The single best description of, basically, my entire life.
A phrase I've heard so many times in the past it will be engraved onto my tombstone.
There isn't a single aspect of my life I can point to, that doesn't use that phrase.
For instance the thing with Moriah.
She liked me, but NOT ENOUGH to want a relationship or work through the obstacles to let one happen.
She married me, but when things got difficult I was NOT ENOUGH to stick with, try to understand or work on a solution.
My parents refused to accept me, fought against me and actively made my life difficult because I was NOT ENOUGH for them.
I have friends at work who claim they like me, some even throw around the phrase "love you" to me. I'm just NOT ENOUGH to actually invite to any social function. Ever.
I often think (or wish) I was good at my job. I'm currently finding out that I am good but NOT ENOUGH to progress any farther than I am right now.
My photography passion is shaping up to be the same way.
I've talked to a ton of people from my display booth at ReadOut. All have said extremely complimentary things about my images. My photographs have been on constant display for months at various place. Still, they are NOT ENOUGH to have anyone purchase one. My current sales total from all sources is a whopping $0.00
So if everything is NOT ENOUGH then what's the point? Will something suddenly and magicly become enough? Is not enough the best I have to look forward too? Will something new capture my imagination and my passion that will also be NOT ENOUGH?
Being NOT ENOUGH is exhausting, frustrating, stressful and depressing.
Because, I need to face the facts, being NOT ENOUGH is all I will ever be.