[madelinearchcr]

xcndersmith‌:

The ceremony started in an hour and somehow, Xander had found himself in a situation he had been trying to avoid for months. His hands gripped the back of her neck keeping the woman who he was not marrying in place as he kissed her hard. A kiss that was more like a goodbye than anything. At least, that was the intention. He couldn’t even remember when the line between best friends and lovers had been crossed but in that moment, he didn’t really care. In that moment he was completely hers. 

Without a thought, he found himself helping her. Pushing his pants down just enough before his hands moved to her ass so he could hoist her up. This probably should have been proof that he wasn’t ready to get married but that thought hadn’t really crossed his mind as her back was on the wall and her pretty black dress was being hiked up.

It truly felt like a dream-- she’d be damned if this were a dream, but she didn’t want to wake up. She didn’t want to pull away to make sure it was real, and as he hoisted her up, she quickly wrapped her legs around his waist, her hands trailing down his neck and onto his shoulder to brace herself. As her back hit the wall lightly, she eased her hold on him just enough so she wouldn’t leave any marks. He wasn’t hers and she had to remind herself. Ironically it wasn’t a good enough of a reminder considering her lips were still attached to his own. Her teeth pulling at his lower lip, and if she bit down any harder it was sure to leave it swollen. Maybe a part of her wanted to mark him and that was a selfish decision. But were they not being selfish right now? Together?

His pants were off just enough for her to trail a hand down until she slid them into his boxers to take a hold of him. This wasn’t the time for soft touches and teasing. She wanted him, and from the feel of it, he was just as ready. Pulling away just a bit-- only to take in a breath, she leaned her forehead against his while she took a firm grip and began stroking him slowly. Alright, maybe she wanted to tease a little bit. It’s not like she’d be able to do this again. She wanted to tell him that she loved him, that she’ll always love him, but speaking up would only ruin the moment, so she didn’t say a word and instead pressed her lips against his own once more. She couldn’t tell him she loved him. Not yet;

[madelinearchcr]

@xcndersmith

He was getting married and she was going to support him. That was the plan, be the best supportive friend she could be. So how did she find herself pushing him back against the wall, with her lips pressed against his. She was just there to congratulate him, start off on a clean slate, yet once the door to his room was shut, she found herself aching for him, and he reciprocated her feelings because he sure as hell didn’t push her away. All moral ethics were out the window as her hand shakily unbuttoned his shirt. He was so damn good looking and he wasn’t even fully ready yet. He could have been hers, but fate didn’t see it that way.

No, instead she was clawing at his belt as her own black dress was being ridden up from every movement. She continued pushing his shirt off his shoulder, careful that she didn’t ruin the perfect material that graced his body. What the hell was she doing? She was in love with him and he was going to marry someone else. Today. So what the hell was she thinking?

[madelinearchcr]

If you are still here, like this post. I feel like I lost the log in to this but then I find it on my laptop and realize how shitty I am for not figuring this out earlier.. Im so sorry! if you by any chance read this any time soon, contact me! i’ll check back every day for a week. If not i’ll leave you my number so that you can text me or something!

[foolish-blondie]

maybe you’re wondering why did i let you go so easily. if you ever still think about me, of course. if you don’t, it’s okay. i haven’t been thinking much about myself either. but if you ever do, here’s why i let you go so easily. i guess the people who’ve broken my heart before you were the “never again” ones. the people that came before you were the ones who built up a fortress out of my heart so now “love” has become a “never again” promise. i swore to myself i would never make all of the effort again, i would never pull my heart out so willingly again, i would just never love innocently again. it is such an awful shame that you were the one who came after all these people. i’m sorry i’ve got enough never agains pulling me back from you. i’m sorry my heart is not in its original shape for you to hold in your hands for when you reach out for it, you cut yourself with its sharp edges. i’m so sorry i’m tired enough to never try again. i’m sorry i’ve got no strength left to put up a goddamn fight. for you. (source)

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[darcystarlizzie]

[madelinearchcr]

xcndersmith:

He didn’t understand why she had to make this so complicated for them. Would she really rather lose every messy piece of history they had together than to squash it and allow them to shift back into a comfortable friendship? “You’re acting like a fucking brat” he ran his hand over his mouth and jawline, eyes diverting from her to scan the crowd once again. This wasn’t really the time or place to have a conversation like this “I want you to be done with this- whatever the hell this his” His voice was still hushed, anyone with a set of eyes could see there was some sort of tension “If you didn’t want to be here why did you bother showing up?”

