it’s nice to have a friend
lando is one of your closest friends… until he sleeps with you and ghosts you.
part one ★ part two ★ part three ★ part four ★ part five ★ part six ★ part seven ★ part eight ★ part nine ★ part ten ★ part eleven ★ part twelve ★ part thirteen ★ part fourteen ★ part fifteen ★ part sixteen ★ part seventeen ★ part eighteen ★ part nineteen ★ part twenty ★ part twenty one ★ part twenty two ★ part twenty three ★ part twenty four ★ part twenty five ★ part twenty six ★ part twenty seven ★ part twenty eight ★ part twenty nine ★ part thirty ★ part thirty one ★ part thirty two ★ part thirty three ★ part thirty four ★ part thirty five ★ part thirty six ★ part thirty seven ★ part thirty eight
bonus written parts: one ★ two
call it what you want
a PR relationship neither of them wants turns into the only way to keep their careers under control.
i just wanted to come on here and address a few things because i hate leaving you in the dark.
first things first: i’ve decided to discontinue call it what you want. there are a few reasons for that, and i want to be honest about them. some things happened in my personal life, and i hit a really bad case of writer’s block. at the same time, i started feeling really unsure about the direction of the story and, for some reason, i just couldn’t get back into writing lando’s character (as i grew a bit disconnected from him, sorry).
i also don’t want my writing to feel forced or insincere, and that’s how it started to feel. i couldn’t really connect to the story anymore. it’s honestly kind of funny considering how long i spent developing it, but creating a story in your head and actually putting it into words are two very different things, i guess.
another thing is that i’ve decided to take a step back from the f1 fandom in general. over time, it started to feel really toxic and exhausting, and i realised it was taking up a lot more of my time and energy than i wanted it to. i took a bit of a break from f1 content, and during that time, i ended up reconnecting with other fandoms and media that i’ve been enjoying a lot more lately (please don’t ask which ones lol i’m slightly embarrassed. fandoms are toxic everywhere, so it’s probably not exactly a win, but the food is so delicious!!!)
i’ll still be watching f1, of course. i love the sport and i’ll always keep up with it. i’ll be right there rooting for charles and hoping max gets his fifth !!! but right now, i just don’t see myself running a blog dedicated to f1 or writing fics about it.
this feels a bit dramatic lmao but i didn’t want to just disappear without saying anything. i really appreciate everyone who supported my stories and this blog <3
i’m not saying i’ll never come back or that the story will never continue, just that right now it’s not something i’m able to work on. but who knows what the future holds :)
nessie please don’t feel pressured to do more than what you feel comfortable with. write at your pace, release chapters once you feel they are how you want them to be. it’s just as your other series, we will always be excitedly and patiently waiting for your release times. much love!! <33
this is so so sweet, thank you <3 honestly, messages like this mean more than you know and really help keep me going. i always want to put out chapters i feel good about, not rushed ones, and it makes me really happy that you’re willing to wait :)
love of my life light of my life nessie. i hate to give you any false hope but that man did finally reach out again after ghosting .. i'm not saying that i'm going to respond but this is me asking for any advice from my wife and favourite author on here
- anon💌
p.s. nessie jr. is doing so good !!
my dearest anon💌, bringer of tea...
HE CAME BACK??? AFTER GHOSTING??? channeling my inner gigi rn
listen, i won’t tell you what to do! you know him, you know how it made you feel the first time. but before you answer (or don’t), ask yourself: does he deserve a second chance or your silence? would replying give you peace, closure, entertainment… or stress?
you’re allowed to answer out of curiosity, boredom, pettiness, or not at all. the only rule is that you do what feels right for you !!! and remember: ghosting once can be a mistake. ghosting twice is a pattern. 💋
I know this might be a very random question but do you have any tips for getting over/moving on from a crush?😭
(He's my classmate and friendswith my friendsso I can't avoid him and even though I really feel like he doesn't like me back I just can't seem to get over him for some reason)
hi <3 not random at all! honestly, moving on from a crush is HARD (especially when you still see them all the time). i’ve been in a relationship for years, so i’m a little out of practice, but i’ll share what i remember + what i’ve seen work for others:
try seeing him as a real human, not the fantasy version your brain wrote about him. crushes usually survive on idealisation and we fill in the blanks with perfection. start paying attention to the real, imperfect parts of him (maybe he talks too loud, chews weird, forgets assignments). reality is the fastest way to weaken the delusion! basically, try to get the ick
distract yourself: hobbies, music, studying, exercise, anything. while it won’t magically erase the crush, it will give your brain something else to chew on. also, someone once told me they do math when they need to shut their brain up (okay, it was my math teacher). when you focus on problem-solving, you use a different part of your brain than the one that spirals!
