in a land of myth and a time of magic

I am Emrys. I am the last of the dragonlords. I am a physician in training. Mostly, I am Arthur's friend and servant— —and I'll be until the day I die. indie BBC Merlin rp account

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“I know you’re angry, but you need to trust me and let me help you.”

“TRUST YOU?”

arthur looked at his manservant, rage overcoming his features, “the last time i trusted you, you let me down, merlin.”

[magicalneckerchiefs]

The retort gets stuck in his throat, a nearly instinctive ‘prat’ tying itself into knots and forcing him to clench his teeth and look away for a second. But this is bigger than him—it usually is, when it comes to Arthur—and so he takes a deep breath and turns back to look at his King, jaw clenched and shoulders squared. 

He doesn’t know if what’s driving him is determination or frustration, but he figures it works either way. 

“Yes, TRUST ME. Just this once. Afterwards, you can send me straight to the dungeons for all I care. But for now, if you want to get out of this, you NEED ME.”

[magicalneckerchiefs]

should i revamp my blog? should i just power through and try my drafts? idek man

[magicalneckerchiefs]

i haven’t been here in forever and a day but i miss merlin so much and my muse is suddenly back so like for a starter?

[magicalneckerchiefs]

[ so! i’ve got a dis.cord now if anyone feels like adding me! it’s #4337 if you’re interested! ]

[fandomaestheticgilded]

[pauulrudd]

[persephonememes]

𝐌𝐀𝐌𝐌𝐀 𝐌𝐈𝐀! 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐄 𝐖𝐄 𝐆𝐎 𝐀𝐆𝐀𝐈𝐍 𝐒𝐎𝐍𝐆𝐒 /  𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐌𝐏𝐓𝐒.

𝐓𝐡𝐞𝐬𝐞 𝐦𝐚𝐲 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧 𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐜𝐥𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐲 𝐨𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐧𝐠𝐭𝐡 𝐨𝐫 𝐭𝐨 𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐚𝐩𝐩𝐥𝐲 𝐟𝐨𝐫 𝐫𝐨𝐥𝐞𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐲𝐢𝐧𝐠.

𝐖𝐇𝐄𝐍 𝐈 𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐃 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐄𝐀𝐂𝐇𝐄𝐑

❛ Everybody screamed when I kissed the teacher ❜

❛ They had never seen the teacher blush ❜

❛ My whole class went wild ❜

❛ He was trying to explain the laws of geometry ❜

❛ One of these days gonna tell him I dream of him every night ❜

𝐈 𝐖𝐎𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑

❛ This park and these houses, old streets I have walked ❜

❛ Leaving now, is that the right thing? ❜

❛ But who the the hell am I if I don’t even try? ❜

❛ I’m not a coward ❜

❛ Oh no, I’ll be strong ❜

𝐎𝐍𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐔𝐒

❛ They passed me by, all of those great romances ❜

❛ My picture clear, everything seemed so easy ❜

❛ One of us is lonely, one of us is only waiting for a call ❜

❛ Now I’ve changed and I want you to know ❜

𝐖𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐋𝐎𝐎

❛ I have met my destiny in quite a similar way ❜

❛ The history book on the shelf is always repeating itself ❜

❛ Couldn’t escape if I wanted to ❜

❛ I tried to hold you back but you were stronger ❜

❛ And how could I ever refuse I feel like win when I lose ❜

𝐖𝐇𝐘 𝐃𝐈𝐃 𝐈𝐓 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐁𝐄 𝐌𝐄

❛ Someone to lean on, well I understand ❜

❛ Nights can be empty, nights can be cold ❜

❛ I couldn’t help it, it had to be you and I ❜

❛ I only wanted a little love affair ❜

❛ Now I can see you are beginning to care ❜

❛ But baby, believe me it’s better to forget me ❜

𝐈 𝐇𝐀𝐕𝐄 𝐀 𝐃𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐌

❛ You can take the future even if you fail ❜

❛ I believe in angels something good in everything I see ❜

❛ I have a dream, a fantasy to help me through reality ❜

❛ And my destination makes it worth the while ❜

𝐊𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐄𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐄

❛ Now there’s nothing at all that can keep us apart ❜

❛ Things that you do, and you know I’m crazy ‘bout you ❜

❛ I’m at the point of no returning ❜

❛ Caught in a land-slide of emotions ❜

❛ When you sleep by my side I feel safe ❜

❛ Still it’s making me scared that my love is so strong ❜

❛ Losing you is a nightmare fate and to me ❜

𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄, 𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄

❛ Take it easy with me, please ❜

❛ Go slowly with me now ❜

❛ Tread lightly on my ground ❜

❛ Oh please don’t let me down ❜

❛ There’s a shimmer in your eyes ❜

❛ Please don’t talk ❜

[onelonelygod]

So in case you all haven’t heard, one of Guatemala’s active volcanos erupted last Sunday and it has resulted in thousands of affected people—some sources even say 1.7 million, but I have yet to hear it from any official sources so I’d just say that’s an estimate at best—between those killed, injured, and those whose homes have been destroyed. As you can imagine, any natural disaster hits hard, especially a third world nation like ours, and even the smallest donation helps. 

