
The one thing you hated about being in this group was... you were the only one without a man. You were 32 years old and still to this day haven't found a man.
The main problem was because nobody met (Callum's standards) your standards. They weren't like Callum. Another main reason was because you never really wanted to do that dating thing, going online then meeting up with them only to find out there a total dick.
It was sad though, it still broke your heart. Vanessa would have a funny story to tell about her husband, Sandra always had gossip about these guys at her boyfriends job, and Stacy would always have something to say about her husband and his family and how spectacular they were.
Whilst you, you never had anything to contribute to the conversation. They would ask you about work and if you've gotten a role or a casting call but never, EVER will they ask you if you have a man unless you bring it up.
Because they know. They know you haven't gone out to find one, they know your phone has zero messages or notifications from a dating app about how you and some random named dave matched.
They know that you're stuck up on one man and one man only.
"Did you hear me?" a muffled voice said. You look up and realize they are all staring at you. Vanessa was next to you with a hand on your shoulder (she was the one that spoke) and Sandra and Stacy were in front of you with worried looks on their faces.
"Huh, what did you say?" you ask with confusion. You chuckle and speak again, "Sorry, I was zoned out badly wasn't I." When you realize that that didn't exactly lift the mood your smile fades and you clear your throat.
"I said, when are you gonna tell him?" Vanessa repeats her previous statement. "Huh, tell who what?" you ask confused.
"Callum silly!" she says with a smile. Your eyes widen and she laughs. "Hi! Hello, do you remember who I am? Awkward me could never tell him I love him." you respond taking a sip of your lemonade.
"Oh please, you already tell him you love him, you need to tell him you're in love with him. There's a difference." she ends in a sing songy voice.
"yea well even if I did do that, he doesn't feel the same." you say with your head down.
"EXCUSE ME!" Stacy yells out. "Do I need to remind you of the story you told us about a thousand times? "OMG Callum kissed me last night and we were all alone!" Do you remember now?" She says with a scrunched up look on her face, her eyes narrowed at you in an accusing manner.
"That was not what I said at all Stacy... I said that we were a bit tipsy and he called me beautiful and then kissed me. He immediately apologized and we both forgot about that night like it was nothing." You say with your head in your hands.
"Babes, that was clearly not nothing." Sandra says. "There's no way being a little tipsy makes you all lovey dovey and kiss someone like that. You remember us in our college days. Being tipsy doesn't make you do bold moves like that."
You shake your head, "well then if he was still in his right mind, why didn't he confess his feelings right then and there? Why apologize and make a deal to forget it ever happened?" You counter to her argument.
"Maybe he's scared? Doesn't wanna ruin a good friendship and make it awkward if you didn't feel the same?" Stacy responds.
"Or maybe he's a pussy." Vanessa says. You all look at her shocked. Stacy is shaking her head while you and Sandra are just staring at her.
"What!? it's a fact though isn't it?" she defends. You all shake your heads. "Anyways..." Stacy says, "He's doing the same thing your doing. Testing the waters and as soon as he feels he's going too far, he overthinks and then shuts down."
"Stacy does have a point girl. Communication is always key in a relationship. That's how me and Brad got through are arguments so well. A majority of the time is was over a lack of communication." Sandra says.
"Yea but you guys were already in a relationship. You both have already gone through that stage of getting to know each other. Me and Callum have known each other for years now, and still I don't know how to approach him. I feel like if I put all that on him, he'll get scared and leave me. I've become to attached to him for him to leave me..." You say sadly with tears in your eyes.
Before anyone can say anything, you get a phone call. "It's uhm it's Barry, I gotta take this." You say wiping away the tears that escaped.
"Hey, Are you busy right now?" He asks.
"Nope, I'm just out with friends. Why? What's wrong Bare?"
"Nothing, just wanted to talk to you about Callum, can you come over? If not we can stay on the phone?" He says
"Yea, I kinda can't leave right now but I can stay on the phone. What about Callum?"
"Well he's uhm-" before barry could finish you hear yelling over the phone.
"CALLUM CALM DOWN!" You know who's voice that is, it's Austin's.
"uh barry, what is going on?"You say chuckling over the phone as you pace around the outside of the cafe.