talk about it! (like you did here, that already helps!)
since you can’t really avoid him, try gentle distancing when you can, even mentally
and most importantly, be patient with yourself! feelings don’t just switch off like they do in the vampire diaries. you’ll have good days and bad days, that’s okay!
i know, easier said than done, but you’ll get through it! and you can always come yell about him here <3
Hey!!! Love your smau, still go back and re-read the other one when I need to release some anxiety 😂 You manage to give the exact vibe of what smau’s should give and I read a lot of them, so thank you lots!! 💜 I had a question, sorry if you said this before and I missed it, will you be updating the new smau weekly? Love your works 🥰🥰
thank you so so much omg !!! i’m glad inthaf is your comfort reread <3
and yes, the plan for now is a new chapter every 5–7 days! depends a bit on the length + how chaotic my week is, but i’m trying to keep it fairly regular :)
i sincerely apologize for spamming you with likes but your writing skills are actually insane. i literally had a restless sleep and woke up at 4 am and kept reading the oscar fic till 7 am and i had work at 8??? i feel like i’m 14 years old again
OMG no apologising allowed !!! spam me always, it fuels me 🙂↕️
also waking up at 4am to read? wow. you’re insane (in the best way) and i hope work didn’t kill you, ily <3
Nessie, you're a genius!!! I already love the new story so much, I'm obsessed with it I can't to wait to see how it'll work out (and I'm also really nervous about it cuz I know you'll make us suffer during it😭❤️)
stoppp you’re making me blush !!! thank you so much, i’m glad you’re enjoying it already <3
and yes… be nervous. if inthaf gave you trauma, this one might finish the job—JUST KIDDING
I should be doing physics but I'm literally not able to 💔
Lando Norris being whipped for his fake girlfriend in the big 25? Plausible and accepted
ALSO SABRINA CARPENTER IS THE BESTIE?? my girl is going to need tequila, wine,thoughts and prayers for handling y/n (i'm still haunted by inthaf)
i love you <333
and fun fact: sab wasn’t even my first pick because i felt like she’s used in a lot in fics! but then the shawn plotline came up and... let’s just say i take inspiration from my own life sometimes lol
hiii it's 🤍 anon heree!!
so the thing is i've had a massive crush on this guy for over 3 years now, since october 2022, on and off a bit, ok? (I must confess he’s my only proper real person crush, excluding fictional characters and celebrities, LOL). it’s literally psychological torture to me cos no matter how hard i try to completely get over this unrequited, delusional crush — i can’t seem to. I always seem to go back to this default and it sucks. We’ve barely ever spoken to each other so i feel like im just romanticising a whole bunch of nothing except half decent looks — but GODD I HATE ITTT. like free me from this prison of a crushhh, lord pleaseeee. And recently i feel like the universe has been fucking me over even more. Like i’ve just gotten him for secret santa the second year in a row — like wtf?? And he’s been liking my insta notes a lot but ik that’s all just bs cos he’d never like me. At all. Anywho, sorry, i just needed to get some stuff off my chest. That’s all, thank u so so much for letting me vent ness!! <3
honestly? sometimes the fastest cure for a crush is actually getting to know the person and realising they’re just a regular guy… I’M JUST KIDDING I SWEAR (unless it works)
but fr unrequited crushes are torture, i feel you. the brain just randomly picks someone and refuses to let go no matter how illogical it is. you’re not crazy for that, it happens to the best of us! and you can vent to me anytime <3 stay strong bestie
also the secret santa thing twice in a row is CRAZY WORK
wait, I thought you had the story mostly written and you are posting daily or all at once, how come it is only one chapter every five days? (I absolutely love it already btw)
guys i swear if you ever saw my workflow you’d have a stroke lmao
i do have a lot of the story written already... but mostly in the form of scenes, plot points, and dialogue chunks. now i’m stitching everything together so it feels coherent and not like a speed run from one drama to another. and turning written bits into social media posts, chats, screenshots etc also takes time. formatting, graphic making, rereading to make sure i didn’t accidentally leak my nudes or credit card information... you know, the usual.
so it’s not that i’m withholding chapters or anything, i’m just making sure each one feels complete and polished before i release it. promise i’m working on it! <3 (maybe even harder than i’d like to admit!)
