Ruminations

Shower thoughts, bedtime comtemplations and random ruminations.

[madilaus]

SLEEP

A personal depiction of the struggles of a person with mental illness.

[madilaus]

I wish we met in a different circumstance.

I wish we would never have to say goodbye.

But goodbye,

my love.

[madilaus]

Finally, and unfortunately,

I understood deeply and felt what Kafka meant by being a vermin.

[thehopefulquotes]

“Breathe. You’re going to be okay. Breathe and remember that you’ve been in this place before. You’ve been this uncomfortable and anxious and scared, and you’ve survived. Breathe and know that you can survive this too. These feelings can’t break you. They’re painful and debilitating, but you can sit with them and eventually, they will pass. Maybe not immediately, but sometime soon, they are going to fade and when they do, you’ll look back at this moment and laugh for having doubted your resilience. I know it feels unbearable right now, but keep breathing, again and again. This will pass. I promise it will pass.”

— Daniell Koepke

[madilaus]

Lost you twice in one lifetime

Despite trying to be enough

You chose to be free - away from me

And though you said I was enough

I had already lost that soul inside me

Not once.

Not even twice.

[madilaus]

You're the first and last thing on my mind before i sleep

- I wish I could hold you in my dreams.

[madilaus]

That pain, before the first tear drops from her eyes.

When pain becomes more than just a feeling.

[madilaus]

Sometimes, I catch myself fall in love with you more than once

[madilaus]

Art grants me peace that the world hardly gives.

[madilaus]

The future ahead is a blur.

Oh, how I reminisce, romanticizing the good times of the past.

My youth.

How fun and carefree I was.

But I have to stop and be in the present.

The present that never lasts.

[madilaus]

Most of all, I believe in love.

But love doesn't deserve me.

And I don't deserve love.

Please, I beg you.

Love me again.

[madilaus]

No one wants to be with the lonely.

No one wants to be alone.

But here we are. Born in the middle of nowhere. Lost, finding a place in the world.

Alone.

Always alone with all the lonely.

[madilaus]

A human-written poetry converted to an AI generated song.

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[madilaus]

You're now just a memory I don't want to remember.

[madilaus]

At midnight, I feel everything that shouldn't be there.

[madilaus]

Time, i will be there for you on the other side

[userkirian]

stop romanticizing your self imposed suffering! leave it in the closest recycling bin!

heather havrilesky // disco elysium // richard silken // Mary Oliver // Jumo Avilés // Jen Mazza // Joan Didion