Warnings: major angst, breakups, heartbreak, allusions to cheating, self doubt, mean!Steve, King!Steve, hurt/comfort, love triangle, mentions of an ED, past trauma. Eddie x reader ending.
Parings: Steve Harrington x fem!cheerleader!reader | Eddie Munson x fem!reader | Steve Harrington x Nancy Wheeler
Summary: Steve was slipping through your fingers and you desperately held onto him not realizing that his heart wasnât yours anymore. Dealing with the aftermath of your breakup turns out to be harder than you thought. Steveâs presence still lingers and while he keeps a hold of your heart, someone else sneaks their way into it too.
prologue | part one | part two | part three | part four | part five | part six | part seven | part eight | part nine | part ten | part eleven | part twelve | part thirteen | part fourteen | part fifteen | part sixteen | part seventeen | part eighteen | part nineteen | part twenty | part twenty one | part twenty two | part twenty three | part twenty four | part twenty five | part twenty six | part twenty seven | part twenty eight | part twenty nine | part thirty | epilogue
Preview: Y/n starts the new semester at school. She happens to have the same exact schedule as one guy, Matt Sturniolo. He's known to be a 'bad boy.' Constantly ditching, tattoos, and not giving most people the time of day....but will that apply to you?
WARNINGS: 18+, smut, alcohol, parental abuse/neglect, overall mature themes, and more. (This is made for all parts)
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Chapter 15: Remedies Of Honey
My brain was scattered. No thought was coherent enough to put into words as I laid deathly still in bed, technically, my own bed.
Ironically enough, it didnât feel like my room. Even though Laura and Madi had helped me move in my things to the simple bedroom, it didnât feel like it was mine. It felt like a hotel. Mattâs room was the scene that came in my mind as I thought of âmyâ room.Â
Matt.Â
His name echoed in the walls of my head with utter confusion. He wasnât a liar. The only time he had ever lied was to protect me. I watched him time and time again be the sweetest person to everyone around him, always supporting those he cared about.Â
I thought I was one of those people. Now, I wasnât so sure.Â
With my dad, it wasnât easy, but it wasnât surprising either. He had never shown me that he cared. He had never tried to care.Â
Matt was different.Â
Matt clouded the air around me with a sickening sweetness that I had become accustomed to. The subtle lingering touches that he littered on my body constantly felt like a breath of relief. So natural and easy, yet something I had never even dreamed of having in my life.Â
Love scared me. I didnât know anything about it. With Matt, I didnât used to be scared, but with every rustle of the branches outside my window, time seemed to take its toll as my thoughts seeped in with unanswerable questions.Â
Why would he not tell me?
What else was he not telling me?Â
My phone screen had replayed the same video a multitude of times I zoned out. A message popping down from the top of my screen brought my attention back to reality.Â
[From Matt: Hey, everything okay? Nick told me youâve sent him like 30 TikToks, why arenât you asleep?]
My fingers stay frozen in place as I watch the notification disappear. Was this all just out of pity? Was this his escape?Â
Did he ever even want me?Â
[From Matt: Iâm coming over to pick you up. Meet me outside in five?]Â
I huff at the message, pulling open the chat. My fingers hesitate over the electronic keyboard.Â
[To Matt: Why?]Â
[From Matt: Please. Nick and Madi were texting and he told me what happened. Itâs not what you think.]Â
[To Matt: Okay]Â
I reluctantly pull the covers off of my body, stepping out to the cool air in the simple t-shirt and sweats. Both Mattâs.Â
Had I really let him consume every inch of me already?Â
I flatten the material of the wrinkled shirt while stepping out of the room. Quietly, I make my way down the stairs. I patter towards the front door, grasping my keychain tightly to prevent the metal jingling.Â
I pull the door open ajar, stopping at the squeal of the wind rushing through the void. My eyes peer through the crack, Mattâs flushed cheeks puffing with heaving breaths of air.Â
I squeeze through the door, shutting and locking it behind me as I listen to Mattâs breathless huffs. As I turn around, he reaches out a hand. My hands stay trained at my sides as I glance down at the open palm.Â
âPlease,â he says with a pleading tone. â---I can explain. Please, justâŚjust trust me.â he finishes.Â
