INTRO
call me either mackerel or light. I don't have a preference.
I go by he/him primarily. though I sometimes go by they/them.
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Jules of Nature

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Sade Olutola
The Stonewall Inn

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"I'm Dorothy Gale from Kansas"
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One Nice Bug Per Day
Cosmic Funnies
Xuebing Du

shark vs the universe
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occasionally subtle

izzy's playlists!
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EXPECTATIONS
cherry valley forever
The Bowery Presents
seen from Brazil

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@makebelievegod
INTRO
call me either mackerel or light. I don't have a preference.
I go by he/him primarily. though I sometimes go by they/them.
I hate the fact whenever I get attention in this godforsaken community I panic and avoid it like the plague like I want attention I love attention but whenever i get it it's so overwhelming and I don't know how to deal with it.
if anyone has any tips I'd gladly take them
ttenss and 'name'
hello jiraiblr.. I have been gone, doing extensive research. This post contains my evidence on ttenss and a bit about name; I have narrowed it down, hoping to solve their identities.
how did I possibly get this information? how did I follow along, gaining trust? it was quite simple infact, I had someone on the inside.
I had an assistant go undercover, someone you may have known as @kagamine-len-jirai. First I planned and developed a personality and goal for this role; A somewhat smug, slightly arrogant, but with morals and seeming to not have a care in the world jiraiblr hater.
We had to make it convincing without actually targeting any jirais specifically or setting someone off. For this role they had to put an ttenss userbox on my intro, to try to slowly play into ttenss's trust.
We played it off as an opinion blog, posting mild opinions and developing the theme of what I considered a good or bad jirai.
they did play into the act by interacting with the hater community, they worked more on being undercover and interacting while I carefully planned out our moves of taking small steps to get any possible hints.
I had already seen ttenss admit in a post about having a main blog, saying he was scared of someone/anyone finding his main.
so all I had to do was wait for him to slip up. That is when I saw it, a mutual on my undercover blog commenting about ttenss reminding them of a mutual. they took it to the dms, so I played into this role too.
commenting about how they also reminded me of a mutual but I was a bit vague on purpose, taking it to the dms as well. I told them they reminded me of a mutual, I used one of my mutuals as an example, @fangz2sweet with loose evidence. They said no, but this is where they had slipped up.
no, but someone already guessed my main blog.
this could be anyone, but the evidence was sitting right there, the person who commented had the highest chance of guessing who ttenss was. I tried to squeeze a bit more information out, but ending the conversation, I decided not to push and raise suspicion.
unfortunately, the comment I had seen I was unable to retrieve due to ttenss deactivating. Unless I can find a reblog of the post, I cannot provide the evidence of the comment. I do remember it was another jirai hater, I believe they went by ghost or something similar, they did not have a vocaloid theme.
I believe that ttenss was affiliated with internetsavi0r at some point, seeming to have a personal grudge against them. I looked through internetsavi0r's blog but I was unable to find anything linking them together.
This most likely means ttenss was an anon or internetsavi0r impacted him, most likely indirectly.
I don't care for his opinion, need not disturb the dead. A small detail is it seems the teto blog also agrees along with the ghost blog. (under the ghost user you can see reblogged from bird-brain-teto)
This is more than meets the eye, the way he said it most likely assumes he is fed up. possibly with all the attention internetsavi0r got? or perhaps someone he knew took part in the situation? maybe even he did himself? someone keeps talking about it to him? there are many possibilities.
I did notice he seemed to stalk posts that mentioned him in it, often commenting fairly quickly. so perhaps it was the attention? we can't know for sure.
providing more evidence here, name tagged and posted about internetsavior, insulting multiple (assuming they are harmed or dead) people. While I cannot vouch for anyone else among the list of tags, based on the internetsavior one, name has provided a bigger chance of my theory of multiple haters being impacted by internetsavior or sharing the same hatred or something alike.
a small detail though possibly important, name does feed off of attention. This was proven by a few posts when ttenss got a userbox, they posted about starting it but not getting a userbox.
a small detail, but it seems on their most recent account that they watch musicals, or have heard the audio as the lyrics are placed in the desc.
this may aid some in narrowing down one of their identities, this post is not perfect but hopefully providing some assistance to those who may recognize one as someone they know.
I cannot confirm any of my theories are true at this time, only speculation. please do not target nor attack anyone mentioned in this post based on a theory.
wth this is cool as shit
I'll shoot myself if you wanted me to just ask.
fuck my life fuck my life fuck my life.
here to say again, that having specific disorders or symptoms, or not having them, does not make you less of a jirai.
having a lack of empathy does not making you less of a jirai
not having bpd doesn’t make you less of a jirai
being passive doesn’t make you less of a jirai
having aspd or npd doesn’t make you less of a jirai
being cluster a or c doesn’t make you less of a jirai
you are jirai if you explode and are mentally ill. this looks different for everyone else. it could be private or public, internal or external. all of you are valid.
Daily affirmation
theres no one in my room
theres no one behind me when I'm walking
no one in watching me rn
I don't know what to post dude
FYI I'll be moots with basically anyone. (so basically if I dont have you blocked we can be moots)
what if you're all trying to secretly kill me
I miss my dearest.
I had this dream
that I am hitting my dad with a baseball bat.
and
he is screaming and crying for help.
and
maybe half way through -
it has more to do
with me killing him
than it ever was protecting myself.
er I found a small thing of ramen. Not really like the best "wow im so full" but like it's better than starving for the rest of the day.
Can my neighbor's dog shut up you've been barking for 8 minutes straight. It's the most annoying chihuahua on planet earth too.
no matter how much I scream bloody murder because we have no food it isn't gonna fix anything fuck my fucking life
im really hungry but I don't have any food. Like at all. and I can't go out and buy food fuck this stupid house everyone here is so selfish.
I want to stranglulate them but the worst I'll do is like rub all the forks and spoons and knifes on the floor and put them back without cleaning them because if I were to kill them I'd go to prison.
my dearest did something nice for me today
I am feeling quite happy
do you like reeses pieces? :3
I like them, even though im allergic.