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Baby, That's Mine - Yang Jungwon
PART I
୨ৎ Summary : Two people. One bar. One really, really bad night to be alone. Y/n just caught her fiancé of two years in bed with her best friend. Jungwon just found out his girlfriend of six years has been cheating for god knows how long. Neither of them planned on ending up in a hotel room with a stranger — they just both really, really didn't want to be alone that night. No names. No numbers. Just two broken people borrowing comfort from each other for one night, then going their separate ways like it never happened. Except a month later, y/n's staring at two pink lines on a bathroom floor, and there's only one person it could possibly be. She makes her choice fast, she's keeping the baby, and she's doing it alone. no ring, no husband, no one's permission required. So she books her first prenatal appointment at some random clinic near campus, ready to start this chapter solo like she planned—and her doctor walks in. It's him. Yang Jungwon.
୨ৎ Pairing : obgyn! Jungwon x college lecturer! reader
୨ৎ Wordcount : 6,5k
୨ৎ Warning : aged-up Jungwon (he's 28 here), stranger to.... (still figuring out), one night stand, unprotected sex, cheating (not Jungwon or y/n), unprotected sex (BIG NO NO, PLEASE WRAP YOUR WILLY), pregnancy.
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pairing✧˖°. clingy!sunoo x reader
synopsis✧˖°. while in australia, enhypen finishes their "eat sleep en dive" but still have fun together after cameras are off. after some teasing sunoo gets a little too drunk and clings to you like theres no tomorow.
contains✧˖°. seventh member reader (heeseung isnt mentioned due to not being apart of the eat sleep en dive in australia im sorry!) ; wc: 2.2k ; fluff ; kisses ; slight confession? ; drinking ; drunk!sunoo
note ✧˖°. i tried my best to base it off of the actual video + picture!! im really scared to publish this, im gonna be fully honest. this is my first time like layouting everything (i even figured out how to gradient text!) i really hope you enjoy this! pls any critism will always be welcome because itll help me become a better writer. if you like my writing style and would like to see something, send me some kind of ask!! i took insperation from @hoonztruck so thank you thank you!! OKAY FIRST FIC LETS GO!!! please enjoy!
𝐭𝐨𝐱𝐢𝐜 𝐢𝐝𝐨𝐥 𝐡𝐞𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐮𝐧𝐠
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𝘠𝘰𝘶 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘏𝘦𝘦𝘴𝘦𝘶𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘣𝘰𝘵𝘩 𝘪𝘥𝘰𝘭𝘴 𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘬-𝘱𝘰𝘱 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥
𝘣𝘶𝘵 𝘩𝘦’𝘴 𝘢 𝘮𝘢𝘫𝘰𝘳 𝘥𝘪𝘤𝘬 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘶𝘴𝘦𝘴 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘴𝘦𝘹. 𝘞𝘩𝘢𝘵
𝘩𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘯𝘴 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘸𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘱𝘶𝘵 𝘶𝘱 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘺𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦?
ps: it’s my birthday so consider this post a gift from me to you so we all can celebrate!
Seven months.
That was the amount of time you hadn’t spoken to Heeseung. That was the exact amount of time it took for the internet’s collective amnesia to kick in, for the death threats in your request folders to morph into praise, and for KATSEYE’s charts to skyrocket into the stratosphere, you guys were bigger than ever.
Paris Fashion Week had been a so much fun with the amazing outfits and the amazing people, the rumors about the Met Gala invitation were turning from whispered industry gossip into concrete email threads in your manager’s inbox, and the group was, by all definition, thriving. You were surviving. More than surviving, but even more you were flawless.
Tonight, sitting in the back of a blacked out van exhausted from promotion of your latest comeback. Silence cutting through the soaked rain of Seoul after a late night recording session and rehearsal, the silence inside your custom brand partner ship noise canceling headphones felt heavy. It felt like water filling up a room.
Your thumb hovered over your phone screen. The screen was blank, but the ghost of a notification from three days ago seemed burned into the liquid crystal display.
Just saw the new teaser. You look beautiful.
Y/N. Please tell me you’re eating well.
You didn’t reply. You hadn’t replied in two hundred and ten days.
Cutting it off with Heeseung definitely helped with all the pain and guilt that came with the relationship.
Truth is you didn’t completely avoid him. You still saw him at award shows and brand events. The most recent view of him was at the Prada fashion show since both enhypen and katseye were ambassadors.
Every time you guys would find yourself in the same room, you would try your best to avoid eye contact. Looking at him would mean all the feelings would come flooding back into your memory only leaving you more hurt than you were.
But that wasn’t the case for him. Anytime time he could he would stare daggers into you. Like you were the only person in the room hoping he would get a look back but never did. You would feel it though every time. It’s kind of hard to avoid the feeling of a cold stare especially when you know that cold stare really well.