Nodding slowly, I put my hand in his. His fingers clasp around almost instantaneously in a secure, gentle manner. âWhere are we going?â I ask.Â
He shakes his head, pulling me behind his stride between the two houses and into his backyard. âJustâŚtrust me, okay?â he says.Â
Squeezing my hand in his, our pace quickens down the dirt path. âOkay.â I say quietly.Â
The light posts fade into the distance from the street, leaving only moonlight. Step after step, the lake comes into view. The shining reflection of the night sky makes my eyes wander over the water.Â
Matt reaches over to the tree, grabbing the picnic blanket that had been slung between the oak branches. He drops my hand, flicking out the large square of fabric. The blanket lands, covering the section of grass with the blue checkered pattern of material.Â
He sits down on the blanket, pulling his knees up to his chest and crossing his arms over his knees. He looks up at me, the silver moon dancing in his irises. I melt under his gaze. My knees buckle as I land softly next to him. I mimic his position.Â
My eyes glance back towards the water, my head urging me to lean on to his shoulder. The tired ambiance of my brain lets my subconscious fall to action. I let my neck relax, my temple resting lightly on his shoulder.Â
A sigh of relief escapes my lips as I feel one of his hands wrap around, cradling my head. How could I not trust him?Â
The secret weighing down on me had felt so heavy alone in my bed, but it didnât anymore. Not here with him. The doubts seeped through the cracks of my mind like water. âWhy didnât you tell me?â I ask.Â
His shoulder rises and falls with a hefty breath beneath my head. âI was going to. I really was, I justâI didnât know how. I tried, I really did, I swear. ButâŚâ he trails off. I feel the comforting weight of his head fall gently on top of mine.Â
âBut?â I urge.Â
âI didnât know how and I could never find the right time. I was first gonna tell you after my hockey game. The one, well, the one where, you knowâŚâ he airy words seep through the breeze.Â
âThen,â he rubs the side of my head with his hand briefly. â--everything just kept going wrong. It hurt to see you crying every night, I couldnât put more on your plate.â he says.Â
My heart softens at his words. He was doing it for me, not to me. His intentions were as pure as his soul. My muscles fall more relaxed against him with the comforting aura of his affirmation.Â
âIâm sorry. I shouldâveââ I bring my head off his shoulder. His eyes gleam into mine with a somber gaze. I reach out my hand, caressing the underside of his cheek. I look between both of his eyes with a soft smile displayed on my face, watching the wrinkles relax between his eyebrows.Â
âItâs okay, Matt. I trust you. I understand.â The truth leaves my lips as I watch his teeth peek out from his curled lips. As we look into each otherâs eyes, I find myself unable to take my eyes off of his.Â
I see his eyes travel down to my lips, darting quickly back up to my eyes. I lean into him, letting my eyes close. Anticipation floods my system as I feel his breath fan across my lips.Â
His hand comes up, wrapping around the back of my neck and gently pulling me towards him. Our lips meet with a soft kiss, the warmth of his mouth seeping onto mine. I feel the tip of his nose graze my cheek as he pours passion from his lips with each movement.Â
I put my hand onto his shoulder. My head tilts upward, chasing his lips with a soft and slow energy. He matches my rhythm, my stomach fluttering from the sensual lingering movements. My lungs begin to scream for air. I find myself unable to pull away, chasing the delicate beckoning of his lips calling my own.Â
A soft smack echoes through the withering wind. He leans his head down, his forehead resting against mine. Our breaths combine with breathless gasps of air. The lack of air makes my mind even hazier, intensifying the feeling from the intoxicating passion from his lips.Â
âIâŚI bought you a ticket to come with us to LA for springââ he says. I let out a soft laugh, interrupting him.Â
âI know, Madi told me. Youâre insane. I canât believe you bought me a plane ticket.â I exclaim softly. His eyes look into mine through the short distance. I notice every detail that the moonlight highlights. The pale color of his blue eyes is like ice, but looking at the hue of color makes me feel nothing but warm.Â
He smiles at me. My cheeks ache from the extraneous use of the muscle, my lips still pulsating from the kiss. âI donât wanna pressure you, IâŚI just want you to see what life could be like out thereâŚwith me.â he says.
