jackpot sad girl

"アタシはジャックポットサッドガール"

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♪ 这是介绍

♪ this is the introduction

@r3d4ppl3s ' s new account because i cannot keep up with that one

MASTERLIST , REQUEST RULES , DNI , BYI

did list some fun facts about me though after the border (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠)

hii ! you can call me alice , mafuyu , or nicknames ( as long as you tell me beforehand ) so and so !! i use any pronouns except for she / her and that ' s about it

THIS IS A SECONDARY ACCOUNT. ANY RESPONSES FROM ME WILL BE FROM MY MAIN ACCOUNT. I WILL INFORM IN THE RESPONSE THAT THIS IS A SECONDARY ACCOUNT.

FUN FACTS ABOUT @mafuyuwrites

currently speaks two languages , understands three , and is learning several

author does not know about it ' s heritage to the point it ' s funny ( i know my grandparents on my dad ' s side is vietnamese and my mom is fully chinese but is my dad mixed ? )

this user plays violin and tries to play the keyboard

mafuyu asahina ( project sekai ) copinglink

ena shinonome ( project sekai ) copinglink

emu otori ( project sekai ) copinglink

- a copinglink is someone who takes the identity of a fictional character to cope with trauma, this is voluntary and they do not get memories / flashbacks and know they are not the character therefore you technically cannot reality check them

goes to one of the only two prestigious schools in their county ( get me out of here , please )

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i was on c.ai and the blade bot said something like "i dont know why i bother, you cant bother to be saved"

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Spider lily trio tbh

Dan Heng as the lycoris squamigera

Blade as the lycoris radiata

Jing Yuan as the lycoris albiflora

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I got press on nails n they are sooo cute but hard to type with </3

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I'm sobbbinggg and cryyinnggg

And my nails aren't helping 😭

Anyways if I just made a new acc woulddff it be nice hmmm

HMMM

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Did I just realized I added too much on my Dan Heng post when it wasn't in the post at all

Just now yes and I wanna bury myself six feet under and scream in a jar

Uh so uh ya uh so djjsk

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having a romance with dan heng

- spoilers for the movie that Noriko's Dinner Table is a sequel for (iykwim)

- 2nd pov used / gn reader

- also hsr leaks yea uh so ya

- also talking about death, unaliving one's self that stuff

more context - ish that has to be made for this to make sense:

suicide club's dessert (dessart, desert, etc) is gonna be called the stellaron hunters that includes blade, kafka, silver wolf, sam, and elio (five of them, how coincidental)

dan heng is gonna be called dan feng here !!

also essentially you / reader here will have a tattoo, to keep this going with the plot of suicide club at least a bit better especially with how much i had to change (can be any tattoo design)

also, let's just say he and you don't know blade and dan heng has only met him with the entire group in like a fanmeet

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- still mourning the "lost" of your boyfriend, Dan Feng (?) you didn't expect to find a weird truth

- he was a fan of music, or more specifically a fan of this one specific idol group. he had posters of them all over their room, he had their most popular single as his ringtone. he was definitely a fan!

- well, this wouldn't seem too weird since the group was popular but you realized something. in a photo book he had token a photo with the entire group, the group was posing weird. an odd feeling, but you can't help but feel that there's more with their posing than it seems

so here you were, sitting in your (ex?) boyfriend's room, his room a mess. he was always an organized individual, it was weird sight to behold. you felt numb, too numb. who could blame you? you saw your boyfriend kill himself, he landed on top of you. although, you couldn't leave yourself in your thoughts for longer with how the phone was ringing. who was calling him? why were they calling him? but it does give you an idea, the way they posing. it makes up a number combination... and you know whats (not) a good way you can use this information? call the number of course!

you dial the number and it picks up surprisingly but it asks for you to input your PIN number. you decided to not do that and simply input the numbers the members of the group had on their shirts. and surprise, surprise, an actual person picked up. he sounded like a kid, he was speaking weirdly too. he invited you to come over, not giving his name or anything. you didn't think much of it, and decided to put your time to use and figure out more clues.

and more clues you got, a stellaron hunter concert is tomorrow. you were desperate to figure out what happened. why everything was so strange

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i bended my nail last night and since i play violin my nails are never long enough for me to bend

safe to say I kept bending it and it like just broke

ya

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How do you remove the polls, I accidentally added one and I can't remove it $(7'+$;-8(

IT RUISN THE WHOLE POST UGHDHHS DGUPDU BIFCH I AM JIT REWRITITING ANU OF THAT OR COPYING AND PASTING

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UGHHHH I WANNA DO A BOOK LIKE AN ACTUAL BOOK ON LIKE AO3 OR WATTPAD AND MAKE IT BASED OFF A SONG I RLLY LIKE

LIKE MAIL ME (HARUKO MOMOI) OR UWU (CHEVY) THAT STUFF YKKK

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short jing yuan angst thingie ??