As I have yet to see any posts regarding this particular situation, I have taken it upon myself to do a quick little thing with a couple of links. I will try to update it if I get some new information, but until then, how can you help?

Here’s a Guatemala Volcano Relief Fund and a list of verified GoFundMe’s you can donate to. 

I’ve heard the Guatemalan consulate in L.A. is receiving donations, but cash deposits are still the fastest way to act.

The Cruz Roja is accepting donations, which are very much needed since the volcano is still active and we are our first responders are short on equipment. The link directs to their tweet, which is in Spanish, but the relevant information gets across perfectly fine, I think. If you do not understand it feel free to message me and I’ll translate or answer any questions. 

Scroll down #VolcánDeFuego in which I’ve seen several people rounding up local donations (food, clothes, medicine, etc.) to send. Even if you do not find one, it’s a good way to get informed. 

I realize not everyone is able to donate, but please reblog this and spread the word. Thank you!

[findsilver]

your skill as a physician is still VALID.

[luciferdecker]

gwencelot + lyrics

“Can’t you please kindly take away the misery?”

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tuliwrites:

An assortment of ‘apartment’ plots I need:

The walls are paper thin and…

The walls are paper thin and I can always hear you having sex and honestly idk if i’m more jealous because i’m not getting any or irritated because it’s keeping me up at night?

The walls are paper thin and you’re always singing in the shower, and honestly you’re terrible but idk how to tell you, so I’ve just started to play music over you but you seem to know every song and it only makes you sing louder??

The walls are paper thin and you just heard the brutal break up of me and my ex, and now you’re trying to comfort me through the walls and it’s kinda awkward but it’s also helping so?

The walls are paper thin and every night I watch jeopardy and I guess you’re really smart because every night you shout out the correct answer and at this point I’m not sure there’s a question you can’t answer?

The walls are paper thin and I hear you having obnoxious parties every night, and I would be mad but at the end of it all I can hear you crying yourself to sleep and i’m actually kind of worried about this lifestyle you’re living?

The walls are paper thin and i’m not even really sure how it started but every night we have conversations about our day over dinner and at this point idk why I haven’t just invited you over? 

You broke into my apartment… (also works the other way around)

You were drunk and you broke into my apartment and I would call the cops but you’re kind of out like a light so I’d kind of feel bad but you bet your ass i’ll be waiting for you to wake up until morning so I can ask who the fuck you are?

You were drunk and you broke into my apartment and when you found out this wasn’t your friend’s apartment you started crying and I really don’t know what to do?

You were drunk and you climbed in through my apartment window and I’m not really sure how you managed it because not only is the fire escape broken but you are really fucking plastered? Please, teach me your skills?

You broke into my apartment to avoid something and you won’t really tell me what it is and i’m actually kind of afraid you might be a murderer so why shouldn’t I call the cops?

You snuck into my apartment to avoid your ex while my door was open for groceries and I got so scared I spilled the milk everywhere?

You broke into my apartment while I was out for whatever reason and when I came home I knocked you out and now you’re unconscious on my floor and idk what to do?

We always see each other in the elevator…

We always see each other in the elevator during our walk of shame and it’s gotten to the point where we just share our escapades now and why haven’t we slept together yet?

We always see each other in the elevator and it’s inanely awkward because we both live on the top floor of this really tall apartment complex and we always ride in silence because the one time I tried talking to you I fucked up REALLY bad.

We always see each other in the elevator and now we’ve gotten stuck because of a power outage so really, I guess we should get to know one another at this point.

We always see each other in the elevator and it’s blatantly obvious you’re terrified of them even if you insist you aren’t.

We always see each other in the elevator and I know it’s you who didn’t hold the elevator the one time I was carrying something really heavy and I swear, I will get my revenge.

[magicalneckerchiefs]

HC: Merlin’s perception of the world as he grows up.

When Merlin was 4, he thought the world was wide and big and consisted entirely of a small town called Ealdor. By the time he turned 7, enough foreigners had walked through to make him understand the world was a bit bigger than that; it had hills and lakes and kings who never visited and thought magic was bad.

At age 12, Merlin thought the world could be as big or as small as it goddamn pleased. All he needed was right there in Ealdor, including his mum and his best friend. The town was big enough for the quiet life he was meant to have, and he was happy with that.

Merlin turned 16 on a cold morning, and stayed home because villagers had seen a patrol nearby the day before. They had destroyed a druid village and taken those who hadn’t been killed hostage. So he stayed home, cried, and distracted himself through the menial tasks of cooking and cleaning. The world was big, there had to be somewhere he could go and be himself, no need to hide his magic. Suddenly, Ealdor was no longer big enough.

The first time Merlin walked into Camelot, he was 18 and desperate for some freedom, some proof that there was more in life than the small village he’d left behind. At 19, he’d walked more paths than he had ever expected, travelled most of Camelot (and ocassionally, a bit further than that) with Arthur by his side. At 20, he realised the world was a lot, lot bigger than he’d originally expected. It was a pleasant surprise.

