what it's like to die.

maddox, or, "max" sullivan. i'm just shy of eighteen. i'm really not that interesting and i'm addicted to caffeine.

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

..Pizza topping compatible. You must really have it out for me, Maddox. I don’t need much more evidence than that. 

Downright sentimental. Might even kiss you goodbye before I dig in. 

I hope you can tell that I’m kidding, haha. But I will say that I probably won’t wake you up for school in the morning after keeping you up late, and about that I’m not kidding.

[maddox-bella-morte]

What can I say? I look for the important things in a mate. Pizza toppings happen to be one of them. 

Oh, well, as long as I get a kiss out of it, I'm okay.

Even if you weren't. it would be a privilege to get my heart eaten by you. That's okay. I can skip another Monday. The rest of the week, though, I'm gonna try and brave out. Already pissed off my sister, can't go making my mom sad, too, now, can I?

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

Well yeah, I get it. In normal families the siblings actually care for one another. She probably just doesn’t want me to eat you, that’s all. 

And I won’t, if you’ll let me order half the pizza with pineapple, canadian bacon, sausage, and olives. 

Plus I probably wouldn’t eat you on a Sunday anyhow, since they’re ours. Maybe on a Monday morning.

[maddox-bella-morte]

Yeah, she definitely cares. A bit too much. It's just...it's complicated. And yeah, I think she'd be pretty heartbroken if you ate me.

We can get the whole pizza with that, if you don't have any plans for the other half. We're pizza topping compatible.

Well, ain't that just special. I'll keep that in mind tomorrow morning when I'm breakfast. "At least he didn't do it on our day".

[ace-unlaced]

I know how relationships work, dumbass, if you remember correctly, I was in one for quite a while. But yes, apparently they are. I’m going to dare because apparently you’re already moving on. God, and you know what kills me is I don’t even know what I did wrong? I’ve been nothing but good to you. I don’t deserve this. I don’t. 

You can’t leave me, Maddox. You’re all I have.

[maddox-bella-morte]

Fuck, I'm not leaving you! I'm hanging out with other people! Jesus Christ, you're like a clingy girlfriend. It's getting a little weird and incestual. You need to give me some breathing room. I always come home at the end of the day, okay? You can always see me. Just...like any other normal brother and sister, we need time apart. You need to let me step back sometimes.

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

Like I said. Just yankin’ your chain. She won’t bother me any. 

Now, does “we should order out” constitute as enough reason for me to shower with the expectation that you’ll be coming over? Or are you giving me false hopes?

[maddox-bella-morte]

...Really? You're sure? I mean, cool, yeah. Good.

You know what? Yeah. Fuck it. If anyone has anything to say against it, they can come to me about it. Sundays are ours, after all. Might as well treat them as such. How many toppings would you say are too many?

[ace-unlaced]

He said, himself, that you two “technically” don’t know each other, so don’t even try that. Oh, yeah, what everyone says. Good, go on and listen to everyone else, then, and forget about me. It’s what you’ve wanted to do for a while, now, isn’t it?

[maddox-bella-morte]

We do--well, we're getting to know each other. That's how things work, you don't automatically know everything about another person, you have to, you know. Make relationships. But don't even go there, Acadia, you know I love you more than anything. You're my baby sister, no one's ever going to replace you, so don't you dare.

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

I’m sure. I’m sure that there’s a vast difference between having someone for a maker and having someone for a keeper.

I’m just yanking your chain. 

And for the record, not only am I so stoned I’d settle for a shitty microwave pizza at this point, I also plan to use you for a lot more than that. 

[maddox-bella-morte]

I...Yeah, it's quite a difference, I can assure you. I'd hate to think of her that way, though. She means well.

Shitty microwave pizza is only good when you are stoned, I've found. Other than that, it only smells promising and tastes disappointing. Furthermore, I think too highly of you to gift you with such a pizza. We should order out.

[ace-unlaced]

Maddox, he’s taking you from me. You barely even have time for me because you’re so wrapped up in this…thing. Whatever he is. You honestly think there’s nothing wrong with you abandoning me for some stranger from a bar?

[maddox-bella-morte]

He's not a stranger, okay? And I'm sorry that I'm not home 24/7 anymore, but I have a life now, you know? I have a job, and someone to spend time with. It's what everyone says I should be doing. You need to understand.

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

Hey. Doesn’t look like I’m the only one with someone to answer to, now does it?

I know that you are, I can tell. Wouldn’t bother me any if you happened to show up at my door with a pizza in your hands, but it might bother somebody else.

[maddox-bella-morte]

...If you mean what I think you mean, no, I suppose not. But that's different.

Oh, I see how it is. You'd use me for a free pizza. Just for that, I should make it one of those microwave ones. You know, with the really shitty cheese.

[ace-unlaced]

You’d be extremely put off by you if you knew what I knew. Oh no? So you’re not involved with him on an intimate level? He’s not skipping school and home time to spend time with you? I’m just imagining that?

[maddox-bella-morte]

Ace, leave him alone, he didn't do anything wrong.

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

..I admit to nothing. Wouldn’t even dare go as far as to say I’m ‘crushin’. 

In saying so I think you’re still kind of soliciting it in an underlying way anyway, Max. But suit yourself. 

[maddox-bella-morte]

Oh, I wouldn't say you're crushin'. I'd say I'm crushin'. You've got a maker to answer to.

Wish I was. Maybe I am, a little bit. Not like it would bother you, anyway, would it?

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

..That’s straight up elementary right there. “Crush” is fine, haha. You already tickle my fancy.

Ah. Sounds riveting, I don’t know what you mean by boring. Now me, I’m actually doing nothing, I don’t even work tonight. I’ve just been sitting on the couch, smoking and watching crappy daytime TV all day.

[maddox-bella-morte]

I was thinking more Hey Arnold but elementary works, too. Either way, fuck yes. Crushin'. Admit it, I tickle much more than your fancy.

You underestimate how interesting it actually is, heh. That sounds pretty chill, actually. I'm almost jealous of your bumming. Any other night I'd solicit an impromptu get-together.

[ace-unlaced]

You’d be surprised what I’m capable of. You’d know more if you stayed home more often. Alas, you’re out doing…whoever that is.

[maddox-bella-morte]

The fuck is that supposed to mean? I do stay home, Ace. A lot more than a boy my age should. Don't do this to me. 

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

A crush? That’s a hell of a way to put it. But then again, you are Mr. High School, so I guess that’s to be expected. 

What’re you doing on this lazy sunday then? Nothing?

[maddox-bella-morte]

Would you prefer me say I like-like you? Because I can start doing that instead if it tickles your fancy.

Oh, nothing. Just hanging out with my sister. Making too much coffee. The usual. How about you?

[ace-unlaced]

So this is what you’ve been spending your time doing lately. 

[maddox-bella-morte]

Ace? What the fuck, since when do you have a Tumblr? Why do you even have a Tumblr? How do you even have a Tumblr?

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

Nothin’. I just think you’re kinda cute.

Kidding.

I could easily say the same thing to you about me. Anyone normal would have stopped talking to me by this point.

[maddox-bella-morte]

Yeah? Well golly gee, that gives us something to talk about, because I think you're kinda cute, too.

Never claimed to be normal. Just a boy with a weird little crush.

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

High on my list of priorities is “don’t let Max find out you’re actually quite boring.”

[maddox-bella-morte]

If it's any consolation, I'm quite boring, myself. And I don't keep it a secret. I don't actually know what you find so fascinating about me.

[spidersintheparlour-blog]

Because Sundays are boring by nature, obviously.

[maddox-bella-morte]

Well, they certainly aren't when you're around.