Lol lol lol I know I'm fucked up but here's the thing I need to get out some pent up energy.
So my "partner" has decided he's opening things up, I went along. This type of dynamic needs honesty, respect, trust and communication above all else to work properly. Good and fine.
Fast forward he finds a partner, we invite her over- starts as a threesome with me included. Slowly turns into they playing separate and me and the chick should be "friends" in his eyes. LmAO this ain't sisterwives but okay listening....
We all have eachothers number and snapchats. They are snapping all day and night. She comes over while I'm at work. It would be one thing if boundaries were put in place but they never were. I will take responsibility for that, that's on me.
So I tell him my concerns. He flips that basically I am l making a big deal of this and the know this was going to happen... we have cameras at our house right. First time she showed up, I saw her on the camera. I gave him all day to come clean, I come home and he says it like "he told me already I know I did" so now I'm crazy because he never told me and I found out and called him out. This was the first time.
This shit has happened 2 times since. Fool me once right? So today I check the camera because I have been getting notifications this morning which is rare because lately it hasn't been catching much of anything (convenient. Has not been catching her either "somehow"). So I pull the camera up in the app and look at that the camera has been disconnected. Shocker. Like I didn't know it was coming to this but the real shocker was what a coward I realized my partner has truly been.
I'm at work now in the middle of all of this and I am currently experiencing what I would call a level of deception I never thought I would see first hand from the person I lay next to at night.
So I have been listening to music and for the first time ever Taylor Swift has come up on my YouTube radio shuffle. The song Karma. I have not listened to this song on repeat 18 times and my mind is becoming clear...
So here is what I am going to do 😇 he wants us to be friends and has mentioned that many times. He has even said she told him she wants to be friends with me so badly (LOL also convenient). I have snapped her on a few occasions to start a friendship (same time as my partner) and ours go maybe 4 messages back and forth and die.
I have determined my next attempt will be one of my true intentions. She joined the same gym as my partner and I. I need a ride to get there lately so I think I will reach out to her for a ride to the gym. Keep her close, show her what she can do while she's there (she wanted a buddy because she is older and new to the gym), show her that I can be an amazing friend. My true self. And on the way home when she is dropping me off, that I appreciate the ride but I will be removing myself from your toxic energy- hers and his. After a full day and night of deceit, your girl is exhausted of being man-splained and talked out of the truths every woman knows in their heart of hearts. When the hairs on the back of your neck stand up, it prompts caution. Not for you hunny, you are the orange cone my partner is using to avoid our real issues and you don't even care because he is helping you with your own narcissistic need/void. (She is cheating on her husband, my partner is not her first offense so she knows what she is doing is wrong)
I have aligned with the new meaning to "the grass is always greener on the other side". Its truer that "the grass is only green where you water it". I'm disconnecting my hoses to those that just spew endlessly and keeping them on my property until further notice. I'm about to be lush, baby 🌾
baratheonpilled
romaincrisis
annaxmalina
janainaart
blakekathryn
discoholicmusic
yousharknotpass
kianamaiart
kaledo-art
