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Is this a safe space to say I LOVE armpits. #ilovearmpits
We need more angry/competitive sex with established relationship hollanov. More of the angry jerk-off after losing the #1 draft pick to ilya and "you gonna come for me rozanov" "fucking make me" -esque stuff. More shane pushing ilya around and ilya dying for it. I want them gwtting aggressive and a little mean with it. Let's recenter that
On the topic of the Centaurs getting to see the Real Shane, I would like you all to consider Ilya trying to give Shane advice after practice and Shane just. NOT having it. So they argue and argue about it, neither of them willing to give in, until Shane eventually gets in Ilya's face and is like
"How many cups do you have? And how many cups do I have?"
SILENCE
"Yeah that's what I thought. Save your advice for somebody who fucking needs it."
And then he just walks out, leaving the locker room in silence and Ilya just standing there, pissed off and horny.
Ilya, who comes home a little after Shane, walking in and calling for Shane from the closed front door. Shanes been waiting for him and braces himself for the conversation he knows they need to have, still a little pissed but also having inklings of guilt growing in the back of his mind. They find each other downstairs a few feet apart and there's a moment where they just stare. No words exchanged, but tension is heavy between them. A breath, Shane, I think...maybe I didnt need to correct you as hard as I did. Okay, shane can work with this, honestly he thought he'd have to be the one to intiate the apologies but- Maybe. I didnt know who I was talking to. Oh. Oh. Ilya was looking somewhere off to the side of him before, but now, hes staring right into shanes eyes. There's something in the tone of his voice, reluctant and exploratory, that cues shane into what's really going on here. You are Shane Hollander, best hockey player in a generation. You have already taught me so much, given me so much. Please can ypu give me one more thing? And then hes somehow he ends up begging and pleading shane to ride him til he dies but idk how to get there...
Shane grabbing a handful of ilyas c cups while they're fucking and spitting out fucking love these- only pair of tits I've ever loved, my perfect girl between hitched breaths punctuated by ilya thrusting into him. This of course does something to ilya that hes Not going to dive into while hes inches deep into his favorite place thank you very much. They will pointedly not talk about it until the next day.
Shane in the backrooms fulfilling his darkest most perverted im the psychosexual sense wish of literally consuming (still life) ilya and it unlocking something within him.
Shane and ilya primal play in the sense they are both predators stalking their prey. They don't know they both secretly want to be the hunted one. Sneaking around corners and feeling eyes on them as the hairs raise on the backs of their necks. Pausing whatever they're doing midway and breaking I to a sprint because they know the other is there. Watching, waiting. Who will fawn tonight? That's the true game.
Shane and ilya screaming match because those bitches are fucking crazy and I know for a fact they are all or nothing when it comes to every part of their lives. This of course includes arguments. They are not putting hands on each other unless it's to start angry-fucking but they are YELLING like two feral animals
Hedonist x Ascetist ilya shane....and see how shane gave up his control in order to indulge in the pleasure he gained from being with ilya...and how ilya gave up chasing the next dopamine hit in order to treat shane as his religion...they are trading parts of themselves to each other and they don't even know it! No not those parts, they know about those.
And i know it has been said ad nauseum but shane deserved to crash the fuck out on the voyagers. Ilya ik u were going through your own shit but fuuuck every where shane turned with hey I am scared of this very real thing that cpuld happen he was met with haha no what?? You're worrying over nothing! And then the Bad Scary Terrible thing happens and he. Just Doesn't get to go fucking crazy over it?!?! Let him chimp out bro. Go bananas. Just start yelling at all of his supposed teammates in the locker room. Called them all useless pieces of shit who couldn't win a game if the other team was blind, deaf, and missing a goalie, much less a Stanley cup. Gets home and just starts breaking shit and screaming, tears streaming down his face and going off a little on ilya too. Like this is what you wanted right?? Everything will be okay you said?!? Guess who was right. And ilya having to confront his own biases about that while navigating this new relationship. I want that on my roku screen 2027 Jacob Tierney take notes.
AU wherein Shane and Ilya never get to the cottage. Maybe Rose doesn't have The Talk with Shane before All stars or maybe they agree to just lavender it out (hey shes not sure she wants a man either?)Maybe The Rose of it all makes ilya avoid Shane in Tampa like the plague because it was stupid to let it get this far anyways and now he's finally happy with a woman and so what if he's still holding out hope, it's not like they could ever actually be anything, so fine. Let Shane have the wife and kids and cook cutter career+life he obviously wants. It's not like ilyas exactly starving for options. But shane can't let things between them die, not yet. Cue even more hookups and ilya being shanes mistress(mister?). But its different now, no more kissing and dotting on each other. It's quick, mean, cold. They'll take what they can get. Anything to have is better than nothing. They both know what they really want, but they tried that and shane ran out so clearly this is enough. It has to be enough. So what if there's a pit growing in each of their stomachs. At least there's something to show for it, more nights with each other than either of them have with anyone else. I dont know how they fix it, if they ever do. Maybe they're just doomed to dance around each other for the rest of their lives never saying the truth about their lonesome love.