Your heart still beats for him for sure, but the hate just got better and you’ve gotten everything you’ve ever wanted in life at this point. Getting back with him would change that.
Heeseung loved hard, but he loved like a drowning man, clutching at you so tightly that both of you were dragged beneath the surface.
His texts back then had been a barrage of hyper fixated checking in, fueled by the toxic idol culture that dictated you couldn't be seen within ten feet of another male artist without a scandal breaking the internet. Every time the rumor would randomly spark back up, he retreated into a shell of dark, quiet paranoia, knowing that it would cause you more pain and that was the last thing he wanted.
"We would never be able to work out," you had texted while he was in that cramped, rented apartment basement he used for late-night producing. The air had smelled like old coffee and damp carpet. "I cannot physically put myself through that again” you sent the other text.
He had looked at them with those wide, bloodshot eyes, his fingers dug so deep into his own palms they left crescent marks. "Don’t say that," he replied his hands trembling . "Y/N, please. Don’t say that"
But he couldn't change the world. And you couldn't keep breaking your own bones just to fit into his pocket. So, you left.
Now, the van finally came to a halt outside the complex you shared with the girls. Your phone buzzed in your palm, not a text, just a calendar alert for tomorrow's early morning choreography rehearsal.
Stepping out into the cool Seoul air, the rain pricked your skin. You pulled your baseball cap down lower. Inside the apartment, the living room was quiet, the other girls already asleep after their own grueling schedules. You walked past the mirrors lining the hallway, then find your way to your room for the time being.
You sat on the edge of your bed, the city lights reflecting off the ceiling like water ripples. You pulled up his contact info. You hadn't blocked him, you couldn't bring yourself to do it, a final, pathetic weakness you hated yourself for.
The chat history was a monologue of regret.
(2 weeks ago): I passed by the old convenience store today. They still have those specific peach drinks you liked. I bought two without thinking. I’m sorry.
(1 month ago): The noise doesn’t stop. The only time it was quiet was when I was next to you. I’m so sorry for how I acted. I was terrified of losing you, and I ended up driving the knife in myself.
Your chest tightened, a familiar, dull ache radiating beneath your ribs. You remembered the way his hands used to shake when he was tired, the way he would press his forehead against your shoulder and just breathe you in like you were his only anchor to reality. He was a brilliant, tragic boy trapped in a machine that didn't care about his soul, and you had been his only sanctuary, it was really good, but when it was bad it was really bad.
Memory flood when you think about the times he would call you drunk in another girls bed, or when you couldn’t go to rehearsal dressed a certain way even though you were just around girls, and even when he punched your best friend in the face for being near you which didn’t happen too long ago.
But at this point you couldn't be a savior anymore. You had to save yourself first.
You locked the phone, tossing it onto the mattress, and pulled the covers over your head, trying to drown out the memory of his voice chanting your name like a prayer in the dark.
heeseung pov
The practice room lights were too bright. They always were. They caught every bead of sweat, every mistimed step, every jagged edge of his reflection in the floor-to-ceiling mirrors.
Heeseung sat against the back wall, his knees pulled to his chest, a half-empty bottle of electrolyte drink rolling between his sneakers. Around him, the rest of ENHYPEN was winding down, laughing quietly, gathering their gear to head back to the dorms.
He felt entirely, utterly hollow. Like an empty shell that someone had scrubbed raw.
Seven months without her. Seven months of watching her face on billboards in Times Square, on the screens of luxury boutiques in Gangnam, on every major music chart across the globe. She was magnificent. She was soaring. And every single time he saw her smile in an interview, a cold, heavy stone settled deeper into his stomach: She is happier without you.
He pulled out his phone. His fingers moved on instinct, opening their chat. A sea of blue bubbles on his side, an unreadable wall of silence on hers. He knew he was being pathetic. He knew his texts bordered on harassment, but the desperation inside him was a living, breathing thing that clawed at his throat until he let it out through his thumbs.
I’m losing my mind, Y/N. I don’t care about the music anymore if I can't share it with you. Please just send a single dot. Just let me know you’re alive.
He didn't send it. He erased it, character by character, his chest heaving with a silent, ragged breath. He settled for something simpler, something that wouldn't make him look entirely unhinged, even though he was.
It’s raining here. I hope you’re staying warm.
The dorm was silent by 3:00 AM. Practice had finally finished after ages and Heeseung couldn't sleep; his mind was a hyperactive loop of every cruel word he’d ever said to her, every time his own anxiety had turned into an interrogation, every time he had made his own pressure her problem to bear. He had been toxic. He saw it now with a terrifying, crystal-clear clarity. He had been so consumed by the fear of losing her to the industry that he had suffocated the very life out of her.
