Joshua Kraus

Midfielder & Agent of Chaos

[m1dfielder]

M1DFIELDER : JOSHUA KRAUS , an independent & fandomless professional soccer / football player & original character . headcanon based and loosely inspired on FC BAYERN MUNICH and their chaos . crossovers welcome , no minors .

trained by olivia , 28 , she / her , est ( sideblog, follows back from @razorfst )

heavily affiliated with : @d1rtyair , @hellsurvivr , @c0ckpiit , @razorfst

carrd . headcanons . prompts

[hopefulshipper]

[hellgiven]

@m1dfielder

[podiium]

davina claire  ...    ▇▇▇              she  didn't  expect  for  the  two  of  them  to  be  so  connected  so  quickly.  of  course  Davina  hadn't  dated  hardly  at  all  –  but  she  was  completely  sold  on  how  real  this  was  between  them.  how  nothing  but  the  now  mattered.  every  waking  moment  with  him.  davina  was  beyond  happy.  content.  and  everything  felt  so  right  with  him.  and  it  showed.  the  way  she  talked  about  him.  the  way  how  she  found  herself  constantly  searching  for  him  on  the  pitch.   he  was  constantly  on  her  mind.  and  yeah,  no  doubt,  she  wanted  to  experience  everything  with  him.   falling  in  love  was  inevitable  at  this  point.  especially  when  she  felt  like  she  could  be  herself  with  him.  she  didn't  have  to  be  shy  –  she  didn't  have  to  hide  a  single  thing.  complete  honesty.   her  cousin  had  been  a  constant  help  with  things  between  the  two  of  them.  how  he  had  given  jo  the  backstory  on  her.  and  vice  versa.  davina  knew  that  they  needed  to  take  things  slow.  and  they  had  been.  however,  she  was  beyond  ready  for  the  next  step.  wanting  to  dip  her  toes  into  a  bit  more  intimacy  with  the  midfielder.  and  it  seemed  like  he  was  on  the  same  page  with  it.  there  wasn't  anything  wrong  with  what  their  idea  of  the  next  step  was.  hell,  it  was  apart  of  the  learning  process.  she  wanted  to  learn  more  about  him  as  much  as  he  wanted  to  learn  more  about  her.   

      she  had  next  to  no  experience.  especially  when  it  came  to  this.  the  whole  physical  aspect  of  a  relationship.  sure,  her  and  her  ex  had  done  things  but  –  it  was  strictly  for  his  pleasure.  and  not  her's.  that  showed  as  –  she  had  never  really  gotten  to  feel  just  how  great  sex  was  or  anything  related  to  it.  hell,  she'd  even  told  him  in  the  past.  that  she  wasn't  experience.  and  it  wasn't  a  turn  off  to  him.  ❛   perfect.   ❜  she  chuckled.  noting  how  impatient  his  actions  were.  which  had  her  flustered.  it  was  insane  how  how  much  his  hand  on  her  thigh  the  whole  ride  back  to  his  place,  lit  her  whole  body  on  fire.  something  she  had  never  felt  in  anyway  before.  part  of  her  wanting  whine  for  him  –  all  over  how  needy  she  already  was.  just  by  his  touch.     the  elevator  ride  seemed  far  too  quick  –  especially  since  they  were  so  lost  in  one  another.   his  hands  never  felt  more  at  home  on  her  hips.  all  while  he  made  sure  to  keep  her  pinned  to  the  wall  with  his  frame.  his  body  reacting  –  leaving  absolutely  nothing  to  her  imagination  on  how  he  felt.  especially  how  she  was  already  working  him  up.  soft  whimpers  came  from  her  in  between  kisses  before  the  elevator  stopped.  only  for  him  to  take  her  hand  ,  leading  her  out  from  it  –  and  towards  his  door.   nothing  spoken  between  them  –  even  after  the  door  slammed  behind  them,  once  again  ,  his  body  pinning  her  own  to  the  nearest  wall.  lips  heatedly  against  her's.  God,  she  couldn't  get  enough  of  him  already  –  this  side  of  him.  the  passionate  one.  the  hungry  one.  ❛  you're  incredible  .  .  .  you  know  that  ?  ❜

[m1dfielder]

