love yourself first

just my thoughts burning the midnight oil

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Things change. It sucks, I know. Everyone goes through different types of change. Others more extreme and others more mild. But the way we handle change is important. If not dealt with properly it’s a possibility to turn to negative outlets. Just know you’re not alone and that you are loved. Don’t give up on yourself. That’s the most important life lesson I’ve learned this past year. I have faith in you. 

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I'm sick and tired of not being good enough. Of not being able to please everyone. I'm tired to be held so much higher than i can acheive. My ideas are ripped from me and stolen and the other person actually gets credit. I'm tired of thinking all is well with something but it somehow proves me wrong. I'm sick of it. I hate it. I want everyone to think of who i used to be, not who i am. Because who i am now, is what i always dispised of becoming. I've become my worst nightmare but worse.

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endless cycle

It's ruthless out there. You're given false hope and it crushes you more than the truth does. Songs always say cry me a river. Well at this point i could cry you a god damn waterfall.

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oh tesoro

Tesoro, it's italian for honey. Honey is sweeter than anything i know. It drips from every part of me and my efforts to get rid of it are futile. I hate this feeling of drowning in a pool of sweetness that's beyond me. I cry out for help but everytime i try to cry out more goodness fills my mouth instead to keep me silent. I hate it. I wanna be able to ask for someone to help me out. But it's fucking pointless. Well what can you do?