At 21, Merlin revised his definition of WORLD, and decided that it had blue eyes, a royal title, and was somehow both impossibly big and impossibly small. It didn’t really matter; the world could be as big or as small as it goddamn pleased as long as he could stay by Arthur’s side.

The World died in Merlin’s arms. Merlin was days shy of 27.

By the time he turned 40, he’d decided once again that the world was big and needed him to explore it. When he turned 139, he had lived in two continents and spoke six languages. At 568, he’d had more names than he could count and lost more people than he could properly remember.He had just turned 832 when he realized the world was much, much smaller than he’d originally expected. It was certainly not big enough to run away from the sadness that was still chasing him.

Merlin doesn’t know how old he is. Somewhere around fifteen centuries, he thinks. The Earth is still too small, and the World still hasn’t come back.

Sometimes he wonders if it ever will.

[anneboleyns]

[recaidasretumbantes]

The first rule of trauma club: we dismiss our traumas because someone else has it worse.

[paradoxicalissue]

follow the person i reblogged this from

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TO PEOPLE WRITING HISPANIC / LATINX CHARACTERS:

not everyone goes by latinx. there is a big movement now because spanish is a gendered language that many people identify as latinx, not all of us do. some of us are completely okay saying latina or latino. it doesn’t make anyone better or worse, it’s a preference.

know the difference between hispanic and latinx. they are not interchangeable and many people ( myself included and i’m puerto rican ) prefer to be called hispanic. if you don’t know the difference, google is your friend.

stop fetishing us. we are people. this isn’t like being into roleplay, we are a people. we have a culture an identity and turning characters / people into the lowest common denominator of a specified group contributes to a culture where la migra porn is a thing. it’s disgusting. STOP.

STOP SEXUALIZING US. this goes with the above but honestly, this is the worst thing i’ve seen. women come in all shapes and sizes. not all hispanic / latinx women are that hourglass shape. 

not all of us have big boobs or a big ass. some of us are thick minus that shape and are called gorda / gordita. there’s a culture that makes women that are on the bigger side but don’t have this hourglass shape to exercise more or are told that they need to put down the fork. placed in a culture that wants their women thick but not like that. 

THE FLIP SIDE, some of us are very skinny. some of are called flaca. are constantly told that we don’t look like we’re hispanic / latinx because ‘ aren’t you supposed to have curves ? ‘ some of us are told to eat more because we’re ‘ letting our people down ‘ simply by walking around with no curves.

if your muse is skinny and hispanic / latinx: EMBRACE IT. if you muse is thick but not that curvy shape that’s stereotypical, EMBRACE IT. stop having body claims that are disproportionate / are completely different than your muse because they have to look like that because of x, y, z.

not everyone speaks spanish fluently. some people speak spanish as their second language. some as their first. some learned both at the same time. and some learned spanish in high school as a requirement and otherwise know little to nothing at all. all of these are okay. it’s not whitewashing to have a character disconnected from their culture because their parents / whoever raised them chose not to teach them this skill. it’s something that happens. it’s realistic.

spanglish is a thing but not the way you’re thinking. people that don’t speak spanish fluently / know enough but not all don’t just go: today i’m going to la tienda. that’s not how it works. sometimes we’re speaking spanish fluently and we have a brain fart and might go, ‘ uh… store ‘ momentarily forgetting that word in spanish. sometimes we’re speaking english and then we get pissed and that’s when we go from english to a whole lotta shit you might not understand but we do. spanglish is not half a sentence in spanish and half in english. 

stop contributing to stereotypes. not everyone is named maria with a last name like lopez. there are plenty of people with white people names. just like maria is a hispanic / latinx name, so can nicole. if the person holding that name is of that ethnicity, it’s not a white person name anymore. you can have first generation people with parents that are capable of handling their everyday lives without their ‘ translator ‘. you can have families not super close-knit. they can have small families. they can have big. they could grow up poor. they could grow up well off. all of these things are not far-fetched or unrealistic. they are reality.

STOP WHITE WASHING. this can be a whole post of it’s own but just… stop. you like that faded aesthetic, cool. you can get that aesthetic without turning your muse white. just like that actor / model / etc. takes faded pics on their phone and it doesn’t stop them from having their skin color, you can work your ass in photoshop the same way.

NOT ALL OF US ARE BROWN. some of us are black. some of us are white and burn in the sun. some of us are brown. some of us have blonde hair and blue eyes. some have red hair and freckles. some of us have thick, coarse hair. some have fine, thin hair. some of us have short, tight curls. we don’t all look like george lopez or america ferrera. 

            honestly, i’m just tired of seeing these things in the rp world. people that want to rp someone else’s culture but take a look at a buzzfeed clip for two seconds and say nailed it ! and no, not everyone is like this. not everyone contributes to this culture of stereotypes / lack of research on a culture they’re writing      but enough do. so please, if you’re writing a character of hispanic / latinx decent, do some research. google. ask your friends ( real life, on here ) that are of that decent. you can learn some slang, some things that maybe aren’t on google. no one on this website really bites, especially if you’re trying to correctly portray their ethnicity. so just please make sure you’re not contributing to some of these things and write your lovely character !

[merlin-gifs]

Don’t worry. Your secret’s safe with me.