The growing between the two made this all the more intimate. The way they felt about one another was the connection they needed in all of this. How close they had gotten, the truth they had built up, there was no one else on their level. Not even his former fiancée had this kind of connection with him. It added to his need, his want for her. And it was why he had been wanting to take this properly, take it slow because of the fact they had that intense connection. It wasn't something he had wanted to take advantage of, he wanted to get to know her and that was exactly what he did just as she got to know him. In his opinion, that was exactly what made this better. Everything had built up to this, the steps taken to learn her more and more in the physical sense was what finally built up to them being here. Wandering hands and a need for her as they came to his apartment. There was no worry about her lack of experience and it was because he had every intention to take his time with her. He wanted her to feel good, wanted her to enjoy their time together and he was going to show her that tonight. His smile on his lips was an indication of how happy he was at being with her at every point but especially now knowing they were making that final big intimate step together.

Her reaction at least made him feel better for being as impatient as he was, considering this might as well have been a first for them. Despite how they'd been close to this moment, they never crossed that line. That was until tonight. It was why he hadn't been able to keep his hands off of her from the car to the elevator and then into his apartment. Jo was more than thankful to have the elevator to themselves as his body pressed to her's, it was the start of their night and now she was able to feel just what she was doing to him. There was no question how he felt by now, how he felt about her, everything. And how she reacted? Well, he didn't need to question it either. Heated kisses are shared as he pinned her to the wall, once more his body pressing to her with a need as hips roll. There was no hesitation on his part, everything moving on want and need as he feels her against him. He couldn't put into words how she was making him feel so his best bet was showing it. A small chuckle leaves him as she speaks up, pulling away a moment to look at her and look her over. "I can say the same thing to you, Davina." And he meant it, soon moving to wrap his arms around her to lift her up and carry her to the bedroom. Not that she didn't know where it was, but this was different tonight. He lays her body against the bed, this time rolling his hips in a more comfortable position as he positions himself further between her legs. "God I want you." He says, his hands moving up her body from her side and under her shirt to begin removing her clothes that were so annoyingly in his way.

@d1rtyair

[fabioquartararhoe]

two feral cats

[podiium]

davina claire   ...    ▇▇▇     she  knew  winning  was  everything  to  him  and  the  team.  and  that  even  a  win  such  as  this  one,  called  for  a  celebration.  especially  with  how  the  season  had  been  hard  on  them.  and  they  were  taking  full  advantage  of  it.  being  lost  with  one  another.  even  taking  the  time  before  now  ,  to  celebrate  with  the  team.  Davina  knew  where  the  night  was  going.  she  knew  very  well  where  it  was  going  to  lead.  what  would  happen.  and  she  damn  sure  looked  forward  to  it.  she  was  insatiable  when  it  came  to  him.  the  way  she  constantly  craved  him.  he  wasn't  her  first  –  but  he  damn  sure  was  the  first  that  made  sex  feel  like  heaven.  the  first  to  capture  her  heart  outside  of  that.  a  first  for  so  many  things.  and  she  was  obsessed  in  ways  that  everyone  around  them,  saw.  and  no  judgement  was  passed.  in  fact,  everyone  seemed  so  happy  for  them.  and  even  if  they  weren't  ,  Davina  was  happy.  and  so  was  jo.  that  was  all  that  mattered.  that  goal  though  –  had  triggered  her  need  for  him  more.  and  it's  why  she  couldn't  help  but  keep  her  eyes  on  him  during  the  team  celebration. 

            she  wasn't  slow  with  the  way  she  rode  him.  watching  the  way  he  reacted  beneath  her.  the  heavy  breathing  and  moaning  that  fell  from  his  lips.  fuck,  she  couldn't  get  enough  of  him.  wanting  this  to  last  all  night.  multiple  times.  her  hips  couldn't  help  but  move  faster  –  rougher  ,  bringing  her  to  her  orgasm.  he  didn't  want  her  to  stop  though.  the  way  his  hands  reached  ,  guiding  her  through  her  orgasm.  before  he  moved  them,  now  on  top  of  her.  lips  meeting  in  a  heated  kiss.   ❛  fuck  -  -  !  need  this  all  night  ,  Josh.  please.  ❜   she  whined  as  he  began  to  thrust  into  her  faster  ,  harder.  lips  being  claimed  once  again.  before  she  broke  the  kiss,  legs  tightening  around  him  again.  feeling  another  orgasm  coming  quick.      ❛  harder  .  .  .  I  need  your  harder.  ❜ 