- includes spoilers for tokyo vampire hotel so be aware !!

- also mentions of unaliving one's self and well death

- gn reader ( 2nd pov used )

i'm thinking of k and noah with jing yuan n his s/o

specifically the scene that goes

"you never wanted to accept my feelings! not even when we were in romania" - noah

"noah, i love you too. i will always love you" - k

"youre lying!" - noah

"i love you, but i can't take you with me into battles. stay here" - k

"i want to be here with you. i love you" - noah

and originally i thought of gepard but when writing this out and looking back at the scenes, i feel jing yuan fits sm better

and i'm also now thinking of the scene where k said like "lets die together" but ends up not dying in the end and not actually being able to die with you </3

or perhaps like you've been granted immortality and have been chasing after jing yuan, just to remember you guys are on opposite teams and you can't be together (i think jingren is getting to my head)

also, another idea is that he had to leave you for his job as the general and blade comes in being all like "he doesn't love you, he betrayed you" and ruined your entire trust in jing yuan. despite all of that, you cannot bring yourself to hate him. you love him, you always had

and you finally get to meet him again, but with the influence of blade's words. you tell him to kill you, he tells you that he's gonna die anyways and would rather die with you. well, things happen blah blah blah and he doesn't die, but you got beheaded so kinda silly !!

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did in fact finish tokyo vampire hotel

so confused with the ending but then again when has a sion sono movie not confuse me ?? especially at the ending

also , dunno why but i was looking at the many actors in the many movies sion sono filmed and i noticed

" holy shit a lot of these actors have been in multiple sion sono movies "

or

" oh hey i know that actor from ( different movie not directed by sion sono ) "

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slept at five , set an alarm for 11 : 15 because 12 : 30 seemed too late

slept after turning off the alarm , woke up at 12 : 30

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watching tokyo vampire hotel (⁠θ⁠‿⁠θ⁠)

on ep . 3 i believe and i ' m watching with a friend on call ( discord )

it ' s very interesting to say !

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Quick thoughts

aka me assigning random hsr characters with a song , this is either me assigning the lore of songs with the character OR just what i think the character would listen to

Blade as Six Trillion Years and Overnight Story

- the story / lore of six trillion years reminds me of blade , like a lot.

Kafka with HIP

- i don't think i need to elaborate LIKE IT JUST FITS HER SMM

Serval with Gamble Rumble

- was listening to haruko momoi ' s cover of it and thought about Serval , no comment (pls listen to other haruko songs / covers tho i love her)

Dan Heng as Aun no beats

- was looking at lore and i ' m having a jingheng brain rot currently so like eh 50 / 50

Silver Wolf with Peaky Peaky

- i don ' t know how i should explain this like it just came to me

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Hsr Xianzhou Loufu arc spoilers + the witch and the beast spoilers (volume 3-4 / the ones containing Helga)

I WAS GRINDING ON HSR (MISSIONS) AND I WAS DOING THE TRAILBLAZE MISSIONS (STORY QUESTS) AND THEN THE

"even aeons can be killed" PART AND YK WHAT I IMMEDIATELY THOUGHT OF ??

THE WITCH AND THE BEAST.

Because in the Helga parts of the manga there was this like fight scene between Guideau n the sword and then Helga was like "that sword can destroy creation in itself how can Guideau defeat it ??" and so Ashaf was like "Well the sword (forgot the name of the sword...) isn't the only thing that can destroy everything" and went on blah blah blah how if two god-like beings went against each other who would win and what not

I DUNNO ANYONE ELSE GET REMINDED OF IT ??

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When he's a "I'd rather stay up late" and you're a "I'd rather wake up early" person

(just kidding, he doesn't sleep and I stay up late and sleep in late)