being shut down as a child and told that what you want doesn’t matterÂ
feeling like your words don’t hold any weight and that you have no influence on anything that happens to you
still feeling when you get hurt it’s your fault, because everyone agrees that it is
feeling like nobody will ever want to listen to anything you have to say
feeling like anything you say can’t possibly be important or of any value
feeling like anything you do has no worth or significance simply because it’s you who did it
feeling screaming inside from injustice but knowing you can’t do anything about it
feeling unbearably anxious and angry and helpless you end up harming yourself
feeling guilty for harming yourself
feeling helpless to change anything
feeling like you’re not important enough for your pain to matter
feeling like you probably wont live for long anyway
feeling like you’re disposable, and your life is disposable
feeling like there’s no meaning to life like this
feeling like there’s no way out
feeling like any expression of your pain is attention seeking, selfish, manipulative, abusive, wrong, and like you’ll get shut down and punished for it
because you always were shut down and punished for it
but it’s still nobody’s fault because “you’re not expressing how bad you are so nobody can help you”
feeling like nobody could help you even if they knew
feeling like your pain is a burden
feeling inner frustration so unbearable you want to explode
feeling scared of yourself and what you might do
feeling like you’re a monster even if you can’t figure out just what did you do to become one
all of these are signs of experiencing severe child abuse.
if you felt this, you were abused.
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