Lyla_Princess_Dreamheart

[lyla-dreamheart]

нєу! ι'м ℓуℓα яαqυєℓℓє ∂яєαмнєαят! ωєℓℓ тє¢нηι¢αℓℓу тнαт'ѕ ησт му яєαℓ ηαмє. ι'м кєєριηg ιт α ѕє¢яєт ƒσя ρяινα¢у яєαѕσηѕ. ѕσ ι gσт тнє ι∂єα σƒ ѕтαятιηg α вℓσg ƒяσм тнє вσσк gιяℓ σηℓιηє ву zσєℓℓα/zσє ѕυgg. ι'м 16 уєαяѕ σℓ∂. ι'м αη αѕιαη. ι'м α gємιηι. ι'м тαℓкαтινє. ι'м α ¢нαттєявσχ. єνєяувσ∂у'ѕ ∂郃єяєηт, ιƒ тнєу'яє ησт тнєу'яє єιтнєя ƒαкє σя ѕιмρℓу вσяιηg. ι нανє вℓα¢к, ѕтяαιgнт, ѕнσυℓ∂єя ℓєηgтн нαιя ωнι¢н ιѕ вℓєα¢нє∂ α ℓιgнт gσℓ∂єη вяσωη. ι нανє вℓα¢к єуєѕ. ι'м 5'3". ι ℓσνє мєєтιηg ρєσρℓє αη∂ мαкιηg ƒяιєη∂ѕ. ι ℓσνє яєα∂ιηg, αη∂ ℓєαяηιηg ηєω ѕтυƒƒ ƒσя ƒυη. ι ℓσνє ѕιηgιηg αη∂ ℓιѕтєηιηg тσ ѕσηgѕ. ι ℓσνє ∂αη¢ιηg ℓιкє ησ σηє'ѕ ωαт¢нιηg. му яσмαηтι¢ σяιєηтαтιση ιѕ вιяσмαηтι¢ αη∂ му ѕєχυαℓ σяιєηтαтιση ιѕ ∂ємιѕєχυαℓ. σя ι ¢συℓ∂ вє α gяαуαѕєχυαℓ αѕ ωєℓℓ. ι'м ѕтιℓℓ ¢σηƒυѕє∂ αвσυт му ѕєχυαℓ σяιєηтαтιση. ι αм αη σνєя єηєяgєтι¢, σνєя ¢σηƒι∂єηт, σνєя єχ¢ιтє∂, ωєιя∂, αη∂ кιη∂α  ¢яαzу gιяℓ. вυт ¢'мση ѕσ'яє уσυ!  ι нαтє ησ σηє! ι’м α νєяу ℓσуαℓ gιяℓ. ι нανє α∂н∂. ι’м α нσρєℓєѕѕ яσмαηтι¢. ι’м α ƒαηgιяℓ. ι ¢αη ƒαηgιяℓ σνєя נυѕт αвσυт αηутнιηg. ѕσ тнαт'ѕ αℓℓ ƒσя ησω! ι'ℓℓ ѕтαят вℓσggιηg αвσυт му ƒєєℓιηgѕ αη∂ ℓιƒє ƒяσм тσмσяяσω! ι нσρє тσ ƒιη∂ ρєσρℓє ωнσ υη∂єяѕтαη∂ мє αη∂ ωнσ'νє gσηє тняσυgн тнє ѕαмє тнιηgѕ ι нανє.

[lyla-dreamheart]

The moment when your dad is drunk and refuses to admit it and gets furious you pointed it out. . .

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“No one is afraid of heights, they are afraid of the fall. No one is afraid of the dark, they are afraid of what’s in it. No one is afraid of love, they are afraid of the broken heart.”

— Unknown

[lyla-dreamheart]

It's almost two years since I first met Ryker. And a year and a half after we ended for good. Even though I got over my love and like for him. I still can't get over the situation. It's still hard to move on. I can only be distracted from it for a few months at a time but somehow something or someone always ends up reminding me even without them aiming to do so. The pain I experienced losing him. The joy of being his lady brought me. They say it's practically impossible to ever truly forget your first true romantic love. They'll always end up having a special place in your heart even after you move on. We ended for a reason. I know. It was what was best for us based off our situations. As cliché as it is we were kinda like the play, Romeo and Juliet, forbidden to be together. Only difference being our love was real on the other hand, Romeo and Juliet is none other than based off infatuation. Ryker and I used to hope and dream for a future together. And no matter how much we wished to be together, we just couldn't. It was forbidden. We had to go our separate ways because in the end of the day that was what was the best for us. People who don't know Ryker and me, ones who barely know even quarter of the story have the nerve to make comments about him or me. He was not a bad person and neither I am. We only wanted the best for each other. Now... he's got a new love. Honestly, I'm happy for him. To move on and be with Hunter instead. But doesn't mean it didn't hurt to find out. But it happened and I need to learn to deal with it.