He doesnât want to leave me. He wants to leave with me.Â
I bite down on the soft flesh of the inside of my cheek, fighting back an award winning grin. My stomach swirls with excitement and a feeling of extreme care towards the soft man sitting in front of me.Â
âIâd love to.â I express. I see his lips curve downward, an upside down smile forming with resistance. He shakes his head with a light chuckle, the movement moving my own head in the slightest against his.Â
He looks back up at me through his eyelashes, a sight I immediately try to engrave in my memory. âIâd really love to.â I emphasize. He sucks his lips between his teeth before scrunching his nose with a smile.Â
âThereâs no pressure though, okay? Even if you donât comeââ his smile falters at the thought. â--Iâm still coming back to visit all the time. I want you to do whatever makes you happy, no matter whatâIâll visit you.â he finishes.Â
What makes me happy?Â
He makes me happy, Madi makes me happy, his family makes me happy, but what else?Â
âHey,â he squeezes on my shoulder. I snapped my eyes back at him, realizing I had spaced out with the taunting thoughts. â--what are you pouting about?â he asks.Â
âIâŚâ my mind wanders back and forth. He brings his hand up, caressing my hair behind my ear and bringing my attention back to his eyes. âI donât know what I want to do, Matt. Iâve always been so worried about everything elseâŚI just, I donât know.â I sigh.Â
âI donât even know my favorite things.â I mutter out with disappointment. The sinking weight clambers down on my chest as I feel the warmth of his forehead against mine dissipate. I lean back from him, my eyes trained on the blue checkered material between my hands resting on the blanket.Â
His fingers loop beneath my chin, pulling my head upwards. He looks in my eyes with a sparkle of moonlight reflecting in his pupils as they dilate. âYou do.â he says. I shake my head reluctantly with a slight frown.Â
I go to object, my lips parting. âYou do.â he repeats. I look up at him as my head tilts to the side, leaning with a huff. âCome onâŚyou do, I know you do.â I give him a small tug of my lips, shrugging my shoulders.Â
He shakes his head, âYou know so much. You do, I promise. I meanâŚyouâre soâŚyou. You love root beer, you love chocolate chip pancakes, hot chocolate, and the shortbread chocolate cookiesâdamn, you really do love chocolate.â he laughs.Â
He caresses his hand on the bottom of my jaw, biting his lower lip with a smile. âYou also love coloring, old disney movies, club penguin, stuffed animals, andâhow could I forget, McDonalds ice cream.â he says.Â
A smile pulls on my lips as I prod my tongue in the side of my mouth. Each piece of information spills into my brain as I curate the list in my imagination. He was right, but more than thatâhe was sweet.Â
Matt had always been very sweet. Honey and sugar envied him. Not even the sweetest candy could compare to the sickening sugar that coated his lips from his words. His soul oozed an aura of comforting sap, something that should make a person sick from indulging too much, but I couldnât get enough of it.Â
To swim in his honey pool felt like a magical remedy healing every wound, even the scars so deep in my soul that I had forgotten they were there. I wasn't scared of getting hurt. The pond of his heart puddled in front my eyes, cushioning every cautious step into places my mind labeled as danger.