Kinda upsetting that my posts about explicit stuff get the most attention and my other ones get none but tis life I guess #sex sells
Imagining shane making ilya beg and plead for his hole, practically whining with tears in his eyes please please shane I'll treat ypu so good ypu know I will please let me have it and shane just I don't know...im not convinced yet tell me what you'll do and ill decide if it impresses me or not...
So when I was like 8(?) I watched penelope yk the one where she has a pig nose and she can't find a suitor because of it but 2000s romcom style and because of that movie, I have had a stim of pushing the tip of my nose up like a pig to match her because I thought it was the cutest thing ever. What started as an emulation just.. never stopped? I did it so often for YEARS literally became my most used self soother or to give my hands something to do and in the same consistent manner to the point I have a permanent wrinkle/line across the point where it would bend. All this to say that I've noticed the wrinkle getting less prominent since I've gotten my septum pierced last year because the nose stim did not go away, no, but instead transformed into me pulling/moving my septum ring in a way that is reversing the past damage. Idk I thought it was funny. Also something something you never really change, just evolve
I'm so shane coded the way I have to constantly remind myself that I am allowed to have desires and dislikes.
(a little canon divergence; the year in between the cottage and ilya moving to ottawa)
The leaves start to change and Ilya and Svetlana go dancing. They hop from bar to bar and Svetlana pretends she doesn't notice the way Ilya checks his phone every five minutes, smiling as he furiously types back and then asks her to repeat what she just said. She is patient, so she does.
They dance closely and fluidly, their bodies so familiar to the other's, and when Ilya's attention is not on his phone, it is completely on her. It is this Ilya she loves so fiercely; the way his energy moves outwards, always giving more than he takes— the way he drags her out onto the dancefloor, something in how he grips her hand that somehow says both I'm here and thank you.
They tired of dancing but not of the night, and find a hot dog stand to eat at, sipping on a shared drink and dripping mustard over the sidewalk. They decide to walk back, even though they've found themselves rather far from home.
They stumble back into Ilya's apartment, hanging onto each other and laughing over some shared joke from their childhood. Svetlana falls into bed giggling. Ilya playfully shakes her, reminds her she is going to be really upset if she falls asleep without taking her makeup off, so she asks him to do it for her, half-joking, and of course he agrees. He messily runs a makeup remover wipe over her face, trying to hold her still as she laughs and laughs and laughs.
She is only half awake when Ilya slips out of the bed to call someone in the other room. She blissfully listens to his soft voice and occassional giggles, too quiet to hear the words but just loud enough to hear the joy in them. When he comes back, she pretends to be asleep.
The next morning, Ilya is up first. He rolls over and watches the steady rise and fall of Svetlana's sleeping body. He had made sure Shane was okay with them still sleeping in the same bed, had asked him over and over and watched for any flicker of doubt or uncertainty, and when he had found none, he was overwhelmed with the feeling of falling even more impossibly in love, feeling so trusted and believed. But now he wakes up next to his beautiful Svetlana— no, not his anymore— he wakes up to her and realizes he can never wake up next to anyone not-Shane ever again for as long as he lives. Nothing could possibly compare.
Ilya takes a shower and dresses, then sits on the edge of the bed. He touches Svetlana's shoulder softly, runs his hand up and down, up and down. Her eyes flicker open and she smiles. He asks her how she slept, and then explains that this is the last time they can sleep in the same bed. She laughs sofly, sighs and stretches her arms above her like a cat.
"I was wondering when this was going to happen. So are you going to tell me about him?"
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They put on coats and scarves and grab coffee at the cafe down the street, taking it to-go and strolling around the neighborhood. Ilya makes her guess who it is, and stops dead in his tracks when she gets it right on the first try. Svetlana looks just as shocked though, having thought surely this was some ridiculous theory of hers.
"No!"
"Yes!"
"Ilya!"
She throws her head back in laughter and takes his arm, and they walk like this as he tells her everything, and his cheeks hurt from laughing by the end of it.
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Later, Shane receives a photo of Ilya and Svetlana, a selfie, the two of them bundled up in scarves and smiling with scrunched eyes and full teeth. The accompanying message just says svetlana says hi.
For all the fear of letting people in, for the jealousy harbored for this beautiful woman, for all the intimidating pressure of making this real, Shane stares at this picture and feel tears prickle at the edges of his eyes— so in love and thinking thank god, thank god there are others who love him, thank god I am not alone in it.
"...thank god im not alone in it."
Something about how everyone shane ever tells about ilyas first reaction being okay you're gay but ilya rozanov??? My poor shane...you are only allowed to exist in the parameters others set for you...kill them.
it's been you and me since before i was me
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I just feel like Ilya would absolutely fuck with 2016 beauty YouTube drama.