rza ^^/

I like putting words in an order.

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how is it so crazy that my brain only has about 16gb storage but i have to remember and study 1tb of learning materials

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additional musing: without the work, successes feel hollow, and failures feel like excuses 🤷🏻‍♀️

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additional musing: without the work, successes feel hollow, and failures feel like excuses 🤷🏻‍♀️

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who would you be if you couldn't see yourself in relation to others?

idk. i am who i am bc of what others (or who i think others would) think of me.

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Maybe the person I’ve been searching for is the person I need to become.

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"being normal performatively" is an insane thought.

how socially awkward am i to be having to think if im being perfomative in acting normal

[anxietyproblem]

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sometimes I wish I could detach my ears and be unable to hear just for a moment, even for a moment.

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have u ever felt that feeling when you're so used to watching films with subtitles and then one day you were forced to watch one without subtitles and it just feels so wrong? yeahh... that exactly how it feels like to have profs who actually discusses their subjects than just reading aloud what was written on their ppts

i mean it kinda shows how currupted univs are really. how do you explain students who are so accustomed to the former practice that they're just struggling to accept the latter and right way of profs doing their job

[vancruejovi]

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12.31.2025

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People and experiences, whether we like it or not, morph us into something else whenever we encounter them. We either become better or worse.

No journey is ever clear, straight or steady. It's all wiggly and overlapping.

Sometimes scary.

Sometimes calm.

Honestly, It's all chaotic.

But one day when you get to the point where there is better perspective, you'll realize it is beautiful.

When you see things in the big picture, you'll learn— the unsureness and chaos and imperfections can be embraced.

Regardless, I hope to exist for the sheer enjoyment of being alive.

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from having 6 December babies celebrant to 3 this year. i'll miss them even much this December.

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i keep reminding myself,

its unrequited.

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im convinced,

awkwardness follows me

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starting to journal again

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with these constant earthquakes and typhons, i wonder if the end is nearing.