"So yea, your not the only one with separation anxiety. Callum has been crying and screaming for the past three hours because he misses you. We got off our plane about 5 hours ago and then he saw you on the billboard about 3 hours ago and now he's been crying about wanting to hold you ever since."
You laugh out loud and laugh the happiest most genuine laugh you have laughed in hours. Soon you get an incoming facetime call from Barry and you see Callum's eyes immediately.
"Hi loveee! It's you! Why aren't you here?? COME HERE NOW! I need you please!!!! Your my pookie! is that how you say that word? pookie? poooookie?! ha!" he says over the phone.
"I'm coming Callum, don't worry. Barry! I'll be there shortly ok? Just hang on folks." you respond with a smile on your face.
You hang up the phone and go back inside the cafe. The girls all look at you with worried expressions yet again.
"I have to go, Barry needs me to help him with something." You say with a small smile on your face.
"To help with something or someone?" Vanessa says with a smile on her face.
"Oh shut up! Bye girls! I'll talk to you guys tomorrow!" you yell out and wave.
You walk to your car, get in and turn on the radio hoping it will bring you good spirits.
The moment you turn it on a lovely upbeat melody begins.
"Moved out to a new city, June is dawning down on me."
you listen to the lyrics closely as you back out of the parking lot.
"And all that I can find, A sickly romance in the air. Lovers stroll without a care in sight, ooh this can't be right..."
You shake your head, "Sure is." you say while driving. You turn it up a little more.
" 'Cause the sun's engaged to the sky. And my best friend's found a new guy"
"wow. these lyrics hit deep, why does this relate to me so much." you say sadly.
"I'm only getting older I've never had a shoulder to cry on, Someone to call mine"
"Everybody's falling in love and I'm falling behind"
You turn off the radio and sink in your seat as you ease up to a red light.
You think about what the lyrics said and about how your life is going versus your friends lives.
you turn the radio back up and listen some more.
"Touched the ocean, fell right in Stepped outside and burned my skin My life won't go my way."
That part is very true. Your life just doesn't seem to go your way, especially in the love aspect of it.
"Bossa nova in my room Hope that I'll find someone too to love Because"
"The sun's engaged to the sky And my best friend's found a new guy I'm only getting older"
You are only getting older. You're 32 and still haven't found someone to call yours.
"I've never had a shoulder to cry on Someone to call mine Everybody's falling in love and I'm falling behind"
You start to cry as your thoughts overwhelm you, speeding the car up by stepping on the gas a little harder.
"Everybody's falling in love Everybody's falling in love, oh Everybody's falling in love but me"
you hear the last of the melody before you finally reach Barrys house. You just sit in the driveway head on the steering wheel as you cry your heart out.
You hated this, god how much you hated this. Seeing your friends in happy relationships while your sitting here suffering. Suffering from the fact that you are falling behind.
Suffering from the fact that every time you look at Callum, you get butterflies. Every time he touches you, your skin burns with love for the rest of the day.
You don't get that feeling with anyone else. You used to get that feeling with Austin, but then he found a girlfriend. Yea they broke up and you could always go to Austin but you don't wanna do that to him
You don't wanna ruin a good friendship where everything is pink and white. Love fucking sucks. Maybe you do need to talk to someone about this. Austin! Austin! Austin!
A little voice is telling you to talk to the person you trust and love the absolute most(apart from Callum).
You wipe the tears from your eyes and the smudged mascara on your eyes and walk towards the door.
You knock and to your lovely surprise it's Austins face. Also to your surprise, his face is sad.
"Austin?" You ask grabbing his face. "What's wrong?" you say with a sad frown on your face.
"I should be asking if your ok?" he says. Your face obviously contorts into one of confusion choosing to push all your feelings down.
"what do you mean?" you ask confused. He pulls his phone out and it shows an article that was posted 35 minutes ago. It has a photo and video link posted below. You begin to read the article...
Y/N Y/L/N SEEN CRYING OUTSIDE OF A CAFE WHILE ON THE PHONE, SHE IS HEARD SAYING CALLUM TURNERS NAME AND AUSTIN BUTLERS NAME:
Many say that y/n y/l/n was crying while on the phone. She was heard and seen by many fans and people who stood on the sidelines.