[m1dfielder]

It felt like a weight had been lifted from his shoulders for the time being, it being so needed after everything they had been through. It only made sense that once team celebration was out of the way, done with, that the two have their own. Their's, in his mind, was always much more fun. How could they not with the direction it almost always went? Both as addicted to one another as they could be, meant that once alone their hands wandered and lips found each other's to claim over and over again. The only time a break was taken was for the two to find air to fill their lungs to continue again. And after a few drinks? Well, the two had a craving for one another that could only be solved in one way and that was giving into it. Everyone knew it, something in their eyes when they glanced at one another made others know it was time to step back and let the two find each other to leave. It was something Jo was thankful for, not needing to say much before the two were able to leave and claim one another in the way only they knew how.

Seeing her on top of him, riding him, the sensation mixed with how she looked caused the blond to let out loud moans. His grip on her hips and thighs, alternating, tightened here and there. No doubt there would be some bruises. But he knew she was done, not moving her until she was ready with positions now flipped to let him work her now. He was insatiable, just as she was, and it's why as he began to thrust into her his lips met her's in a hungry kiss. The begging, his name, it only made him move harder, faster, rougher. He smirks against her lips, hearing her get louder and begging for more. He gives her want she wants of course, himself getting closer and closer with each movement made into her. "Fuck, I'm close." He growls out against her lips, moving as hard as he could in and out of her. Once she does tighten around him again, orgasming for the second time? Jo can't hold back anymore and cums with her.

@d1rtyair

[thomas-mvller]

Harry Kane (54', 70') Joshua Kimmich (87') Borussia Dortmund | 2 - 3 | FC Bayern München 2025/2026 Bundesliga - matchday 24

[podiium]

davina claire  ...    ▇▇▇                     they  were  meant  for  one  another.  every  single  day  –  it  became  more  clearer.   the  way  the  two  had  meshed  so  perfectly  together.  davina  couldn't  be  more  sure  of  her  future  than  ever  before.  not  when  he  was  perfect.  not  when  they  were  on  the  complete  same  page.  love  was  insane  in  every  good  possible  way.  and  learning  everything  about  jo,  had  been  the  absolute  most  fun  and  challenging  thing  in  her  life.  they  had  their  differences  yet  ,  none  of  that  matters.  they  picked  more  fun  at  one  another  over  their  differences  in  what  they  liked  and  disliked.  and  never  once  ,  did  either  of  them  take  it  to  heart.   these  moments  though,  was  a  constant  lesson.  the  touches,  the  movements.  actions  –  each  time  with  him,  she  found  something  new  she  enjoyed.  and  it  never  got  old  to  her.  Joshua  was  so  addicting.  and  the  way  he  worked  her  up  –  it  could  be  frustrating  at  times.  especially  when  they  had  to  wait.  however,  not  now.  there  was  no  waiting.  her  body  ,  reacting  to  each  use  of  his  tongue.  moans  escaping  her  lips.  as  he  kept  her  in  place.  kept  her  from  squirming.  wanting  to  drive  her  insane.  and  it  was  working.   it  didn't  take  long  before  her  orgasm  hit  hard  ,  sending  her  over  the  edge.  his  name  ,  falling  from  her  lips  as  her  hips  bucked.  riding  it  out  until  that  high  she  felt  ,  simmered  down.  and  only  then,  did  he  move  himself.  her  eyes  watching  as  his  hand  stroked  his  hardened  length  before  lining  himself  up  to  her  entrance.  sliding  inside  of  her,  slowly.  allowing  her  to  adjust  before  his  hips  started  rolling,  pace  picking  up  once  she  relaxed  under  him.  her  own  fingertips,  sinking  into  his  shoulders.  as  her  eyes  locked  onto  his.    ❛  you  feel  so  good  !  ❜ 

[m1dfielder]

