I’ve been needing to write this for so long as my Facebook Instagram & Twitter are my business profiles so that’s a negativity free zone. So here it is, my journey & battle with depression and anxiety…
So today I’ve been hit by a massive body weight stronger than normal & I feel like I’ve been hit by a train & its knocked me for 6 & all I want to do is stay in bed all day & just glue myself into my iPad & my Younique business, but that’s not why I joined Younique…
I didn’t join Younique as a mental block, as something to do when times got rough or as something to kill time, I done it to make a change in my life & other people’s. It was first about the extra income then the more I learned about the Younique foundation I got more & more heart felt into the business, anyway enough about Younique I tend to lose track of what I say when I mention Younique, sorry guys! 🙈
Okay, so today is really really important. It can either completely screw me over financially or make me the happiest I’ve ever been. The current job I’m in now isn’t for the faint hearted or for the weak minded, you have to be strong everyday mentally & physically & always prepare for the worst & hope for the best, that’s how o started off with this job anyway. I only started in January but overtime it has broke me down, emotion by emotion & strength by strength….
I’m a tough cookie, I’ve been through a lot worst in my personal life & ive always ALWAYS kept personal & work life separate, until I became a support worker for young people. I sit with a notepad and a pen by my bed so when I wake up in the night I can write down if there’s something ive forgotten to do! Prepared? Yes but that isn’t healthy for anyone let alone a 22 year old girl battling depression & recently anxiety too, depression alone is difficult both combined are an absolute bitch!
This is my first proper personal blog write that I’ve actually had the balls to keep published, so what am I going to do today? Can I even brave going to work & speaking to someone high up in a return to work interview with my list of 24 complains/concerns. Or do I stay in bed all day not changing anything,
IM GOING TO GO TO WORK! I need to kick some ass otherwise they will never know how I’m truly feeling, depression has always been hidden when it comes to my career but today, that’s all going to change.