Edward's Silence

My heart's desire is enlightenment.

[underground-hip-hop-affiliated]

[mountain-sage]

[maha-mauna]

You may wonder how you can be at peace when, while you are in time, there is so much that must be done before the way to peace is open. ²Perhaps this seems impossible to you. ³But ask yourself if it is possible that God would have a plan for your salvation that does not work. ⁴Once you accept His plan as the one function that you would fulfill, there will be nothing else the Holy Spirit will not arrange for you without your effort. ⁵He will go before you making straight your path, and leaving in your way no stones to trip on, and no obstacles to bar your way. ⁶Nothing you need will be denied you. ⁷Not one seeming difficulty but will melt away before you reach it. ⁸You need take thought for nothing, careless of everything except the only purpose that you would fulfill. ⁹As that was given you, so will its fulfillment be. ¹⁰God’s guarantee will hold against all obstacles, for it rests on certainty and not contingency. ¹¹It rests on _you._ ¹²And what can be more certain than a Son of God? (https://acim.org/acim/en/s/245#8:1-12 | T-20.IV.8:1-12)

Ok so where the fuck is this? Where is his plan? I must work to survive and that work is destroying my sanity. I can’t awaken while in it, so where is this promise? Am I a joke to him? He has to take care of 1 man out of billions and can’t even do that? He’s unable to send me a million just so I could be free? What sort of father is this, who forces me to be a slave without any freedom. All things are working together for good and planned by him? So thank you, God, for planning this hell for me, you are great.

[maha-mauna]

I need money for Maha Samadhi - God, wtf?! +Girls

Peaky Blinders shows beautifully how a woman can come into your life and sneakily fuck it up. I need to be careful. Some of the worst decisions in life came from me just wanting sex and romance. If I could just cut it off - this whole thing - with women - everything would be easier and less fuckups in life. And I am almost here. I wonder if life/god/ whoever the fucks is planning all of this will ever give me a million so I could peacefully reach Maha Samadhi. Or do I first have to give everything up and only then will I be blessed? That does make sense - if you want to get a gift from life - you first have to fall deep into those heavenly states, from which the blessing can spring from. I doubt that I will be blessed without this. I asked for God to give me money and he does nothing.. I told him I will live a perfect life dedicated only to awakening and I doubt he will do anything about it..

[maha-mauna]

Ken Wapnick says yes, total letting go of everything is the final step, but if you are still insane and don’t see how horrible this place is - that’s fine, don’t fight yourself - it won’t help, you’re just not ready - you are still insane - you don’t see what’s happening here. This is a place where thristy and evil creatures come to die.

And even that’s not the end - I know life is hell and I hate it - I try to let it go, and still, I can’t. I’m addicted to this dream. It’s a drug that gives you pleasure and when you drop it there are withdrawl symptoms. You are left with nothing - no more pleasure, the good part of the dream that made you distracted is gone, so now only the realization of hell remains and Presence, which isn’t enough to live on when you have to be a slave to barwly survive.

If I had money - I would leave everything, buy a small apartment next to the sea and meditate all day until I awaken. But even that isn’t given to me by Spirit. I asked nicely - I am not taken care of. Life is hell and even the escape isn’t taken care of.

[maha-mauna]

Some teachers say you shouldn’t judge others or the world. You should see only light and beauty in all. What bullshit. That’s why they aren’t awake. You must judge everything correctly, it just turns out that everything here is utterly horrible - so judgement will always ne negative. Sure there’s a danger of getting stuck in that negative state, but for most people - they need that state to motivate them to awaken and to show them what is happening here. And it’s not just a reflection of you. I spend days and nights meditating and at peace and I still meet people and those people who are horrible - insane - psychotic. So that’s disproven - this idea that you always meet yourself. No one wants to look at the horrible state of this world - how bad all the people are and will always be. The only way out is to stop playing this game alltogether, by being still and dissolving this dream forever.

[maha-mauna]

Some people say that life is not so bad because it’s just a dream. Not true. This dream is as good as reality to you. You experience the pain and the misery it causes. Sure, there’s no one behind the eyes of others, but for you - it’s real. If you have to work 10 hours per day and you get extremely tired and feel barely alive - to you that’s perfectly real. The fact that it’s a dream doesn’t change the suffering. Those people will not awaken if they maintaing this attitude - how can you let go of this world if you cover up the horror part of it? That’s what Ken says about awakening - when you clearly see the consequence of choosing the ego - that’s when you will be able to choose differently. And to see the consequences you have to look at your experience and be honest - I am miserable. Even though this is a dream - I am not taken care of, I am a slave, no one loves me, people are stupid, and there’s no chance of anything changing. Now from this perspective it’s possible to awaken.