Perhaps it was their connection that they shared, the level the two were on, but intimate moments like this had an otherworldly feel to them. At least that was how it felt to him. Judging by how she reacted, the way she was with him in return, Jo could only assume she felt the same. Everything was done on a level unlike any other, the way they talked and spent time together, even now in the bedroom, it was all like he was falling in love for the first time again. And maybe he was truly falling in love for the first time, if this was what it was meant to feel like. No doubt it was why he couldn't get enough of her, the time taken to get to this point in the end was always worth it. After all, it had made these moments that much more special. Even now as he devoured her until she orgasmed, staying there until she was done and he could move to the next step of bringing her over the edge once more. Lining himself up with her, slowly sliding inside to let her adjust, everything done to help her feel comfortable with him until he could start truly moving. Her moans, her words, all of it testing his patience but thankfully he had a high level for it. It was why he was able to start slow, letting her relax as moments went by and showing he could begin to increase his pace. A comfortable one for the two of them, a rhythm he knew she liked and could judge by how her nails dug into his skin. Blue eyes remained locked upon her as he moved, taking in the sight of her with each thrust. Her words making the midfielder smirk before leaning in to place his lips against her. A kiss that matched the intensity of his movements, something he could always get lost in when he was with her. "Fuck, Schatz." He mumbles against her lips, his pace increasing once more as hands shifts to guide her legs around his waist to bring her ever closer.

@d1rtyair

[elishamanning]

[podiium]

davina claire   ...    ▇▇▇             every  birthday  she's  had  since  moving  to  Germany  ,  had  been  the  absolute  best.  even  with  the  changes  in  her  life.  they  only  made  it  better.  and  she  damn  sure  couldn't  compare  each  one.  they  were  all  wonderful  in  their  own  way.  and  Davina  was  so  beyond  thankful  for  all  of  the  gifts  and  the  efforts.  she  couldn't  stop  beaming  though.  how  thought  out  and  meaningful  this  birthday  had  turned  out.  how  jo  made  her  favorite  German  dish.  how  he  took  the  time  even  while  balancing  practice.  along  with  being  a  father.  God,  she  couldn't  get  over  how  incredible  he  was  in  every  aspect.  Davina  couldn't  stop  grinning  at  him.   ❛   I  really  appreciate  it.  you  and  him  both.  I  don't  think  I  could  have  asked  for  a  better  birthday  ,  honestly.   ❜  she  let  out  a  soft  sigh  before  taking  a  sip  from  her  glass.   sure,  for  a  moment  she  was  upset  earlier  that  they  couldn't  spend  more  time  together  however  –  she  understood.  he  had  plans  for  her  –  for  them.  and  it  made  sense.   ❛   mhmm!  it  will  be.  and  don't  feel  bad.  he's  happy  that  we're  happy.  and  he  understands.   ❜   and  he  did.  they  had  talked  earlier  about  the  changes  and  Alex  knew  that  eventually  settling  down  would  happen  in  her  life.  ❛  not  too  early.  think  he  said  about  eleven.  he  wants  to  make  sure  we're  rested  and  all.  plus,  he's  got  plans  in  the  morning.  ❜

[m1dfielder]

Jo was trying his best to make sure each birthday they spent together was memorable, trying to top what he did the year before. Of course there were some adjustments now that they had a new family member to add to their plans. And it was done with joy, sharing these moments with their son only added to the happiness the two shared. It was still why he made sure she knew she was love not just by him but by their son as well. Tonight was extra special in that regard, just glad he had finished everything in time considering everything else he had to do today with his own job. Thankfully when both he and Alex were free, he at least had the goalkeeper keep his cousin busy so all of this could be done on time. Everything had worked out and seeing her happy showed all of the rushing and planning was worth it. "I'm glad to hear that, Schatz. I wanted you to have a birthday you loved and wanted to enjoy. It's your day after all." His own smile didn't fade, watching her and tossing a few glances to their son to make sure he was doing alright with his dinner. "Well, if you say so. I still don't want to keep you two apart a lot, I know how close you two are." It was just an added excuse to have them be together either. "Oh that sounds good, we'll be up because both know he doesn't let us sleep in much." A chuckle as he leans in to give their son a funny face to make him giggle. "Oh? What does he have going on?" He asks with an arched brow, shifting to to sitting up straight and looking back to her.

