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Self-destructive pig.

[luvzmez3]

I’m training for the winter. Oh to be 80 kg by December (176.37 lbs) ☕️🪵🤎🐻🧺🍂

⭐️VING TRACKER.

JULY: 122kg (✔️)

AUGUST: 113kg ()

SEPTEMBER: 105kg ()

OCTOBER: 96kg ()

NOVEMBER: 88kg ()

DECEMBER: 80kg ()

[luvzmez3]

[liasecretdiary]

Why I’m excited to loose weight:

Face fat is gone

Lips appear bigger

Don’t have to be the fat friend

Can wear whatever I want

Can share clothes with my petite friends

Become more attractive

Get guys attention

Be picked up easily

Eat but not look like a pig

Sit down and have no pouch

Go to the beach in bikinis

Pretty privilege

Post on instagram

Not be disgusted by myself

More visible ribs and collarbones

Be dainty

Skinny legs

Thigh gap

There is so much more but there are so many pros of being skinny so I just need to stay consistent.

[luvzmez3]

I literally JUST found out my trigger food. Chocolate spread. I used to steal tubes and tubes of chocolate spread and throw it out the window when I was under 10. We are talking about 15-20 tubes/jar of chocolate spread found when the snow disappears.

I thought now that my appetite was suppressed I could only take here and there but I finished half the jar in 2 days. 2 DAYS and we are talking about 2k calories worth of chocolate. Needless to say, I’m full still but the chocolate spread ain’t worth it.

[luvzmez3]

Someone once said I was this picture personified and I took it personally.

[luvzmez3]

@samanthas-safespace ahaha I know we talked about protein keeping you fuller for longer, but I figured out why my appetite is suppressant ahahah

I started taking chlorophyll a week ago and it’s working.

[luvzmez3]

Had 5 of 8 sushi bites (crispy chicken) today. I’m assuming all 8 are 562kcal. I’m gonna calculate todays intake as such because I also had half a glass of chocolate milk for breakfast.

And a Coca Cola zero. Ahaha I know I only wanted cola today but I felt for sushi and I didn’t wanna ignore my craving incase it turns into a binge later (

[luvzmez3]

When I’m at work and scrolling through tumblr only to come across a bc - scroll faster, another body check, and then another so you just go to home page.

[dietcokeefolk]

maturing is realizing that ana is just like a relationship. there’s a honeymoon phase, the phase after the honeymoon where you don’t look forward to st4rving as much and it’s starting to take its toll but you’re in too deep to stop, and the third phase where you see the most results, and everything is so easy from there it’s like second nature. it’s similar to a relationship in that people want to leave when things get hard not knowing that it’ll only get easier after. hope whoever reads this sees it as inspo to not give up and binge <3

[luvzmez3]

My goal is not to eat anything tomorrow, just a cola/energy drink so we will see how it goes. Isa. Bi’idhnillah.

[luvzmez3]

WEIGH CHECK IN:

August:

Week 1: 122kg

Week 2:

Week 3:

Week 4:

Week 5: 113kg

[luvzmez3]

Intake today:

370kcal (2 tortillas)

200kcal (teaspoons of Nutella 🥺)

140kcal (tunfish.)

84kcal (1 glass of chocolate milk)

I weighed myself after the meal and I have lost 2kgs to far this month.

The truth is I wasn’t even hungry but I don’t want to wake up at night hungry, or find it uncomfortable to sleep.

794 kcal. Total.

Going for a walk and taking 10k steps rn would be the cherry on top, but really I’m having toothache (the left side of my face is swollen and it feels like the skull is hurting ALL the way to my eye but I’m assuming it’s just the muscles and not the skull lol)

And I also slept not so good last night + woke up at 8:00 for work so I don’t feel like going for a walk.

[bowsmith]

“i need to get on your d!et.”

it’s called hating yourself, hope this helps!!

[luvzmez3]

465kcal and I’m still FULL? is this the outcome of starting your morning with protein? Cuz seriously it is 21:39 and I can’t feel anything.

[luvzmez3]

360kcal for breakfast today. @ 8:15am.

3 knekkebrød. 43kcal x 3

1 Thai chili Tunfisk. 140kcal (14g protein)

+ tajin sauce, sour cream & sweetchili sauce + 1 jalapeño.

Let’s say 450kcal in total. That will be it for today. I am having sleeping for lunch and dinner. Isa.

And a 15kcal battery coconut energy drink.

Total 465kcal.

[luvzmez3]

Also, I even went back to the store like 30mins after I bought the banana and walked out empty handed. I kept walking in circles the store manager thought I was stealing

Just get what you want next time forreal.

800kcal is better than 1k+

Atleast I got 15k steps alh.

[luvzmez3]

NEXT TIME YOURE CRAVING SOMETHING, EAT IT!!!

Was craving 288kcal ice cream this whole time but didn’t want 800kcal so I broke down and ate a banana, and then a low cal hotdog, and then tuna with tortilla cuz I was to hangry to open the low cal bread.

Ended the night with 1131kcal.

If only I’d gotten the sugar (288-309kcal ice cream box) I was craving 😫 I would have ate the whole tub at the end of my walk and isa not eaten anything else.