“Be done with this?” a humorless laugh escaped her lips but she didn’t argue. He wanted to be done? Fine. So be it. But she doubt they could be finished with this, and in her opinion it had just started. Pretty fucked up considering he’s marrying another woman right? “You know what? You’re right. I’m going to try and be done with this. In fact, i’m gonna head off to the bar now because there are more options than just wine -- and hope my vision blurs enough to take someone home with me. Or the bathroom, whichever really.” she added with a light shrug, but the bitterness was still laced behind her tone. “I wanted to be polite, and supportive, you know, the usual shit best friends are supposed to tell each other, but if you don’t mind, i’ll see myself out.”

[madelinearchcr]

xcndersmith:

“Don’t” he started, voice hushed as he glanced around to make sure listening ears weren’t paying them much attention. He didn’t want to make a scene but he didn’t want whatever was happening here to end in the two of them ending a lifelong friendship, even though most of it was his own fault. With a sigh, he leaned against the bar, gaze shifting to her once more “Don’t start acting like this” he was undeniably annoyed by the way she was acting already. They had both made the mistake they had made “Emma wants you here because you’re important to me” That wasn’t a lie, Maddie was important to him. Emma just didn’t know how important. “And I want you here, Maddie” he continued on, shifting so he could face her “I fuckin’ miss you”

Were his words supposed to ease her? He was still getting married and here she was, standing there after all that was said and done to know that he wasn’t going to change his mind. “I’m not acting like anything.” is all she could say and when she heard him say the last words, she had to grit down on her teeth. She should punch him just about now, but instead she finished the drink and placed the glass down. “Well, i’m right here. But that’s all I can say. I mean, what do you want me to say?” she had clearly said a lot a few weeks ago, but here he was, still marrying Emma. So what did he want to hear? 

[madelinearchcr]

xcndersmith:

It was strange, he would admit it, to have Maddie around for this celebration after everything that had happened between them. They both knew (at least he had hoped) that being together had been a mistake and Xander had spent a good amount of time avoiding her. Much too long. It was Emma’s idea to invite Madeline and he couldn’t say no- if anything it would have raised more suspicion when it came to the two of them and where their relationship was so an invite was sent to her, begrudgingly.

As the night progressed his eyes couldn’t help but find her every once in a while, stealing glances every chance he could get as he made his rounds and did what hosts did “I call shenanigans” Xan tutted his tongue against the roof of his mouth, trying to keep things between them casual “How are you Mads?”

He had to be joking right? Was he seriously asking her how she was? Did he care? Yes, she was still very very bitter towards him so if he was expecting some casual response, he was wrong. However, this was his engagement party and while she should have been happy for him, she couldn’t keep herself from expressing that sentiment. Instead of responding, she poured herself another glass before leaning back against the counter. Eyes were trained on him while she pulled the glass up to her lips to take a sip. Mentally she was  just counting down to how long it would take before he dropped the act and either asked her to leave, or walked away. 

The chatter from the other room could be heard clearly which just meant she’d have to keep her voice low or they’d be able to hear her -- that is if she wanted to talk. “How are you Xander?” she asked after a moment. If there was any indication at all, she wasn’t okay, but did that matter? “Don’t worry, i’m gonna head out soon in case my presence here was making it uncomfortable for you.” There was no need to keep up a facade, and if she meant nothing to him, she shouldn’t even be here. Right?

[fdtdsource]

— santanico pandemonium

[xmusiings]

Are you in more pain than you are in love?

[rockinrpmemes]

Acts of Affection

[madelinearchcr]

rockinrpmemes:

Send in a symbol from YOUR muse to see how MY muse will react to yours!

Shipping/Romance:

♥  Laying by their side and watching them while they sleep with a fond smile.

♡  Kissing the corner of their eyes.

❥  Running your hand over their arm and gently pulling them close.

❤  Whispering sweet nothings in their ear. 

❦  Holding hands and nuzzling somewhere ambient and low-lit.

❣  Staring deep into their eyes with adoration.

ღ  Rubbing your leg against theirs under the table.