âI know you. I know you enough to know that you know yourself. Give yourself some credit.â he says. I soothe the fabric of the blanket under my fingers, the thin material allowing me to feel the pillowy grass beneath it.Â
âYou seem to know a lot. I didnât know you paid that much attentionâŚI really appreciate it.â I express in a soft whisper.Â
âI could go on for hours.â he teases.Â
I squinted my eyes at him with a cock of my eyebrow, challenging him. âReally?â I question. He gives me a curt nod.Â
âMhm. You say your favorite animal is a penguin, but itâs really a moose. Youâve always wanted a pet. HmmâŚwhat else? Ohâyou love gardening, you want your own greenhouse one dayâŚ.â he trails off as I look at him with nothing but adoration.Â
His parted lips fall closed as his smile beams at me. âItâs hard to think when youâre looking at me like that.â he points out. I let out a soft laugh, shoving my shoulder into his playfully.Â
Balancing my weight on my palms, I lean forward, gently pressing my lips on his cheek. The skin flourishes with a red hue under the pale moon, the tint traveling up to his ears.Â
âYou missed one thing.â I point out. He looks over at me swiftly. I pull up my hand, shifting the messy brown locks out of his face. My hand falls to his shoulder as he looks at me curiously.Â
âYou are definitely on my list of favorites,â his smile grows with his teeth peeking out from his lips.Â
âReally?â he says. His eyes squint at me. I nod my head affirmatively.Â
âMhm,â I lean, letting my head rest back onto his shoulder.Â
As I let my body relax into his body warmth, my mind eases completely into the moment. I feel his head resting on top of mine, the grass tickling my fingers from poking through the blanket, and the night breeze blowing with a soft wind.Â
âYou are my favorite.â he whispers from above me. I hum, nuzzling my head further into his shoulder as the smile becomes bigger onto my face. The smile that had never even left.Â
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As the night grew colder, Mattâs worry for me getting sick did too. I hadnât wanted the moment to end, and it still hadnât. Our bodies laid tangled together under his pillowy comforter, our body heat radiating with a perfect warmth.Â
My face presses against the bare skin of his chest, his tattooed arm thrown behind me and pulling me closer to him. He hums, hugging me tighter as I let out a soft giggle.Â
âWhat are you doing?â I ask. His playful eyes glance down at me with a soft smile.Â
â--âm just want you closer.â he mumbles. I pull myself up by placing a hand on his shoulder. I lay my head on the pillow, my face inches from his. I feel his arm underneath the pillow curl upward, his hand tangling in my hair.Â
âLike this?â I ask. He hums, leaning forward and nudging his nose on mine. The sigh escapes his lips, the warm air brushing along my cheeks. My eyes wander down to his lips, his tongue darting across deliciously, the moonlight seeping in reflecting on the now wet surface.Â
I feel myself leaning forward before I can stop myself. The taste of his minty lips hit mine, the cooling sensation of the leftover toothpaste being drowned out by the heat of our lips together. His tongue prods at my lower lip before slipping into my mouth.Â
The added aggression of his actions makes my stomach churn with desire, his hand latching tightly into my hair mindlessly with a gentle grip. A soft moan escapes my mouth. His fingers grab securely onto my waist, kneading the flesh with greed.Â
âFuck,â he mutters against my lips. The word barely pauses his desperate movements for a second before heâs hungrily pouring his devotion, kisses being littered along my jaw and down my neck.Â
The lower his lips trail, the more my front mindlessly arches further into him. The wet saliva makes my skin form goosebumps with the cool air brushing against the damp spots.Â
As Mattâs lips arrive at the hem of his shirt on me, his eyes flicker up to me with a questioning look and a lust filled haze. âCan I take this off?â he asks. I nod, partially sitting up and throwing the shirt to the floor, leaving me in just my underwear.
The cold air barely touches my skin before Matt has his hands wrapped around me. He engulfs me in a hungry embrace, my skin tingling from his lips and tongue traveling on the top of my bare chest.Â
A rough shriek escapes my lips as I feel his teeth clamp down lightly on the skin of my breast, a suction from his mouth and the skin making the blood rush to my cheeks as my hands dart to his hair.Â
âMatt.â I whisper out breathlessly.Â
The single word escaping my lips results in his lips becoming more messy on my skin. His mouth envelopes around the peak of my breast, his teeth lightly grazing the bud of sensitivity. The sensation shoots straight down to my core as my hips move against his thigh mindlessly.Â
âFuck, Iâm sorry.â he lets out, pulling his lips away. âI donât wanna rush things. I wanted tonight to just be sweet andâfuck, I canât help it around you. Iâm sorry, IââÂ
I donât let him finish. The pulsing between my legs clouds my mind as carnal desires guide my movements. I push him to the bed, straddling over his bare stomach. I lean down, placing my lips back onto his. His hands immediately grab onto my hips, clenching the flesh in his hands.Â
Our lips part as I kiss down his neck. He swallows thickly as I kiss the flesh gently, letting my teeth graze the skin. A breathy exhale leaves his mouth as I let my hands wander down to his lower stomach as I scoot back on his lap. I let out a whimper at the bulge prodding between my legs, my hips stuttering over his dick beneath me, begging to feel more.Â
I resist the urge as I bring my lips off of his skin, bringing my head upwards as my hands trace his snail trail with the tips of my fingernails. I watch as he sucks in a breath, his eyes screwed shut as his head throws back into the pillow with parted lips.Â
I let my finger loop beneath his sweats teasingly. He grabs my wrist with one hand, the other cupping around the back of my neck. Our lips meet messily, his mouth parting with a breathless heaving as I let my touch teasingly linger over the waistline of his pants.Â
âCan Iââ âPlease.â he cuts off, not letting me finish.
