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“Would you like a succulent?” Lydia held out her hands as she smiled, offering up the tiny cactus. She’d almost instantly regretted the promotional idea after she’d ordered three hundred of them and discovered that they were nonrefundable. Given the fact that they were relatively inexpensive it had seemed like a good way to lure people into her shop, a tiny gift and a reminder that the shop existed. It was however, proving to be unsuccessful as she found herself with a cart full of cacti and nearly two hundred of them still in the shop. “They don’t need a lot of water and they’re perfect for desks or kitchens.”

#twcopen

@Lydia

Flynn: Not yet.

Flynn: Mia told me why he did it. I think she thought I knew

Lydia: Sorry I didn't reply to you... Mia just came by.

Lydia: Is it true? Was he gambling?

#text:flynn

flynnxhastings:

“Yeah, well something is very wrong in his head. Which trial? His? I didn’t think he had a say over that” he didn’t really know. He didn’t even really know it was going on until he had been taken there for the verdict. Something about not wanting to give him false hope over freedom when he may or may not get. But when they realised Mark was guilty, well might as well let him know he was free. “You realise I’m his brother right, we’re similar” no he might never do what his brother had done, but he was still his brother.

“I didn’t go to yours Flynn. I went to his because I was supposed to be a witness, but I didn’t have anything to say. I couldn’t say anything and they just let me leave.” Lydia shook her head, moving to put Rosie back in her seat. There was a time and a place for everything and as much as she wanted to make it happen today, Flynn wasn’t ready for her. “It’s not the same Flynn.”

#chat:flynn

@Lydia

Flynn: Not today. I'm a mess and slightly drunk

Lydia: Are you okay?

#chat:flynn

flynnxhastings:

“That I get. I don’t remember the first year after Riley died. It was all… a blur” different situations though really. Riley was dead, Mark was unfortunately not. All he could really remember was being told they thought he was guilty, and the expressions on his family’s faces. Those were burned into his mind. It was why he didn’t understand why any of them thought he would ever go running back to them. They had made their decision, he had simply upheld it. “Why can’t you?”

“I just didn’t know what to do and M- he took care of everything. I don’t know... I... I just thought he was trying to take care of me while I was struggling to take care of myself. He didn’t even have me go to the trial, he told me it would be better if I didn’t and I just... I just stayed home.” Lydia frowned, kissing Rosie’s head, “Everything reminded me of him. He was everywhere and I couldn’t stay there.”

#chat:flynn

@Lydia

Flynn: You don't need to say anything, it just needed to be said

Lydia: Will you come over for dinner?

#Text:Flynn

@Lydia

Flynn: I'm just sorry. Mia is in around and I forgot how ridiculous my family is

Lydia: I don't know what to say

#Text:Flynn #She's crying

@Lydia

Flynn: I'm sorry, for everything

Lydia: What?

#Text:Flynn

@Lydia

Flynn: Alright, then do you at least have the answers to what is going on. First you show up, now Mia.

Lydia: Mia's here?

#Text:Flynn

@Lydia

Flynn: I need to know. I need to know what she could have done that was so terrible that he thought this was the only way out. People don't just murder other people, there has to be something, anything. I don't care for his sake, he is nothing to me, but she was my wife. You don't get it do you? I don't blame you for what he did, I'm not that cruel. For my own sake and faith in humanity I am going to try and believe that you honestly knew nothing about it. My kids have got hurt because of this. But fine, you want to strip it right back to basics. You're angry because I've blamed you for what... five minutes? I went 2 years with all of you looking at me and seeing a murderer. I begged and pleaded, and you all turned away. I saw what he did to her, I have nightmares about it. I don't want to be angry, but all of you believed this awful thing was me and now expect me not to mind that you felt that way. Yeah, I missed it, but the woman I loved was dead, and I had 2 kids devastated because they had just lost their mother

Lydia: I don't know. Flynn, I don't know okay. I have his child and that's the only connection I still have to him. I'm getting a divorce and terminating his parental rights. That's it. I know you want answers but I don't have them and I'm not going to go ask him about them.

#Text:Flynn

flynnxhastings:

“Yeah, he was a manipulator, I realise that. But I don’t know how he managed to fool everyone for two years” especially her. The mask had to have fallen at some point. He knew his brother had always been a good liar, but even as kids he would crumble. Start giggling or think himself so smart and have to boast about it. It had been cute. This? This had just been sick. He wasn’t even sure how they had realised in the end. Something about security camera footage from the opposite shop catching his brother in the act. He hadn’t seen it, he refused to see it. It might have given him his freedom, but he didn’t need to watch Riley die. It was torture enough that he had seen her body afterwards. And all for what? That was the question. “Then why did you? You knew how I’d react”.

“I don’t know, everything was awful Flynn. I barely remember the first year after.” Lydia just looked down, not wanting to give too many excuses. She knew that she messed up, she also wasn’t sure how many times she needed to admit that. It wasn’t as though she’d stopped blaming herself at any point in time. “I don’t know.” Lydia shrugged a little, “I’m scared and alone Flynn, is that what you want to hear? Because I don’t have any other answers for you. I’m scared and alone and I want to go home and I can’t.”

#chat:flynn

dannybnnt:

Daniel gave her a sympathetic smile. “Don’t worry, it’s an emotional thing you’re going through. Just know that in every way, you have the upper hand.” He said with a nod. “Pay me however you see fit, but don’t worry about it right now. We’ll just omit the consultation.” He offered.

“Thank you.” She said softly, offering him a smile as she fiddled with her daughter’s blanket. “Thank you, but that’s really too kind, you don’t need to do that for me. I have money, I can pay you, honest. I try not to get mail at my residence so here,” Lydia reached out, pulling the notepad back towards her scribbling down her PO Box address and sliding it back to him, “Bill me whatever I owe you, please.”

#chat:daniel

@Lydia

Flynn: Actually, tell me one thing. Why did he do it? I know in court he never gave a reason, not when I was there and I didn't speak to anyone after. What was so bloody important that meant he thought that was the only option?

Lydia: Flynn you’re looking for answers from me that I can’t give you. I don’t know why he did it. I’ve tried to figure it out. I’ve tried to figure out how I missed it. How I didn’t know any of it. I just... I don’t know Flynn. I wanted to ask but I haven’t spoken to him since he was arrested. I can’t come up with a good reason for any of it and I don’t want to. I don’t even think I want to know Flynn because I can’t humanize him. I spent so much time trying to sympathize or figure out what could have caused this but nothing caused it. He did it. He decided to do something horrible and he did it. I missed it. We all missed it. I’m tired of being blamed though Flynn, I didn’t do this. I didn’t do any of it and I didn’t know and it’s not my fault. I blame myself enough I can’t have you or anyone else doing it too. I know that I should have known okay? I should have known that something was wrong. I should have known. I messed up, I missed something. What do you need from me? I’m willing to just leave you alone if that’s what you need, it’s not what I want but I will. If you don’t pick that though you can’t keep blaming me or throwing anything that happened in my face. I didn’t do that. You missed this just as much as I did.

#Text:Flynn