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That Door In The Wall

That Door In The Wall

That door in the wall is wide and gilded.  It is akin to a giant bar of gold with Arabic inscriptions engraved upon its surface.  It is partially covered by a draping of the deepest black raw silk, the Kiswa.  The name of Allah and His messenger Muhammad (peace be upon him) is carved upon its two panels.  As soon as this door’s vision unfolds before my eyes, the soul catapults my body into…

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All Tangled Up In A Web of Deceit

All Tangled Up In A Web of Deceit

“I am going to Vancouver”, her hands felt clammier than ever as she nervously tried to cradle the phone between her ears and shoulder.  Nestling it securely, Meena used both her hands to tuck in the straying hairs on her forehead back into the safety of her brown floral hijab.  She restlessly turned around to look at the departure time on the LED display board above the platform, as the speakers…

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Closing Doors On Opposing Platforms

Closing Doors On Opposing Platforms

Inbound Arrival 6:00 pmA spitting image of his father Could it really be? Was it really him? She stared, paralyzed Her eyes fixated on a lanky form Clad in a grey fleece sweater and blue jeans Feet planted firmly on the yellow markings He stood at the train station platform Waiting   She willed him to swivel around As she quickly started  Wading her way  Through the crowd He turned As if feeling…

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Baked myself a mango cheesecake for my birthday last week! Loving making cheesecakes in my instapot! #instantpotcheesecake #mangomaza #mangocheesecake #cheesecakelovers https://www.instagram.com/p/CEfkcSYAfQv/?igshid=b3pulp5aphu9

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And then when he turns 12, to lose your child to severe manipulative tactics and complete brainwash #nocontactwithmyson #goingonthirdyear #parentalalienationischildabuse #parentalalienationawareness #parentalalienationexists #parentalalienationisacrime #stopparentalalienation #speakup #speakout #sufferinsilencenomore https://www.instagram.com/p/CEVhzkGjwr0/?igshid=uu731ligwp62

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Windshield isn’t the cleanest but had to share this red hued wonder. Couldn’t really call it a rainbow as it hadn’t rained but there it was amidst the haze from the burning fires aglow at sunset time. So eerily beautiful, SubhanAllah. The sky seemed to be reflecting what’s my mood on a daily basis. On one hand I go about cheerily through the day, on the other an empty feeling of sadness continues to grip my heart. Like this smokiness screaming witness to the devastation caused by the fires. Making my insides cringe. There’s fires that burn around me that so far I’m safe from. It’s the fires within that I think I’ve put out, but are somewhere still smoldering, that I fear the most. I continue to seek guidance from the One and Only to get me through all there was, is, and will be, ya Lateef 🤲🏼May Allah swt reunite me with my son so my eyes can be cooled by the sight of him and my motherly yearning can be quenched. #parentalalienationawareness #parentalalienationduringcovid #parentalalienationduringfires #whatkindaanimaldoesthis #definitelynotahuman #jalladloki #survivingnarcissism #dvsurvivor #traumacontinues #byextension #familycourtscorruption https://www.instagram.com/p/CETIOeYj32-/?igshid=tbq69q6o18bm

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No idea who wrote is but How creative is this author ... a friend’s post ... #bitsofhumour #makinglightofthesitutionalwayshelps #keeponkeepingon #alaughadaykeepstheshrinkaway https://www.instagram.com/p/CEJ21KcD7dn/?igshid=1u3w6d0l55dyd

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How To Keep My Head Above Water In A Firestorm?

How To Keep My Head Above Water In A Firestorm?