The desperation in his voice fills me with confidence as I smirk, pressing my lips back to his chest that rises and falls with heavy breaths. I take my time, swirling in back and forth patterns with my hand on his lower stomach as it clenches and twists beneath me.Â
My movements are halted by him latching back onto my wrist. I look up, seeing his glazed eyes looking down at me. âPlease, fuckâI needâyes, oh my god.â he breathes out as IÂ cup over his bulge.Â
He moves his hips up, grinding into my hand as I palm him through his sweats. I watch as his head snaps back into the pillow, a quiet, broken grunt sounding in the night air.Â
I loop my hand in his sweats. His hips lift upward, allowing me to tug down the material. The sight of his imprint through the tight briefs makes my breath hitch in my throat.Â
My hand reaches out, palming him once more. The thinner material allows me to feel more of him. It allows him to feel more. I see his hand gripping the sheets with white knuckles, his other hand in his mouth as a muffled moan sounds.Â
I loop my hand around the waistband of the briefs, his hips lifting once more. I drag the material tantalizingly slow. I watch as he grows impatient, his hips squirming beneath me. He leans down, pulling it off completely and tossing both his articles of clothing to the side.Â
I let my hand reach out to his aching member. My actions are halted by his hand clasping around my wrist. I look up at him, seeing his reddened cheeks and his concerned eyes. âAre you sure? We donât have to do anything.â he says.Â
I nod with an affirming smile. âI really want to make you feel good.â I whisper out. His eyes widen as I see him gulp. âIs that okay with you?â I ask.Â
He nods quickly, his hazy eyes clouding further with lust as he wets his lips with his tongue. â--want that so bad. Butâwe can stop whenever, okay?â he says.Â
I hum in response, letting my lips greedily wander down to his chest. I let my hand clutch more firmly around his hardened cock. A gruntled breath falls from his lips. âFuck, so good, baby, so fucking good.â he hisses.Â
My confidence grows at the praise, letting my hand slowly tease his wet tip covered in precum. His hips rut upward as his hand curls in my hair with desperation.Â
Trailing my lips downward, I continue palming him. As I get eye level with his crotch, I let my eyes wander up to him. His eyes are trained on me with his bottom lip locked in the clutch of his teeth, turning white.Â
I look down, gathering spit in my mouth. I let my lips part, the salvia dripping onto his tip. I hear the muffled groan from him as I let my tongue taste him. The salty taste meets my mouth as I greedily lick him up and down, wetting every inch of him.Â
âPlease, I needâplease.â he begs. I hum, finally satisfied with the lubricant as I envelope my lips around his tip. He gathers my hair rushedly with his hands, holding it in his grip with his right hand as his left squeezes onto my shoulder. âOh fuck.â he grunts out.Â
I bob my head slowly, taking more of him in with each movement. His hand leaves my shoulder, muffling the sounds as he bites into his clenched fists as I look up at him between my lashes. His jaw quivers as I pick up the pace, his hips chasing my mouth.Â
âFaster, please, please, please. I canâtâI need moreâoh,â his jaw lifts as his head throws back in blissful pleasure.Â
I cover my teeth as I take more and more of him at a faster pace. I keep my tongue pressed along him firmly as his hand shakes in my hair. I reach back, holding his hand in my hair.Â
I pop my mouth off of him, a whine escaping his mouth. âMatt, you can hold my hair, baby.â I assure.Â
He mindlessly shakes his head from side to side. â--donât wanna hurt you.â he mumbles. I reach up, caressing his cheek as he leans into my hand. He looks at me with a blissed out expression.Â
âYou wonât. You never do, Matt. Iâll tap you twice if I need to, okay?â I suggest.Â
He nods as I make my way back down. His fingers clasp tighter in my hair, gently pulling at my scalp as my mouth sinks down on him once more.Â