@d1rtyair

[goretzkas]

[podiium]

davina claire   ...    ▇▇▇   she  knew  when  she  moved  to  Germany  ,  things  would  change.  she'd  be  happier  but  she  didn't  expect  all  of  this  –  all  the  additions  to  her  life.  not  that  she'd  ever  complain.  sure,  her  career  was  having  to  be  at  a  sudden  pause  but  that  would  change  in  the  future.  the  now  didn't  mean  her  future  was  ruined.  no,  it  was  all  just  starting.  with  him.  and  their  growing  family.  and  she  couldn't  be  more  happier.  however,  she  wanted  to  keep  all  of  this  under  wraps  for  the  time  being.  and  jo  knew  that.  understood  it.  they  would  let  the  media  and  all  know  when  the  time  came.  for  now,  she  did  what  she  could  to  help  hide  how  her  body  was  changing.  it  was  hard  to  do  though  –  the  glow  she  had.  the  way  she  wore  looser  clothing.  surely  enough,  people  would  piece  things  together.  and  the  team  had  agreed  to  keep  it  a  secret.  which  was  a  lot  of  help.  she  just  wanted  to  enjoy  the  pregnancy  and  the  fact  that  –  her  and  jo  would  be  parents  in  such  a  short  amount  of  months.  every  day  ,  she  grew  happier  with  him.  with  their  lives.  and  she  couldn't  be  more  excited  for  this  new  twist  in  their  relationship.  in  their  lives.  together. 

              she  couldn't  help  but  smile  more  as  he  pulled  her  to  him.  giving  her  every  bit  of  affection  he  could  at  that  moment.  he  never  failed  to  give  her  that.  davina  never  had  to  worry  about  it.  jo  was  very  good  at  showing  her  just  how  much  he  loved  her.  how  much  he  cared  for  her.  she  smiled  into  the  kiss  before  he  pulled  away.   ❛  i'm  glad  you  will.  and  I  know  –  I  never  had  to  worry  about  that.  I  just  get  a  bit  worried.  i'm  working  on  that.  you  haven't  given  me  a  reason  to  worry.   ❜  she  chuckled  ,  looking  up  at  him  with  a  soft  smile.  eyes  locked  and  that  look  –  meant  all  seriousness.  she  really  didn't  have  to  worry  at  all.  once  again,  she  leaned  in  for  a  kiss.   ❛   anytime  ,  baby.  and  good.  I  just  wanna  make  sure  we  keep  it  low-key  for  a  bit  longer.  I  know  eventually  it  will  get  out  but  I  want  it  to  be  on  our  time.  not  theirs.   ❜  hands  ran  over  her  stomach  before  she  looked  back  at  him.   ❛  I  don't  either.  but  we  can  go  with  that.  just  to  keep  it  ya  know  –  normal  or  whatever.  ❜

[m1dfielder]

He had wanted a future like this, one with someone he could love unconditionally. A family following in that strong love. And he thought he'd had had it once, but that was destroyed and he had fully believed he'd never find it. How glad he was to be wrong. Having this with her was more than he could have actually wanted. Even if it hadn't gone exactly according to plan, it didn't matter because they were interchangeable at this point. So long as it was with her, that was all that mattered. Jo couldn't be happier and he knew they were keeping this rather private. Those who needed to know did and that was what mattered. The public would know in time, this wasn't for them but for the two who were going to be parents. Eventually work did have to know as time came because she'd need time off and he would need to take a day or two himself to be there with her when the time came. The team was thankfully understanding with all of that, letting them have their privacy and the assurance that all would be well when the time came. That had never been a worry for Jo and he was glad to see them reassure Davina in the process. Nothing could ruin this for them, Jo at least had never been happier and he could confidently say the same for Davina.

And seeing her glow the way she did? The blond couldn't keep his hands off of her, his smile wide as he pulled her closer and met her lips in a kiss. All reassurances given in every way possible without getting himself worked up and carried away. After all, they had somewhere to be and he knew they couldn't be late. "I know I haven't and I understand that all of this is....a lot." He says with a small chuckle. "My mom told me it would happen so I could be right there to tell you how I feel to help. " He looks her over again, the kiss once more welcome before he pulls away to get them moving at a pace that at least worked for her. "Believe me, no one is going to tell the press. It'll be us and those who need to know. No one else." He looks to her with a smile. "This is our family, they know and that's all that matters." Jo turns slightly to place a hand on her stomach. "Of course, now you are ready?" He asks as they got closer to the door, the all clear basically given before he's opening it and leading them to the car to drive off to the facility so they could all meet up and go to the grounds together.

