August 6 2013
Today I got to do long waited ambulance ride. I have always wanted to do one but I don't know I just got lazy. But I guess I feel like I don't belong cause I know the emts were confused on who was going to take me on. the two emts I'm with are great! they are really trying to put to me the front of the action. also it's helpfully because I realized I don't remember much of what I have learned and how tense I get in emergence situations. I wanted to do emergency medicine my entire life and now I'm confused because maybe this isn't for me or I'm just too tensed up for this. meh, I'm so confused. I wish I could figure out my life.