[maha-mauna]

How to escape this hell

How does the devil keep you entangled in his hell? With pleasure. Pleasure is addictive and it completely removes your attention from God. I am not talking religion or theology. God is Silence. God is not in this earth. To see God this earth has to be destroyed.

This universe of form was created by the devil. You will stay in this hell as long as you keep playing with it, touching it, looking at it. These things identify you with the mind, and the identity with the mind is what is keeping all of this afloat. If the mind is destroyed - this hell will go with it. No one is doing this, because this is the highest level of spirituality and the end of all worlds. At the lowest levels, people believe in manifestation and teach it, because that's the only way manifestation works - it's a pyramid scheme for spiritual dummies. The only people for whom the law of attraction works is those who sell courses on it. Isn't it funny that tens of thousands of people create videos and offer consultations on manifestation? If you would be ultra rich, because you got a lot of money from your manifestation, would you bother teaching others for 100 bucks per hour? No. So manifestation is the promise of the devil that you are a God. While in truth, you are nothing in this earth and you have no control here. You are a slave. You MUST work or else you WILL die. No one is taking care of you here. There is no God here. If you stop taking care of yourself you will die quickly. The only way out of this hell is by clearly seeing what it is. You have to engulf yourself in the realization that you are in hell. It has to be visceral. It's painful. No one awakens because no one wants to accept that they are in hell. They distract themselves as much as they can just to avoid looking at what this is. And how will you escape from hell, if you are not aware that you are in one? How will you drop everything, if you think that there is still hope that this world is good? No. This is hell. A piece of shit place. Everyone here sucks, no one loves, there's no one taking care of you and you barely survive, even though you are slaving away most of your time. You have never had any true friends - they are merely ego's and ego's do not have the ability to love. I can no longer be around people voluntarily - I see who they are too clearly. I do still spend time around them, because otherwise, I will die. I need money. What a horrible place to be in. Luckily, I know a way out. I know how to get enlightened and awaken. Not so luckily, to awaken, you have to have your finances taken care of - because you need free time to dis-identify from the mind. You can get enlightened whilst working a job. Now, I know that God doesn't take care of me - but he must give me money in the dream or give me a situation at the workplace where I can spend my days in stillness - otherwise I can't escape. And that much, at least, he has to do. If he doesn't - well, then there is no escape. I am stuck in hell forever. The Devil won and I lost. I am an eternal slave. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZWQ0lojCQmU&ab_channel=Zevia

[maha-mauna]

This life is hell. There’s good and bad, but the good is only seemingly good, since it’s compared to terrible suffering. Even the good times here are nothing to be written about, generally it’s just pleasure without bad shit happening, at least for a while. We have to slave away just to be paid enough money to live a life of moderate comfort. People on this planet are stupid and evil, and the good ones are only pretending. Earth is a hell domain, and there is no better place to go in this universe of form. The only way out is to escape this terrible game alltogether. Suicide doesn’t work, since you just reincarnate. But there is a way out - a way to destroy this universe and all the people within it. This life is a dream and to awaken, we must let go of the dream completly and utterly. It’s not a theory - I’ve tried it and the dream began to dissolve, if I dedicated myself totally to Silence. It requires absolute wisdom - perfect clarity - to see that nothing here will ever work, and manifestation teachers are the devil disguised in spiritual clothing, promising to create a paradise on earth, but in truth, keeping people imprisioned in their hellish domain which they rule. During my whole life, nothing good has ever happened in this planet. The only true good I have experienced was when I left this hell and got back to Heaven. But here - people suck, this body is a terrible machine to be imprisioned in, with it’s aches and pains and the constant need for maintenence, you have to be a slave to earn your daily bread, no one takes care of you, they only want to abuse you and steal your money. This is hell, disguised as earth. And some spiritual teachers say that this is the will of God. Lol. God has nothing to do with this hell. The only thing that is keeping me here are my foolish choice for pleasure and entertainment. No more. From now on I am on a quest to destroy this whole universe and all the people within it by awakening from the dream.

[maha-mauna]

[maha-mauna]

[maha-mauna]

“Who is called a friend? He who makes you turn your mind towards the Beloved, he is your best friend. But a person who diverts your thoughts away from Him and tempts you to progress in the direction of death, he is an enemy, not a friend. Try to correct yourself. The man who makes no effort to improve himself is in fact committing suicide.”

~ Anandamayi Ma