The Real Martian 👽

not your basic gal | writes her feelings away

[maarshaan]

Would it be lame if I KMS while listening to "The Lame Song"

[maarshaan]

how it hurts to know that I've been a burden all this time and he is just bearing it all.

[maarshaan]

Home is where the bed is the coziest, the food is the most delicious and where my sleep is the comfiest. Thank you for being my home ❤️

[maarshaan]

Im scared that I don't love you as much as I love you before.

[maarshaan]

"A reply for a comment asking how is it so important to learn integral"

for a person who rides a push bike to work, on a footpath, to make shoes for a living, and then to ride their push bike home, where they dont have electricity, because theyre amish**, there is absolutely no relevance.

For a person who drives a car to work as a financial lending manager, goes home and has electricity at home but always calls a technician to fix their car or house, there is no relevance.

For the technician that comes to your house or fixes your car, by looking at manuals and written policy, and then just doing what they're taught and applying some minor problem solving skills, some basic math becomes relevant.

For the person who designs your car or the plane you fly to visit your parents once a year, designs your house and the city electrical grid, the power plants that supply that electricity, the refrigerator that keeps your food cold, it is completely relevant.

So yes, it's relevant to society as a whole, it's just not relevant to you on a personal level.

-Andre Rio

[maarshaan]

April 26 2023. 10:50pm

No amount of thank you will be enough to cover how grateful I am of you.

Our love is like the sea.

Storms and strong winds may come. There is the scorching heat that could burn the skin. The tides could be high or low.

Still there is a time of calmness. The rhythmic clashing of waves. That sweet time when the sun kisses your skin. And the cool water that refreshes the soul.

Just like the ocean, My love for you is deep.

I love you so much mahal!

[maarshaan]

"mahal di ka ba nabobored satin relationship? Like ibang couples kay mayron silang mga hobbies na ginagawa nila dalawa"

He replied " hindi man, ikaw"

" hindi rin, pero baka kasi may iba ka gusto na gawin natin"

After a long pause

He then said "movies, movies man hobby natin sa una pa, dun naman tayo nagstart"

[maarshaan]

Things I miss ~~~~

views ng mga bundok, puno at kalsada pag nag tatravel kami ni Mahal

ang lambing ni Michue

amoy ng kumot at unan ko

ang pagkuskis ko ng paa sa kutson ko

maglinis ng bahay

punasan ang pawis ni mahal

haplos haplosin buhok ni mahal

boses ni Otter

iyak ni wako

maglakad lakad sa Cogon

sumakay ng jeep

kumain ng bopis

[maarshaan]

In every way, everything would always be better and cherished with him🥺 I'll always and will be committed to him

[maarshaan]

Nov 20,2022

Hi tumblr

Here I am again

I dread so much everytime I see you. Seeing and talking to you just means I'm here to pour my heart out.

Everytime I talk to you, Im sure my heart is in pieces while I type every letter with tears gushing down my face.

Oh how, I wish I would never be here ever again.

How it hurts as I grasp my heart. Every deep breath. Every cry I try to suppress to not make a noise.

It's all the same when Im here.

But

You are always here to listen, every letter, every breath, every tear drop.

The silence here helps my heart scream out all the hate, all the sadness, all doubts, all my fears.

This void swallows all the pain it can. And by a bit it makes everything a little bit better.

[maarshaan]

Drunk me

I love you!

You're happy

Carefree

Loving

Caring

I wish I could call you anytime, You are the best self of mine

You never worry,

Overthink,

Think twice,

Doubt yourself, and

Very confident

Even if you're not always gonna be there, you will always be the best

❤️

[maarshaan]

Rain

It was a rainy day when I first saw you.

I was soaking wet till you offered your umbrella

As raindrops fell, my heart did too

It was till then rainy days became my fave

After a year of friendship

We went where we first met

The rain poured and suddenly you kneeled down

With a ring in your hand, I said yes

That was the start of out forever

A month later you were going home

The rai. Was pouring, you were driving slow

Suddenly a crash went right through you

And the rain stopped, does your heart too

[maarshaan]

It is weird for me to be here when I'm not feeling down but here I am.

😁

[maarshaan]

Hi tumblr, . . .I guess?

Matagal na Ang last time na nakapagsulat ako dito and i think that is a good thing. This is my last resort pag unsure ako sa nararamdaman ko. Am i sad? Depressed or just bored. Ayaw ko naman magsabi kay mahal. Busy kasi yun ayaw ko ng makisali. Tas kung magmamake time yun di ko sure ano sasabihin ko.

Eto na naman ako. Umiiyak ng walang dahilan. Feeling ko napakalungkot ko. Gusto ko magmokmok himdi magsalita, walang gawin.

I tried to not think of it. I tried to do the things makes me happy. I even did all kinds of housework. Still, all those failed.

I feel like garbage. I have no purpose. Na wala na akong kwenta.

[maarshaan]

Once again

im in a low again

thinking of why im feeling this way

am i bored? sad? angry?

i just can't seem to figure what is wrong

i feel empty

i am not happy nor unhappy

things that usually lifts up my mood no longer does its charm

i hope this will be the last once and it will never happen again

[maarshaan]

Doze of Melatonin

I enjoy my naps and slumber

Missing them is such a bummer.

Sleeping is my way to escape my troubles

Floating away from reality just like a bubble

With you in the same bed is a struggle

Heat, being cramped and squished is trouble

From time to time it has become constant

My body now longs for your contact

I am now afraid that Im addicted

Please help, this was not predicted

Your tight snuggles it what I need

You're not here so I cant sleep

Melatonin is a hormone that induces sleep

You are my doze, help me count sheep

[maarshaan]

This randomly showed up in my FYP. Hahahahaha kilig na kilig akooo sheettt. Mas kinilig ako ng pinakita ko sa kanya tas sabi niya "ofcourse ano pa ba ginagaw natin dito' shiet asffhklsgsksll