i’m going to tell you a secret, internets;
Not just romantically lonely. I miss my good friends. And to be completely honest, this is a strange feeling for me. I don’t tend to get very lonely. But let’s tackle this in parts.
I think maybe 26 was my last year for being patient and outgoing and super bubbly in order to meet people. It seems to me that switch has flipped and now the introvert trumps the extrovert and the idea of putting forth mountains of effort to make new good friends is daunting. It probably has a lot to do with the fact that I know I have a lot of these good friends elsewhere. Maybe it would be less effort to just will them where I am...
Seeing as that’s not likely to happen. I should probably stop being a hermit and make those efforts. I’m in an interesting pickle though, in which it’s more difficult now not only because I don’t want to but because the company I work for is 1) huge and 2) not in the city where I live. The former being a problem because seeing the same face twice in a week is rare and while the vibe is very friendly it’s not necessarily the go-wander-around-and-make-new-friends type deal. It’s decidedly easier when everyone is shoved in close quarters, for better or worse. The latter because after work I skip town and I don’t know anyone here either, so I kinda hole up and wait for Monday. And a lot of times that’s exactly and solely what I want to do. Gah. Maybe if I solve the first problem of me not trying these other two will sort themselves out. Besides, they all say Missouri loves company...
Romantically...I just don’t even know if I want to get into it. But this thought just came meandering through my mind: I’ve never before been in a place where I wanted to stick around for more than a few years. Now I am. And I haven’t been here long but I’m ready to start getting serious about some someones, I guess, now that I don’t have that “oh well whatever this ‘home’ is temporary” excuse. Maybe I’m just getting old.
Who can say for sure. But I guess the record should also state that it has been like...2 years since I’ve been emotionally attached to anyone. Maybe it’s just that that I’m wanting again?
Moral of the story is that, as much as I like you, interwebs, it would be nice to be sharing this Friday evening with someone else, friend or more than.
We’ll see about next week.
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