ᵁᴺ[𝖧𝖮𝖫𝖸] 𝐿𝐼𝐺𝐻𝑇.

𝑖 𝑠𝑒𝑒 𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑝 𝑐𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑖𝑛𝑔. 𝐢 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢 𝐚𝐦.

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the true nature of alia atreides — abomination, goddess, victim of history — may never entirely be known. the possibility exists, too, that she had no one distinct nature, and that saint alia was capable of encompassing each of the contradictory personalities with which she has been credited.

private + highly - selective writing blog for 𝑎𝑙𝑖𝑎 𝑎𝑡𝑟𝑒𝑖𝑑𝑒𝑠 of frank herbert’s ɗuƞe chronicles.  *strictly book & hc based, mostly canon compliant.  please note that potentially triggering material will be present here, including discussions of addiction, overdose, psychosis, and suicide. 

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[markantonys]

La Dama Velata | 1x07

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slayyyter WGIA is such an alia album

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literally listening to this album on repeat getting so much inspiration for modern verse party girl alia the nightmare heir to the atreides industrial/chemical/weapons dynasty

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slayyyter WGIA is such an alia album

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alia/irulan

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she’s everything to me actually

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ohhhh another plot i would Love is alia spending an extended amount of time in another kingdom at the behest of her brother (because alia is, of course, paul’s greatest weapon) under the premise of fostering allyship but she is definitely there plotting and scheming and gathering information. very much “alia atreides is in your walls” type of thing. this is kinda sorta loosely what my asoiaf verse is but it could apply to any general fantasy/scifi au in which the atreides don’t rule The Entire Universe.

[notmorbid]

the apology.

dialogue prompts from the apology by jimin han.

i'm sick to death of the world.

is it always going to be like this? something worse around the corner?

people have always been terrible.

save what you can. save who you can.

i don't want anyone to see me like this.

all that i did, i did to save us.

we become attached to who we think we are.

you're tougher than you appear.

as usual, you've talked me out of my bad mood.

i'm terrible. you shouldn't talk to me.

why are you helping me?

you remind me of someone.

what should i read next?

i'm your _____. it's my responsibility to be honest.

you were never ordinary.

you're the last person i want to see at eight in the morning.

is there anything to drink here?

you look healthier than people half your age.

there has to be more to life than waiting.

it's nothing i'm embarrassed about.

why did you keep so many secrets?

people listen to you more than you think.

you were only trying to be helpful. don't apologize.

what's the matter with you, anyway?

love isn't worth the anguish.

of course i'm here. where else would i be?

caution is the secret to a long life.

you've got a good heart. don't let people take advantage.

i don't want you to put your life on hold for me.

we have to live our own lives.

i'm not going to be around forever.

i'm not going. you can't make me.

i'm sorry, i don't speak _______.

at my age, every story is a long one.

desperation can lead us all over the cliff.

i know it's you. come out.

you're always putting up walls.

true, you failed. but that doesn't mean you're finished.

look back, but go forward.

is this what you want to do with the time you have left?

i refuse to believe you've changed that much.

you think you know everything about me.

you've never loved anyone. you aren't even capable of it.

you've been nothing but ____ to me. why should i trust you?

are you feeling sorry for yourself?

i tried to love _____. i did.

you can't change the way you feel. you can only change the way you act.

children can be terribly cruel to their parents.

we're not so different, you and i.

what can i do? how can i help?

stay yourself. don't give up who you are.

how do you have the strength to be so patient?

i made up those rumors. i'm sorry.

ignorance cannot be your defense or shelter.

you're just as pushy as my mother.

you know me better than that.

if i could hug you right now, i would knock you over.

we all did the best we could.

who cares how i know? i just know.

we have that in common, you and me. we haven't been lucky with our families.

i had to be the best so ______ looked good.

i know you've been sad lately.

____ has never been a good color for me.

can you try to be open? for me?

_____ seemed happier without me.

this anger will kill you.

you're not responsible. don't think that way.

don't give up. not now.

you don't listen. you got too close.

go ahead. be angry at me.

you don't want to be like me.

i do forgive myself. i did the best i could.

don't choose fury over love.

it's going to be okay. do you hear me?

i never get tired of looking at the moon.

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a couple of years ago i commissioned my beloved mia for the coolest ever portrait of alia

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dynamics i want…

political marriage (inevitably very tragic)

advisors during alia’s regency (can be actually loyal or can be like secretly plotting against her)(she will know if you are secretly plotting against her but she might even find that charming in some way)(she might also have you executed who knows)

members of alia’s priesthood (must be religiously devoted to her above all else)

members of alia’s guard (similarly to the priesthood these are the MOST trusted and the most tested due to that)

any rival-type because alia finds people that challenge her interesting and likes to pick their brains

maybe a friend or two. she is so hard to be friends with LMAO

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here i go again

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“My mirror, Mother, my mirror. No, I want no part of you. I reject my heredity.”

Let us suffer together once more. I wish I had never been that thing, a fetus. Always present, awake inside you. It was inside your belly that I lived your shame in those days, your sorrows. You sometimes say I hate you. Love has innumerable names. You live in me as I lived in you then.

Violette Leduc, La Bâtarde

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trying to think of modern verse atreides…in the past i played w the idea of them being a big pharma dynasty like the sackler family but i think it makes more sense if they are like. more sinisterly involved in all levels of chemical and weapons production alongside governmental control in the image of the du pont family

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she felt that she had become two people. one looked upon these fleshly contortions with astonishment. the other sought submission to an enormous pain spreading in her chest. the tears flowed freely from her eyes now, and the Astonished One within her demanded querulously: “who cries? who is it that cries? who is crying now?”

𝑡𝘩𝑒 𝑡𝑟𝑎𝑔𝑒𝑑𝑦 𝑜𝑓 𝖆𝖑𝖎𝖆 𝖆𝖙𝖗𝖊𝖎𝖉𝖊𝖘, as told by layilil.

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not to already be Like That but anya describing alia as having “absolute prescience” is very much incorrect lol alia DOES NOT have absolute prescience and that is kinda part of her whole deal. she overdoses more and more on spice chasing absolute prescience but it always evades her. the future(s) she sees are half hidden from her. she can see the shape of things but it is never absolute and it drives her insane

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just started reading la bâtarde by violette leduc and already i am struck by the image of alia (this is from the foreword):

“The Other was embodied in the mother with the eyes of steel. Crushed by this woman, the child attempted to annihilate herself completely. […] From then on, she was afraid of all human consciousness because it had the power to turn her into a monster; of the presence of all human beings, because they might all dissolve into absence. She huddled down inside herself. Driven by the deceit practiced upon her, by her anguish, by her bitterness, she chose narcissism, egocentricity, loneliness.”