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So this is actually happening....... my girlfriend will be a member of the Coast guard tomorrow. I’ve never been so proud... Yet so broken. And if I feel like this. I can’t even begin to imagine what she must be feeling.
Boot camp hasn’t started yet. And I know I should be appreciative of the time we have together. But i can’t. stop. crying about it. Shes so brave. So fucking brave. And I’m so proud of her. But.... I’m still going to miss her. I love her. I really do. And the world just keeps going to shit. I’ve never been good at goodbyes. I have a fucking asshole to thank for that. I know shes not leaving me. I know this. But when you talk to someone every day... And then know one day you’re gonna be cut off. it hurts. It really really hurts.