ℒ  Pulling them into a hall/alley to kiss them passionately.

￡ Brushing your hand over or gently squeezing their bum.

Ω Running a hand over their collar bone or décolleté.

Sexual/NSFW:

✖  Soft nips at the neck and shoulder line.

✗  Bathing, washing, or soaking together quietly after sex.

♦  Body worshipping their naked form, slowly.

✚  Painting honey dust, edible paint, or other soft brush strokes on their body.

✦  Giving a sensual massage.

♢ Straddling their lap and holding their face to yours for a deep kiss.

▲ Dressing them up in lingerie (or gear) with gentle attention.

▽ Running your hand between their thighs, and splitting their legs apart.

► Unzipping their clothes free and kissing their neck.

[madelinearchcr]

@xcndersmith

--Because this was normal right? Talk about feelings, get ignored, only to show up at the man you love’s house while he publicly announces his engagement with another woman once more. Except she had no other excuse but to show up, so while the wine was being passed around, she had helped herself to her third glass. She was aiming for her fourth glass but she needed something stronger and since she knew his place like the back of her hand, she excused herself from the group just to help herself to the liquor that was usually stashed in one of the cabinets. Maybe she should just take it and leave, place a sorry note for taking the liquor and pay him back--- never? She was still bitter, but could she be blamed? Deep down, yes she could. For now, she was just going to drink.

When she heard the footsteps behind her, she replaced the frown with a smile and turned to greet the person that had decided to follow her. “I think you were out of wine, so just helping myself to something stronger.” 

[madelinearchcr]

Honestly last week has been all sickness recovery, period pains, and studying for all three tests. I’m so sorry for the sluggish activity, but I will star back after tomorrow! I just needed you to know!

[madelinearchcr]

xcndersmith:

“Madeline” Her name fell of his tongue with a sharp hiss, the anger he was feeling still evident. It didn’t matter that they wanted- what they felt- the both of them knew this wouldn’t work. They had been down this road before and it did work so what was the point in trying again? Not when he had a life waiting and ready for him. Being in love with two vastly different women was complicated “I’ve made my choice and it isn’t you. If that means you walk away from our friendship then I guess that’s the price I have to pay. It wouldn’t be the first time you did” he snapped back “If that’s all I have to do to end this, then goodbye, Maddie” In silence he turned on his heal, shutting the door behind him after entering his house once more.

His words were harsh, that much was obvious by the hurt expression on her face. “We were kids then, we were young and we didn’t know what life would have brought us.” she stated in her defense, which wasn’t a lie either. If they hadn’t worked out then, would they had still been friends now? If they had decided to screw things up in the past, wouldn’t it affect them now? “Damn it Xander!” she slammed her hand against the door just as he shut it on her face. “You know we would have screwed it up before if we had decided to do this! And you know just as well that you’re going to screw yourself over if you marry her now.” She found herself slamming her hand against his door once more and the cold didn’t help either. There were tears forming in her eyes, to know that she had just lost him either way. “And you know what? If I had walked away from this -- us -- last time, that was on me but this time, it’s on you!” and yet she still found herself at the door, just yelling because a part of her knew he’d listen and she wasn’t finished. “You are not getting off that easy. I know there was more to it than just this and I know you felt it too that night. You wouldn’t have kissed me-- not like that, so you can pretend and fuck things over, or you can finally come to terms with it. If losing me is the price you’re ready to accept then why the hell did you try and save me that day at the mall? Why weren’t you off with the woman you love instead of walking straight into the cross fire?” 

It wasn’t as if she had forgotten. “Damn it Xander, I hate you so fucking much right now.” and if only she believed her own words, but she needed to step back. In fear of what his neighbors would say, in fear of what would happen if she didn’t. She had to step back-- so she did. This was it then. He chose Emma. Not her-- and as much as she hated this feeling, she needed to get drunk. Forget this ever happened. Forget him since he gave her no other option.

[ofaberrations]

[madelinearchcr]

ofaberrations:

               Everything will change, nothing stays the same                Nobody here’s perfect, oh, but everyone’s to blame                Oh, all that you rely on, and all that you can save                 Oh, you’re in my veins, and I cannot get you out 

@olive-woodrow​

Can I just share that I had this ship going with Liz x Jensen and I made this gifset? like I love it so much so I decided to reblog off of my personal lol.

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