Mademoisellethen

Since 1997• Books and movies• Loves to write

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“The people who are meant to be in your life will always gravitate back towards you, no matter how far they wander.”

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Happy birthday K🎂

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And when the sun comes, all the stars disappear.

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Epiphany

Isn’t it weird to choose to ignore that stranger when you know him deep down his soul; what makes him happy, what makes him cry, what makes his eyes glimmer.

Whether that person you know doesnt exist anymore,

But it’s never a choice, right? It will never be a choice.

Maybe there are parts of him that remind you to his old self

and that destroys you,

You just need to accept that - life moves on and so does he to you.

You no long matter to him anymore, you don’t mean anything but a stranger who made a thousand memories.

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I wandered to unfamiliar places and people just to search for you,

Am I still out of the woods?

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"I wish I was healed enough before I met you, so you could see the best version of me."

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no one's really ever gone.

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Happy birthday K 🎂

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this version oh god

[mademoisellethen]

"My affections and wishes are unchanged; but one word from you will silence me on this subject forever."

-Mr. Darcy

[storge]

My heart, pounding deafeningly in my chest My legs, now frozen in a way they never are My tears, silently trickling down my cheek They tell me… that this is my first love

First Love: Hatsukoi (2022)

[mjrobesix]

I bawled my eyes out when this scene played out.

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No matter how weak or unworthy you feel,

Keep your heart burning.

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03/17/17

And eventually

you’ll know all his flaws

and all of how he showed he cares.

You will realize how you’ve got a huge handful but that’s why God gave you two hands.

You’ll start to see how he only has a certain smile

when he’s alone with you.

You’ll know his favorite color is red and the way he smells good.

You’ll see that he’s crazy for playing online games, but not as crazy as he is for you.

You’ll notice how he try’s to irritate and tease you more during that special time of the month just so he can make you laugh when you get mad.

He’ll become your own little puzzle to work on,

And someday all the pieces you’ll have put down and together…

He's the last piece that finishes that puzzle and holds it together.

And that’s all you could possibly ask for.

You will remember the way he holds your hand just to see you smile,

Or the way he whispers 'you're beautiful' and kisses your hand.

He loves you, and he needs you. And you need him.”

“the book I’ll never write” page 13

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Dear Kel,

I dreamt of you again. I know it's not that vivid. But I can still feel the happiness I felt when I saw you.

We were at the school and invited to watch some play which I don't remember anymore.

We were surrounded by our schoolmates which I don't seem enough to notice.

I can't believe that it was a dream, because I can feel my heart beating fast the moment I saw you and felt nervous the more you get close to me.

The way you stared at my eyes, stealing glances even if we're far away...while I'm trying my best not to catch me looking at you,

I'm longing to see the glimpse of you, but I don't know why I can't look at you that long.. is it because I'm afraid? Or because looking at you will make me want more and choose to stay here..

Or perhaps, looking at you makes me feel bad about myself for what I did.

The truth is, my only happy place is the moment I'm with you.

But I am torn in between love and danger.

In reality, I envy my dreams because she had the chance to see you, to talk to you, and touch you.. and I can't.

I can't control it, even if I wanted to. Writing this letter, is like letting my heart out in a good or bad way.

I can't wait to have another dream with you again and write you..

I always think of you, day and night and I hope you know someone is still there hoping for your love, waiting for you.

May our fate be at the right place and at the right time.

Again.

Forever Yours,

then

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"He loved her too early, She loved him too late."

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Memories feel like weapons

And now that I know, I wish you'd left me wondering

God rest my soul, I miss who I used to be

The tomb won't close, stained glass windows in my mind

I regret you all the time

I can't let this go, I fight with you in my sleep

The wound won't close, I keep on waiting for a sign

I regret you all the time