~•xoxo•Lyla•~

[lyla-dreamheart]

𝓖 𝓐 𝓢 𝓟. 𝓘'𝓿𝓮 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓵𝓲𝓴𝓮 𝓽𝔀𝓸 𝔂𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓼! 𝓦𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓘 𝓪𝓶. . . 𝓘'𝓶 18 𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮'𝓼 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓵𝓵𝓮𝓷𝓰𝓲𝓷𝓰. 𝓘 𝓯𝓮𝓵𝓵 𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓸 𝓭𝓮𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓶𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝔀𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓽𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓭 17. 𝓘𝓽 𝓽𝓸𝓸𝓴 𝓶𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓷𝓽𝓱𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓰𝓮𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝓲𝓽 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓘'𝓶 𝓼𝓽𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓫𝓸𝓻𝓭𝓮𝓻𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓮 𝔂𝓸𝓾 𝓬𝓸𝓾𝓵𝓭 𝓼𝓪𝔂. 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓽𝓾𝓻𝓷𝓮𝓭 18 𝓘 𝓮𝔁𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝔁𝓲𝓮𝓽𝔂 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻. 𝓑𝓸𝓽𝓱 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓭𝓮𝓹𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓸𝓷 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝔁𝓲𝓮𝓽𝔂 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓻𝓲𝓰𝓰𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓫𝔂 𝓪 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝓲𝓷𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓼𝓽 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓵𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝓲𝓽'𝓼 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓫𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓵𝓮𝓯𝓽 𝓶𝓮. 𝓑𝓸𝓽𝓱 𝓸𝓯 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶 𝓼𝓽𝓸𝓵𝓮 𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓶𝓾𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓮𝓬𝓸𝓷𝓭 𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓸𝓷, 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓶𝔂 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽. 𝓣𝓱𝓮 𝓰𝓾𝔂 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 17 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓶𝔂 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵 𝓻𝓸𝓶𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓬 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮. 𝓐 𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓴 𝓪𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓸𝓾𝓻 𝓫𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓴𝓾𝓹 𝓱𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓶𝓲𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓼𝓾𝓲𝓬𝓲𝓭𝓮. 𝓘 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓭𝓮𝓪𝓭 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓘 𝓫𝓵𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝔂𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓸𝓷𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽. 𝓘'𝓵𝓵. . .𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓡𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓻 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓶𝔂 𝓹𝓸𝓼𝓽𝓼. 𝓢𝓸, 𝓘 𝓫𝓵𝓪𝓶𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝔂𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓡𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓻'𝓼 𝓭𝓮𝓪𝓽𝓱. 𝓘 𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝔂𝓼𝓮𝓵𝓯 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓶𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓰𝓲𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓾𝓹 𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮. 𝓐 𝓯𝓮𝔀 𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓴𝓼 𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓘 𝓯𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝓮. 𝓗𝓲𝓼 𝓯𝓪𝓶𝓲𝓵𝔂 𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝓮. 𝓗𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓿𝓮, 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓲𝓷 𝓪 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓪. 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓱𝓮 𝓪𝔀𝓸𝓴𝓮 𝓱𝓮'𝓭 𝓵𝓸𝓼𝓽 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓶𝓮𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓼 𝓸𝓯 𝓾𝓼 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓻𝓸𝓶𝓪𝓷𝓽𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓽𝓸𝓰𝓮𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓪𝓼𝓼𝓾𝓶𝓮𝓭 𝔀𝓮 𝔀𝓮𝓻𝓮 𝓬𝓵𝓸𝓼𝓮 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓲𝓬𝓱 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮 𝓶𝔂 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓻𝓽 𝓪𝓵𝓵 𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓰𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓘 𝓯𝓪𝓴𝓮𝓭 𝓪 𝓼𝓶𝓲𝓵𝓮. 