lucifer

since i had been broken, i wanna be the one who breaks others

[thoughtkick]

“I choose to love you in silence because in silence I find no rejection, and in silence no one owns you but me.”

— Rumi

[siickangel]

so much love

[perfectquote]

“Raise your words, not voice. It is rain that grows flowers, not thunder.”

— Rumi

[fairydrowning]

"I did not like to be touched, but it was a strange dislike. I did not like to be touched because I craved it too much. I wanted to be held very tight so I would not break."

-Marya Hornbacher, Wasted

[fairydrowning]

"I'm not used to being loved. I wouldn't know what to do."

-F. Scott Fitzgerald, More Than Just A House

[bpdcrybaby213]

I wish I could get up when I'm having a BPD episode. I wish every little thing didn't make me feel angry and cry for no reason. And I wish I didn't split. Splitting is the worst, it makes me think really bad things about people I love even though I shouldn't, even when technically they haven't done anything wrong. But my brain controls me and says nobody really cares and I'm just a burden to be tolerated through gritted teeth. And my mood sinks so low I can go from happy manic to suicidal in two seconds. And there's no fucking cure. It's literally all in my head.

[lone-nyctophile]

[bpdcrybaby213]

When you're empty and unfulfilled and want to be impulsive and self destruct just for a little razzle dazzle because everything is so goddamn boring.

[luziferismus]

GOTT ES TUT SO VERDAMMT WEH UND ICH FÜHLE MICH SO SCHRECKLICH EINSAM

03:52, 27.09.2022

[aidashakur]

[honeypleasejustkillme]

can we talk about how awful it is to have both depression and bpd? i mean bpd intensifies any emotion you feel, but depression deprives you of joy, so you're just going on with your life feeling every horrible emotion to the max with no compensation whatsoever. and people think i’m ungrateful or can't accept "the nature of life" or i'm expecting too much. trust me, i am not even expecting happiness; i just want relief

[free-my-mindd]

Unfortunately, I don’t wanna rebuild bonds that I didn’t break. You crossed the line, I didn’t so I’m good.

[evaughn]

[luziferismus]

niemand hat mich je so sehr und so oft gebrochen wie du es getan hast und ich hasse dich dafür.

aber vor allem hasse ich mich dafür, weil ich all dies zugelassen habe. ich war zu dumm, leichtgläubig und naiv, sodass ich wirklich geglaubt habe, dass alles, was wir hatten, echt war. es war herzzerbrechend für mich herauszufinden, dass alles – jeder einzelne satz, jedes einzelne wort – von dir erlogen war.

ich hoffe, dass ich eines tages darüber lachen kann. heute tut es noch viel zu weh.

[honeypleasejustkillme]

with bpd feeling bored is like feeling so empty that you wanna hurt yourself just to feel something

[lone-nyctophile]

- Beau Taplin

[altruisticwriter]

A happy ending:

“She agreed to love herself deeply.She was finally the sun of her own life.”

-Juansen Dizon, I Am The Architect of My Own Destruction

[altruisticwriter]

“I killed a plant once because i gaveit too much water. Lord, I worry that love is violence.”

-joseolivarez