@d1rtyair

[elishamanning]

[podiium]

davina claire   ...    ▇▇▇           every  ounce  of  her  heart  wanted  this  to  be  true.  to  be  right.  and  so  far,  it  was.  it's  why  she  was  being  careful.  making  sure  to  take   things  slow  with  him.  all  while  already  thinking  about  their  future.  kind  of  silly  but  –  she  was  a  romantic.  and  the  future  was  the  whole  point  in  this  whole  dating  thing.  why  waste  someone's  time?  even  her  own  with  uncertainty?  regardless,  she  only  hoped  things  worked  out.  after  all,  he  was  basically  her  dream  guy.  first  crushing  on  him  years  ago.  but  both  being  in  relationships  with  other  people.  good  things  came  with  time.  at  least  according  to  Alex.  and  apparently  he  had  quite  the  plan  himself  when  it  came  out  the  two  of  them.  finding  them  to  be  perfect  for  one  another.  she'd  been  waiting  for  the  midfielder  to  ask  her  out  on  a  date  –  and  finally  ,  he  had  done  so.  and  she  didn't  hesitate  in  her  reply.  a  nice  dinner  date  at  his  place  sounded  perfect.  giving  them  the  time  they  needed  to  get  to  know  one  another  more.  even  she  was  nervous  as  hell  over  it.  simply  because  she  didn't  want  to  say  the  wrong  things.  ❛   I  can  tell  you're  not  like  him.  so  no  worries.  you  seem  really  great.     ❜  she  chuckled  ,  giving  him  a  nod.   that  was  one  thing  she  was  sure  of  –  he  wasn't  like  any  other  typical  guy. 

        God  ,  he  was  so  cute.  and  his  laugh  only  made  her  smile  more.  ❛   that's  good  to  hear.  would  it  be  too  much  if  I  said  i'm  already  excited?  I  mean..a  date  with  you?  yeah  .  .  .  i've  been  waiting  for  it.   ❜   she  chuckled  ,  running  a  hand  through  her  damp  hair.   moments  like  this,  she  was  glad  Alex  wasn't  listening  to  their  conversation  of  else,  he'd  be  teasing  the  hell  out  of  them.  which  –  she  knows  is  coming  after  jo  leaves.  she'd  hear  Alex's  never  ending  teasing  and  making  fun  of  her  blushing.  honestly  though,  she  didn't  really  care.  she  was  happy.  and  it  showed.   the  kiss  though  –  she  hoped  hadn't  been  too  much.   growing  flustered  over  his  words  ,  she  couldn't  help  but  chuckle  once  again.  ❛  thanks!  you  look  amazing  too.   ❜  which  was  the  truth.  and  why  should  she  not  be  honest  about  that?  arms  folded  over  her  chest  as  she  watched  him  look  towards  the  back  door  for  a  moment  before  back  to  her.  ❛   yeah!  i'll  be  ready.  and  please  don't  stress  too  much.  i'm  easy  to  please.  not  sure  Alex  told  you  that.  ❜ 

[m1dfielder]

This felt right, there was no other reason in his mind that it shouldn't. At least not with what he felt for her. It was different than the ex he almost married, that had to be a good sign. Right? The way he already felt connected with her, the way they had gotten along so well? It was only a matter of time before they reached a point where he felt comfortable enough to finally take the step and ask her to a real dinner. Sure, they've had moments of hanging out but it had been them being friends. It had been different then, this was going to be a proper date. This had been something in the making, of course. With all that time spent together, with them getting closer and knowing one another (not to mention the push from Alex), it was all going to lead to them finally having that real date. And he was more than excited for it. There had been nerves to ask, despite mostly knowing what the answer was because he truly wanted this to work. His smile could only grow at hearing yes, the nerves dying down in the process. "I'm glad to hear it, I'm glad you know that." Jo replies with the smile ever growing from her answer, from the knowledge that they were going to be on a date together. It was also comforting that she knew he wasn't going to pull anything, that he only wanted her and in proper time. That had been the point of everything after all.