What could have possibly occurred to make actress and famous award-winning woman cry. Well many witness took videos and pictures that are all linked below.
Could this possibly be a love triangle between her, Callum Turner and Austin Butler? Could she be crying because she doesn't know what to do?
Well, stay tuned as they are being interviewed tomorrow by the one and only JIMMY FALLON: ON THE TONIGHT SHOW!
you read the end and your eyes are wide the entire time after you finish reading the article.
Austin puts his hand down and tucks his phone in his pocket. He looks at you. "I don't care about the love triangle why were you crying?" he asks.
"You may not care Austin but I do, it doesn't matter why I was crying and that so called video was weeks ago! I wore that outfit 2 weeks ago! Does that look like the outfit i'm wearing today? Fucking love triangle!? Are you fucking kidding me!?" you say throwing your hands up.
"I've already had the most shitty day ever and now this!? Why honestly can't I just be left alone? THIS IS FUCKING INSANE!"
Austin stands there looking at you. "Oh don't gimme that look Austin!" you yell out.
"what? what look y/n?" he says lowly. You stare at him and make eye contact for the longest time it felt as if time just stopped.
"I honestly d-don't know. Your giving me two looks. One looks like i'm fucking insane and the other look..." you trail off.
"what's the other look?" he asks with an eyebrow raised as he turns around to close the front door behind him leaving the both of you standing outside.
"Like i just hung up the moon and all the stars in the sky." you say breaking eye contact and looking at your feet.
"Maybe it's both." he says with a shrug. You look up at him with wide eyes and blink. 'What did he mean by that?' you thought. Before you could say anything Barry walks out with a tired and annoyed look on his face.
"You. And You. Inside. Now. Before I Pew pew him and myself." he says in his accent that you found just so adorable.
Austin chuckles and opens the door motioning for you to go in first.
"In you go M'lady." he says with a smirk on his face. You smile and walk in. You remove your shoes and walk over to where Callum is sitting on the couch.
"Hey Callum." you say with a smile, but when you say it he doesn't respond. As quickly as the smile came on your face is as quickly as it left.
You look at Austin and mouth 'did he see it?' and Austin nods yes. You sigh and look back at him. He doesn't even look at you. 'Why should he be mad, your the only one that should be pissed here.' you thought. It just wasn't making any sense.
Maybe Vanessa was right, Callum is being a pussy and you couldn't take it anymore, your finally realizing you can't have it all.
Maybe it's ok to be falling behind...
"You know what. Let's just cut to the chase." You say standing up and going to the front blocking the tv from Callum's view.
"We all saw the stupid article, ok? So Callum stop acting like a fucking baby about it. I don't know why you possibly could be upset or whatever batman broody mood your having but let's get one thing clear. Maybe 2 things."
Austin leans against the wall and Barry sits on the coffee table next to Callum.
"Number 1: That video was from 2 weeks ago. That isn't a new video. Number 2: I'm done being stereotyped because I have male friends and it's all "Oh there totally fucking" or "Yea no there definitely in love!" Like no were not! So if you and you know." You say pointing to Callum and Austin, "That we are not a thing and we are not dating, why is it affecting you so much." you say pointing to Callum again.
"Barry calls me over here for you, I finally get here and I get what the silent treatment? We all have an interview tomorrow and you wanna sit here in your fucking feelings cause of what? Me crying?" you say with a bitter laugh.
"I love all of you. Your my boys! But right now you feel like strangers to me. Especially you Callum. So if. you wanna be. on non-speaking terms and put this talk or friendship on pause by all means! Cause I can't keep doing these mixed feelings and one second your happy and wanna see me and the next you can't even look at me."
There's silence in the room for a. whole minute and you shake your head and scoff, "I fucking knew it. Well bye Barry, it was nice seeing you and hearing from you. Bye Austin, I'll text you later." You say before walking out of the door and slamming it.
You walk to your car and get inside. You don't turn it on you just sit there and breath. You feel like crying but what's the point. Your done. Done with Callum, done with those stupid feelings.
It's time to move on cause you can't have it all.
You look up and turn towards the window. You see Austin's face and give him a weak smile before rolling down your window.