𝓐 𝓯𝓮𝔀 𝔀𝓮𝓮𝓴𝓼 𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓘 𝓯𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝓪 𝓶𝓾𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓡𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓻 𝓱𝓪𝓭 𝓪 𝓫𝓸𝔂𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭 𝓷𝓸𝔀. 𝓘 𝓴𝓷𝓮𝔀 𝓡𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓫𝓲𝓼𝓮𝔁𝓾𝓪𝓵 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓲𝓽 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓲𝓽 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓱𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓿𝓮𝓭 𝓸𝓷 𝓼𝓸 𝓺𝓾𝓲𝓬𝓴𝓵𝔂. 𝓦𝓪𝓼 𝓱𝓮 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓵𝔂 𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓸𝓿𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱 𝓶𝓮? 𝓞𝓻 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓱𝓮 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓲𝓷𝓯𝓪𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓽𝓮𝓭? 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓻𝓮𝓵𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓼𝓱𝓲𝓹 𝓪𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝓪𝓵𝓵. 𝓘𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓼𝓷'𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓱𝓮 𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓶𝓹𝓽𝓮𝓭 𝓼𝓾𝓲𝓬𝓲𝓭𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓭𝓮𝓯𝓲𝓷𝓲𝓽𝓮𝓵𝔂 𝓷𝓸𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓱𝓮 𝓲𝓶𝓹𝓵𝓲𝓮𝓭 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓲𝓽 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓫𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓸𝓯 𝓶𝓮. 𝓝𝓮𝔁𝓽, 𝓶𝔂 𝓪𝓷𝔁𝓲𝓮𝓽𝔂 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝓮 𝓫𝔂 𝓗𝓪𝓻𝓻𝔂. 𝓦𝓱𝓮𝓷 𝓘 𝓯𝓲𝓻𝓼𝓽 𝓶𝓮𝓽 𝓱𝓲𝓶 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓷𝓪𝓶𝓮 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓗𝓪𝓻𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓽𝓽. 𝓗𝓪𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓪 𝓷𝓸𝓷-𝓫𝓲𝓷𝓪𝓻𝔂 𝓫𝓾𝓽 𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓱𝓮'𝓼 𝓪 𝓯𝓽𝓶 𝓽𝓻𝓪𝓷𝓼. 𝓗𝓪𝓻𝓻𝔂 𝓻𝓮𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓭𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓶𝓾𝓬𝓱 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓡𝓲𝓴𝓮𝓻 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓲𝓽 𝓼𝓬𝓪𝓻𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓪𝓯𝓻𝓪𝓲𝓭 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻𝔂𝓽𝓲𝓶𝓮 𝓘 𝔀𝓪𝓼 𝓹𝓾𝓼𝓱𝓮𝓭 𝓪𝔀𝓪𝔂. 𝓣𝓱𝓮𝓲𝓻 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓼, 𝓹𝓮𝓻𝓼𝓸𝓷𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓽𝓲𝓮𝓼, 𝓬𝓱𝓸𝓲𝓬𝓮𝓼, 𝓭𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓶 𝓳𝓸𝓫𝓼 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓼𝓱𝓪𝓭𝓸𝔀 𝓮𝓷𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓹𝓪𝓼𝓼𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝓶. 𝓘 𝓵𝓸𝓼𝓽 𝓶𝔂 𝓬𝓵𝓸𝓼𝓮 𝓶𝓾𝓽𝓾𝓪𝓵 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓱 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓰𝓾𝔂𝓼. 𝓑𝓾𝓽 𝓘'𝓶 𝓸𝓷 𝓶𝔂 𝔀𝓪𝔂 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓫𝓮𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓼 𝓸𝓹𝓮𝓷𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝔂 𝓮𝔂𝓮𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓼𝓮 𝓪𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 𝓶𝓮, 𝓽𝓱𝓮 𝓯𝓪𝓶𝓲𝓵𝔂 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓸'𝓿𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓮𝓷 𝓫𝔂 𝓶𝔂 𝓼𝓲𝓭𝓮 𝓷𝓸 𝓶𝓪𝓽𝓽𝓮𝓻 𝔀𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓘 𝓳𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓴𝓷𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓽 𝓽𝓱𝓮𝔂'𝓭 𝓷𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓻 𝓵𝓮𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓶𝓮 𝓸𝓻 𝓯𝓸𝓻𝓼𝓪𝓴𝓮 𝓶𝓮 . 𝓣𝓱𝓮𝓼𝓮 𝓽𝔀𝓸 𝓮𝓿𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝔂 𝓮𝔂𝓮𝓼 𝔀𝓱𝓸 𝓻𝓮𝓪𝓵𝓵𝔂 𝓪𝓻𝓮 𝓶𝔂 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓮 𝓯𝓻𝓲𝓮𝓷𝓭𝓼. 𝓔𝓿𝓮𝓷 𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓰𝓱 𝓫𝓸𝓽𝓱 𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓲𝓭𝓮𝓷𝓽𝓼 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓬𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓮𝓭 𝓶𝔂 𝓽𝓻𝓾𝓼𝓽 𝓲𝓼𝓼𝓾𝓮𝓼 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓮𝓲𝓰𝓱𝓽𝓮𝓷.

~𝔁𝓸𝔁𝓸~𝓛𝔂𝓵𝓪~

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тσ∂αу ωαѕ вσяιηg αт ѕ¢нσσℓ. тнєяє ωαѕ тнιѕ gυу мєт ωнσ мα∂є вє мα∂. нє ιηѕυℓтє∂ тнє ℓgвтqα+ ¢σммυηιту! ℓιкє ωнαт тнє нєℓℓ!?!? ωє αяє αℓяιgнт! ωє’яє нυмαη вєιηgѕ тσσ! ωє’яє ησт ρѕу¢нσℓσgι¢αℓℓу σя ρнуѕι¢αℓℓу σя мєηтαℓℓу ∂ιѕσя∂єяє∂! ωє ωєяє вσяη тнιѕ ωαу! ~χσχσ ℓуℓα ∂яєαмнєαят~ ρ.ѕ ι’м ηєω αт вℓσggιηg ѕσ ι ∂σηησ ωнαт тσ ∂σ. ρ.ρ.ѕ ι ∂ι∂η’т тαкє αηу σƒ тнє ρι¢тυяєѕ ση тнιѕ ραgє. ιƒ ι ∂σ тαкє σηє ι’ℓℓ мєηтιση ιт.