Head shakes at her question, his smile remaining as a small chuckle leaves him. "No, I don't think that's too much. I mean I'm excited too so I definitely get it." His hand lifts to run through blond hair. "I wanted to ask at the right moment....you know?" Jo felt it made sense. The privacy helps, however, knowing Alex wasn't here to listen to them but he was sure Davina would tell Alex what happened as soon as he left their home. That wasn't his concern at the moment, instead he was focusing on her and that came with a kiss. It wasn't until he pulled away and looked from the door to her, that he realized that he should get going soon if he wanted to give her enough time to get ready before coming back to take her to dinner. "Well aren't you sweet." He says with the smile that never seemed to leave his lips when around her. "I know how you are because of the time I've spent with you, he doesn't have to tell me that.....but he did mention it slightly." He admits with a small chuckle. "But I still want to treat you because you deserve it." He adds before arms fall to his side, eventually stepping back to begin his departure in order to return home. "I'll see you soon, Vee." He adds before turning around to walk towards the door and out towards his car to drive home and begin preparing for their date.

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davina claire   ...    ▇▇▇       she  was  still  learning  how  he  was.  how  he  handled  things.  knowing  he  had  so  much  going  on.  and  there  were  moments  when  she  felt  insecure  –  blaming  herself.  for  a  couple  of  reasons.  and  wishing  she  could  do  more  to  ease  the  weight  he  had  on  his  shoulders.  the  whole  avoiding  thing  though  –  had  her  overthinking  so  much  and  so  hard.  how  maybe  she  wasn't  enough.  maybe  she  was  getting  boring  to  him.  the  season  being  the  absolute  worst  that  the  team  has  had  in  …  well,  perhaps  ever.  and  that  had  slipped  her  mind  there  for  a  moment.  however,  he  shined  some  light  to  her  –  reminded  her  that  it  wasn't  anything  to  do  with  her.  if  anything,  she  helped  as  best  as  she  could.  it  was  just  the  fucking  shit  season  and  coach  not  helping. 

    she  had  to  take  a  deep  breath  –  calming  down  and  reminding  herself  that  everyone  handled  things  differently.  hell,  she  probably  would  be  the  same  way  if  she  was  in  his  shoes.   still,  it  hurt  –  hurt  enough  for  her  to  voice  it.   and  his  demeanor  changed  so  quick  when  she  did.  a  quick  realization  on  her  part  that  he  wasn't  use  to  this  –  and  his  words  made  that  known.  ❛   I  .  .  .  yeah  ,  I  understand.  I  sort  of….forgot  that  even  this  is  new  for  you.  i'm  still  learning  how  you  work  and  how  you  handle  things.   ❜   a  soft  sigh  escaped  her   before  his  hand  fell  from  her  cheek.  ❛   don't  worry  about  it  okay?  it's  okay.  I  promise.  I  just..overthought  and  you  have  the  right  to  do  what  you  gotta  do  to  process  things.  I  just..thought  I  had  done  something.  but  knowing  now  that  I  haven't?  I  feel  better.  ❜   a  light  chuckle  came  from  her  as  she  looked  up  at  him  and  smiled  softly.  ❛   really?  in  that  case  ,  come  on   .  .  .     ❜   she  smiled  more,  gently  squeezing  his  hand  in  return  and  pulling  him  lightly  towards  the  stairs.  ❛  i've  done  quite  a  lot.  it's  no  perfect  ya  know  but  .  .  .  i  needed  a  distraction.   ❜ 

[m1dfielder]

He should have handled this better, it wasn't just him anymore. He had her and what he had been doing was an old habit, one he had done when he was in his head and going through a slump with little help. But he had help this time, it was something to adjust to and it never occurred to him what that might do it her. There was a sense of guilt of course, he hadn't meant for her to feel any less about herself or how their relationship was. It had nothing to do with how he felt about her but he could see, in the end, how she thought there might have been something wrong. It was why they finally needed this conversation, finally needed to have the air cleared and in turn show there was nothing wrong with her. It had all been him, all been his problem and something he needed to work on. Jo was sure she would understand, she understood him better than anyone but that didn't excuse his behavior and she deserved better than that.