"Hi princess." he says. A nickname he's given you since you first started filming Masters of the air.
"Hi my prince." you say adding onto the little joke. He smiles at you and you wanna cry.
Callum used to smile at you just like that... God you have to get Callum out of your head!
"I know, you know. That your in love with him." Austin says as he fiddles with your steering wheel.
Your eyes widen at his confession and you proceed to talk. "How do you-"before you can even finish he interjects.
"It's obvious y/n. The way you look at him. The way. your eyes light up whenever he's mentioned in. a conversation or how giddy. you get whenever you talk about him." He explains.
"I's that obvious?" you say lowly.
"Your that oblivious? Everyone sees it. Why do you think the whole world believes your dating? They know what it looks like when someone is in love."
"But that leaves m-me and you... The whole love triangle thing. The fans never catch us together and only a few ship us together." You say oblivious to the truth.
"You know what I said about the way you look at Callum?" He says and you nod slowly trying to understand where he's going.
"It's the way I look at you..." He says looking away from your eyes. Your eyes widen with realization.
"Oh Austin... get in the car, we're going for a drive." you say smiling at him.
He shows confusion but your eager and motion for him to get in the passengers seat.
He runs to the other side and gets in. The both of you drive in silence for about 5 minutes before you say something.
"Austin...You know you didn't have to hide it from me right?" you say taking a glance at him.
He looks at you while your driving and pulling in to a McDonalds drive thru. "Yea I know, but you like someone else, sorry no, you love someone else. How can I get in the way of that especially when it's two of my best friends?" he says as you pull up to the board to order.
"Hold that thought ok? Hiii can I get Quarter Pounder with cheese please, and A large fry with a cola and a vanilla cone please?" You ask. The lady repeats the order and asks, "Is that all for you today?"
you look at Austin and ask, "Do you want your usual Austin?" He stares at you and smiles. "I'll take that as a yes!" you say with a chuckle.
"No, can I also get a double cheeseburger with a large fry and a lemonade with a chocolate chip cookie please? That's all!" you say with a smile.
She tells you order total and tells you to pull up to the window. You roll up your window again and turn to Austin as you sit in the line.
You guys pull up to the window and you give the lady your card and grab your food before you pull into the parking lot and turn off the car.
"Well I mean your my celebrity crush you know that? You've been my crush since Elvis, not even! Since like Sharpay's fabulous adventure." you admit.
His eyes widen as he takes a bite of his fry. "There's no way, your insane!" He says with a laugh which causes you to laugh with him.
"Yep!" you say stuffing your face with fries. "I've like been obsessed with you ever since then. Was always so excited to meet you and one day, I got to see you, and that was when like 14 year old me's dream came true. I got to act on screen with you for the first time." You say with a smile on your face.
"I never knew that. You just make me love you more every day you know that?" Austin admits to you as he looks out the window. He eventually turns to you as he takes a sip of his lemonade to wash down his food.
"Austin..." you say before he cuts you off. "I know I know, can't admit my feelings for you, I know." He says lowly and slowly.
"Austin..." you try to say but again he cuts you off. "How am I supposed to do that though? I mean your just like so gorgeous and like one of the best things that's ever happened to me. What can I do to change your mind y/n? Hmm? I just need to know how you fee-" he's cut off with you grabbing his face and kissing him.
His eyes are wide until they flutter closed and relish in the feeling of your mouth on his.
From what feels like hours is only minutes and you guys pull away and his eyes are still closed.You open your eyes and giggle at his reaction.
"Does that answer your question Austin?" you say with a smile on your face. His eyes open and he smiles back at you.
"Yea, but what about Callum?" He asks. You smile even wider now. "Austin, baby, I wanna forget about being in love with him all together! I want you know, why chase after a man who doesn't want me clearly and can't get his priorities straight when I have a man who loves me for me and sees me and is someone I've had a crush on since 2011." You say laughing and smiling with him.
He grabs your face and kissed you again. "Hey y/n?" He whispers out.
"Yea Austin?" you whisper back with a content smile on your face. "Wake up." he says.
You pull away and when you look at him with confusion, real you shoots up out of bed and wakes up realizing it was all a dream...
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