This deep burning inside my heart. Is difficult to explain. Sadness scorching the tiny vessel. Yet the blood continues to pump its way. Why? So many triggers. Too much to forget. But I want to remember. All that bitter pain. Sweet madness! Why? Keep your head Above the water. You've come too far to drown. Turn that rage into a storm Of worship, timely and diligent. Patiently await the meet With…

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Couldn’t have done it without Allah’s help. Alhamdulillah I’ve come far and you will too. #lifeafternarcissisticabuse #livingmybestlife #besttimeofmylife #grateful #dvsurvivor #lifedoeschangeforthebetter https://www.instagram.com/p/CEA66i3jGE5/?igshid=1fbq057btl3rt

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Couldn’t have done it without Allah’s help. Alhamdulillah I’ve come far and you will too. #lifeafternarcissisticabuse #livingmybestlife #besttimeofmylife #grateful #dvsurvivor #lifedoeschangeforthebetter https://www.instagram.com/p/CEA6tEDjVaT/?igshid=745fd8x36a9d

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If there’s ever a constant... it’s change. #weatheringwithyou #naturescape #nature #thunderstorms #lightening #awestruck https://www.instagram.com/p/CD-00L3j904/?igshid=14qjy1w6wc79n

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Happy Friday Everyone 🌹... The weekend has officially begun! Looking forward to some serious self care this weekend... alhamdulillah (all praise belongs to Allah (God)). (Not affiliated with or soliciting any of these products). Just trying them out as I want to avoid the risk of visiting the salon. #finallygettingthetime #specialweekends #selfcareisimportant #survivingnarcissistabuse #domesticviolencesurvivor #lifecanbebetter #lifeafterabuseispossible #dontstaysilent #safeisbetter #putonyouroxygenmaskfirst #targetedparent #selfcareisntselfish #maketimeforyou #spaathome #avoidingsalon #selfcareduringcovid https://www.instagram.com/p/CD49hNcD4Cm/?igshid=1bc8pir8lcsav

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فَقُولَا لَهُ قَوْلًا لَّيِّنًا لَّعَلَّهُ يَتَذَكَّرُ أَوْ يَخْشَىٰ Speak to to Pharaoh mildly that perhaps he may be reminded or fear Allah. Surah TaHa 20:44 If Allah swt asked Musa as to speak kindly to Pharaoh, the most disobedient, cruel, and arrogant oppressor of all time, why do some of the so called and seemingly ‘religious’ people sound so angry? Take a chill pill and then preach, maybe? #followthisdeenright #practicebeforepreaching #speakkindly #ordontpreach #religiousnarcissism https://www.instagram.com/p/CD2JPGUDiLY/?igshid=v623j97r8yxl

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فَقُولَا لَهُ قَوْلًا لَّيِّنًا لَّعَلَّهُ يَتَذَكَّرُ أَوْ يَخْشَىٰ Speak to to Pharaoh mildly that perhaps he may be reminded or fear Allah. Surah TaHa 20:44 If Allah swt asked Musa as to speak kindly to Pharaoh, the most disobedient, cruel, and arrogant oppressor of all time, why do some of the so called and seemingly ‘religious’ people sound so angry? Take a chill pill and then preach, maybe? #followthisdeenright #practicebeforepreaching #speakkindly #ordontpreach #religiousnarcissism https://www.instagram.com/p/CD2JANvDC8b/?igshid=esoffran10dm

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Loved returning to work! The principal handed out the cutest cards ever subhanAllah. On-site training with social-distancing measures. Google has some amazing products to increase student engagement and encourage collaborative learning. If you’re a teacher check them out. So blessed to be working at this school, Alhamdulillah. Feeling excited! Bismillah! I begin with Allah’s name. May Allah swt accept from us! #distanceteachingtraining #covid19changingthings #changecanbeagoodthing #bestjob #techsavvyteacher #becomingabetterme #positivevibes #happyworkculture https://www.instagram.com/p/CDusWtqD62L/?igshid=1iu76vfrn37vr

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No Fuss Instant Pot Biryani in 3 Easy Steps

No Fuss Instant Pot Biryani in 3 Easy Steps

For biryani, you usually want to have all the right spices in your pantry to make it just perfect. You may want to make it as the crown dish for a weekend gathering when you’ve family and guests to impress. Or if you are a teacher like me, you may want to just take it on as a science experiment. Maybe even turning it into a therapeutical adventure as the aroma from the different spices invigorate…

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And after a while it wears you down with serious repercussions to your well being. #drawyourboundaries #narcissistwontcomprehend #cantresolvetheirissuespeacefully #seeksafetyfromnarcissists #narcissistsdontchange https://www.instagram.com/p/CDolnVtDYnx/?igshid=1bc8wvzrepfrj