So it was more than settling to see her calm down, see her take it all in as he spoke to reassure her. Jo had a lot to make up for and he was going to, words could only do so much but there were actions he could do. "I'm sorry, I really am." His voice was soft, sincerity bled through every note. His hand falls from her cheek to rest on her side, wanting to make sure his touch was an added proof that there truly was nothing wrong she ever did and that it had all been mentally his own problem. "You could never do anything and...I should learn to voice it better, I'm going to try...I've just been through a lot this season and I know you know that." He sighs a bit as head shakes. "You deserve better than that and I should have done better." And he meant it, every word but that was something he was sure she had to know as well. He smiles softly back as she chuckles, the shift of her attitude putting him more at ease. "Okay, I do want to see. Lead the way Schatz. I'll go anywhere with you."

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[youmustlovehim]

Bayerischer Sportpreis 2020

[podiium]

davina claire   ...    ▇▇▇          it  was  honestly  funny  how  one  could  make  plans  but  life  said  otherwise.  max  was  the  surprise  in  this  case  and  yet,  jo  and  davina  both  couldn't  have  been  happier.  they  were  still  building  their  relationship  together  ,  navigating  the  joys  of  parenthood.  something  Davina  didn't  ever  expect  to  do  until  she  was  nearly  thirty.  but  hey,  it  was  bound  to  happen  eventually!  and  she  wouldn't  trade  it  for  anything.  even  having  a  baby,  she  made  sure  that  her  and  Max  both  went  to  watch  jo  play.  at  times  travelling  when  it  wasn't  overly  too  far.   after  all,  she  didn't  want  to  fly  a  baby  too  far  from  Germany  this  early  on.  eventually  that  would  change  once  he  got  older.  for  now,  they  did  what  they  could  to  support  as  much  as  possible.  a  little  outting  was  what  they  needed.  even  Davina  knew  that  max  needed  to  see  things.  to  learn.  that  didn't  mean  that  they  couldn't  protect  him  or  that  he  wasn't  protected.  no,  he  was  very  well  –  with  them  at  all  times.  that  didn't  change.     it  was  a  beautiful  day  –  and  she  was  sure  things  would  go  great.     seeing  a  therapist  post  partum  though  –  had  done  her  a  lot  of  good.  to  come  back  to  that  optimistic  mentality  she  once  had.  and  honestly,  she  felt  good  today.  enough  to  actually  go  out  and  enjoy  some  family  time.  a  small  chuckle  came  from  her  as  she  stepped  closer.    ❛  I  miss  being  confident  about  things.  i've  noticed  he's  got  a  fondness  for  the  sparrows.  ducks  are  bigger  but  –  he  may  enjoy  them.  besides,  all  the  pretty  colors  of  their  feathers?  come  on,  it's  hard  not  to  admire  them!   ❜  she  beamed  more  as  he  pulled  her  closer.  her  own  head  ,  tilting  as  blue  eyes  stared  into  his.    ❛  we  should.  that  sounds  perfect.  I  can  pack  his  bag  if  you  wanna  get  the  food.  also,  I'll  get  the  stroller  too.  ❜

[m1dfielder]

It was funny how this wasn't the originally plan but Jo didn't mind, he was more than happy with the outcome and the little family they had. This was the goal in the end, after all. They had wanted the family and marriage but it had come in a different order, nothing wrong with that because in the end they were together and that was all that mattered. She was being a wonderful mother, not something that surprised Jo as he knew that was something she would be. It helped they did have help and their son enjoyed the world around them. Him being a happy baby was a gift. Though he knew she needed some help, Jo had done what he could when she needed it and asked if there was anything he could do throughout it all. He also wanted to be sure neither her or the baby were doing too much or overextending themselves. And that was part of why he had been a little hesitant about the park but she was right. Max needed the time outside and they were all going to be together, it would be okay. "You're doing great, Vee. Don't think otherwise." He says softly with a small smile. "But he does love the birds, I have noticed that. We just have to make sure he doesn't get too close to the ducks." For both the animal and their baby's sake. Not that he could get that close just yet, thankfully. But still he holds her close a moment as they plan, directing on who should take what. He nods at her words, it making sense. "Yeah I'll get stuff for sandwiches and fruit and his food." Jo nods, now arms dropping from around her so they could get moving. "Is there anything specific you want?" He asks as he moves to the kitchen, opening the fridge to begin placing the food on the counter that would be needed.

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