I bring my head upward, bobbing his length in my mouth. His tip hits the back of my throat as I gag slightly, taking less of him and keeping the same pace.Â
The whimpers and moans muffled by his fists are barely audible. The quiet noises of my lips suctioning against him and his reactions quietly echoing through the room as I keep taking his length repeatedly.Â
As his grip becomes tighter, a slight burning sting in my scalp makes me whimper against him. âFuck, sorryâso sorry, sweetheart. Doing so good, oh my god.â he mutters with a strained voice.Â
His grip loosens, his fingers gently massaging the area. The soothing sensation distracts me. I take him further into my mouth, relaxing my mouth as his tip ruts against the back of my throat. His stomach clenches, his thighs raising off the bed as his mouth gapes open.Â
âOh my fucking god, oh fuckâbaby, babyâso close,â he rants breathless in a small whisper. His eyes beam down at me as I look up at him. âYouâfuck, you donât have to. Fuckâif you donât stop Iâm gonna cum in your mouth, baby.â he warns.Â
I hum against him, keeping my pace. His hand gasps tighter in my hair, a slight sting that I ignore as his hips stutter in an uneven pace. A warm sensation spills down my throat as he rides out his orgasm, a loud whimper muffled by his hand.Â
His hips fall lifelessly onto the bed. I pull my lips off of him, coughing as I try to catch my breath. I feel Matt tapping me, looking over to see him pushing his water bottle into my hands. I take it from his hands, silencing my coughs with the cool water.Â
I push the bottle back into his hands. âThank you.â I voice.Â
He nods with a soft smile tugging at his lips. He brings the water to his own lips, chugging a couple gulps before reaching over and placing it back on the nightstand.Â
He leans down, pulling his briefs back on. He reaches over the bed again, lifting up his shirt that I was wearing with raised eyebrows. I nod, taking the fabric and throwing it back over my head.Â
Matt lays back on his side, holding the blanket up for me as I crawl back into his arms. As I wrap my arm around his waist, I frown. âWhatâs wrong?â He asks.Â
I look up at him, holding up my pointer finger before scooting backward. I sit up, pulling the shirt back over my head and letting it fall back onto the floor.Â
Matt gives me a questioning look as I crawl back into his arms. I lay my cheek on the pillow next to him, his hand traveling and holding me by the waist. His arm lays under the pillow beneath my head, curling upward.Â
The action sends my face nuzzling into the crook beneath his chin. I sigh as I feel his bare skin on mine. âAre you okay?â I hear him ask in a hushed tone.Â
I pull away, nodding and pecking him on the lips. âMhm, just wanted to feel closer to you,â I mumble with half-closed eyes. His chest rumbles with a light laugh as he tugs me in closer.Â
His fingers curl into my hair from behind. â--âm sorry if I hurt you.â he says. The slight sore sensation of my scalp is soothed by his light massaging fingers.Â
I sigh at the feeling. âYouâre okay, MattâŚthat feels so good.â I hum out. His fingers continue the motions in my hair as my body relaxes into him.Â
â--âm so tired, but I really appreciated everything today.â I mumble out. His motions stutter, bringing my attention forward as I fight sleep. â--I trust you, I shouldnât have been overthinking so much in the first place. Thank you.â I say.Â
He hums against me, pressing a kiss to the top of my head. â--âm course. I never wanna hurt you. You meanâŚyou mean so much to me.â he confesses.Â
My heart swells at the sweet words falling from his lips. I nuzzle further into him, his hands tightening as he lightly grazes his chin on the top of my head. âNow, go to bed, sleepy girl.â he says.Â
I hum, letting my limbs fall languid. Our body heat radiating in a cocoon beneath the sheets lured my mind further from conscious thoughts as my eyes fluttered closed. The smile lingers gently, tugging on the edge of my lips.Â
As sleep consumes me, the curl of my lips stays, my subconscious keeping thoughts of him rolling through my mind like movie scenes. Dreams donât even compare to this manâmy man.Â