mairieux

tumblr’s most pathetic attentionwhore

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Intro.

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hi im mairieux this is my vent sideblog

17, they/them

19+ dni

hypersexual workaholic loser freak

dm to be moots cause I follow from my main

disclaimer: i am 100% pro recovery. please do not interact with my blog to your own detriment. this is not a recovery account, I talk pretty openly about si, sh, hypersexuality, etc. I love you & pls take care of your self.

taggies

#🌒.work: progress / plans

#🌒.vent: venting

#🌒.rambles: misc/rambling

#🌒.reblog: self explanatory

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anorexic being brought to tears by bacon cheeseburger mukbang

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uh do I still have to respect my elders if said elders are trying to make me even more anorexic

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AUGHH I HATE MY SOFT BELLY 🫩🫩🫩🫩

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im sorry but people on here romanticizing depression and ED pisses me off. sorry. i know it’s a coping mechanism, but it’s so annoying to see the thing you despise most about yourself getting dumbed down to an aesthetic photo dump of skinny girls, rice crackers, and messy rooms with pretty filters all over them.

i hate the fact that im “not normal.” i hate how i sometimes can’t even get out of bed and function like a normal person. i hate not being able to take my pants off without seeing my stupid fucking scars. i hate it when my friends get worried about me because im just burdening them more. i hate how i’ll never be able to have sex without them seeing those scars. i hate not being able to eat normal, constantly worrying about my weight, i hate stressing out over a fucking slice of cake. it’s not aesthetic. its embarrassing and i hate it so much.

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im lowkey kinda glad i have strict abusive parents that make me constantly live in fear because that’s the ONLY reason why i haven’t developed some sort of substance abuse disorder. because wdym im 17 and you still go through my stuff, and walk into the bathroom while im showering, and im not allowed to have access to my own bank account.

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hypersexuality got me feeling like ice spice dissociating mid twerk like bro i gotta be worth more than this

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relationships are absolutely absurd to me. you don’t have to do anything to be loved?? there’s just someone who’s just willingly laying next to you every night?? sounds like a scam

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Yall ever schedule a relapse like an appointment

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scrolling thru my own blog from when i was crashing out like damn what was bro yappin about

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Is love even possible for me anymore

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titos vodka i miss youuuuu

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panic attack caused me to sleep at 4am and now im exhausted at work but i feel that HIGH i forgot how amazing it felt pushing yourself to the verge of collapse i GOTTA have a quick workaholic relapse sometime

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harm redux again

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i need attention someone talk to me :p

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im so needy and deprived of attention despite me receiving it everyday, its not enough

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I think I have bpd