He walked out to the small balcony, the cold rain misting over his face.
"You're going to catch a cold, Hyung."
Heeseung didn't turn around. He knew the voice. Jake stood in the doorway, a dark hoodie pulled over his messy hair, holding two mugs of warm tea.
He walked over, leaning his forearms against the railing next to Heeseung.
"You're thinking about her again,aren’t you?" Jake stated, not unkindly. It wasn't a question. Everyone in the group knew. They had watched Heeseung turn into a ghost over the past half-year, his weight dropping, his eyes constantly fixed on a horizon no one else could see. Even the fans noticed.
"I can't breathe here, Jake," Heeseung said, his voice barely a whisper against the wind. His fingers gripped the stone railing until his knuckles turned white. "Every song we sing, every stage we do... it just feels like a reminder of what we both traded away to get here. I traded her and she traded
me.”
Jake sighed, a heavy, sympathetic sound. "You didn't trade her, Heeseung. The situation was impossible. You both were breaking."
"I broke her," Heeseung corrected fiercely, a sudden, raw spike of emotion cutting through his usual lethargy. He turned to Jake, his eyes wide and burning with a terrifying, desperate light. "I’m thinking about leaving."
The silence that followed was deafening. Jake froze, his mug halfway to his mouth. "What did you just say?"
"I’m thinking about leaving the group. Leaving the company. Giving it up." Heeseung’s voice didn't waver now; it was steady with the terrifying calm of a man who had already reached the end of his rope.
"If I’m not an idol, there’s no scandal. There are no cameras following me. No fans threatening her life. I can just go to her. I can knock on her door as a nobody, throw myself at her feet, and beg her to let me just be near her. I don't need the fame, Jake. I need her."
Jake grabbed Heeseung’s shoulder, his grip tight, almost painful. "Are you out of your mind? Heeseung, look at me. You've given your entire life to this. The group needs you. You love the music—"
"I love her more," Heeseung interrupted,
a single tear finally cutting through the grime of sweat and rain on his cheek. His voice cracked, dropping into a deep, groveling plea directed not just at Jake, but at the universe. "I would crawl through broken glass just to hear her say my name without fear in her voice again. I’ll give it all away, Jake. I swear to God, I’ll give it all away if it means she’ll let me love her the right way this time."
Jake looked at his friend, seeing the absolute ruin of a man who had everything the world wanted, but nothing of what he actually needed. He didn't have an answer. He could only hold onto his shoulder as Heeseung buried his face in his hands, finally breaking apart in the quiet, unforgiving dark.
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15 ⟶ 2 HOMOS, 2 BADDIES
.𖥔 ݁ SYNOPSIS . after getting publicly broken up with because of a misspread rumor, you move away to "heal" and "start over". when you come back after months and see your ex and said person—who spread those rumors about you—getting closer each day, you realize maybe you shouldn't have ever come back. and it definitely doesn't help when your ex starts giving you mixed signals about everything.
PAIRING ex!jake x fem!reader FEATURING aespa ningning, riize shotaro, nct haechan, le sserafim yunjin +enhypen
TAGS smau (+written) ; crack ; university au ; lots of miscommunication ; dumbass jake ; cringey moments ; cliche 𝓦 none that I can think of other than suggestive comments?
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15 ⟶ 2 HOMOS, 2 BADDIES
.𖥔 ݁ SYNOPSIS . after getting publicly broken up with because of a misspread rumor, you move away to "heal" and "start over". when you come back after months and see your ex and said person—who spread those rumors about you—getting closer each day, you realize maybe you shouldn't have ever come back. and it definitely doesn't help when your ex starts giving you mixed signals about everything.
PAIRING ex!jake x fem!reader FEATURING aespa ningning, riize shotaro, nct haechan, le sserafim yunjin +enhypen
TAGS smau (+written) ; crack ; university au ; lots of miscommunication ; dumbass jake ; cringey moments ; cliche 𝓦 none that I can think of other than suggestive comments?
masterlist / 01 / 02 / 03 / 04 / 05 / 06 / 07 / 08 / 09 / 10 / 11 / 12 / 13 / 14 / 15
DON’T SHOOT ME! a yang jungwon smau.
chapter four: blame it on the boogie 😂😂😂😂
in which you accidentally let jungwon know he's been cheated on, and instead of killing the messenger he... falls in love with you?
pairing senior center director!jungwon x preschool teacher!fem reader
genre crack, raunchy, neighbors au, angst, fluff
warnings profanity, crude humor, i’m shipmaxxing this entire chapter please, mentions of violence, drug mentions, this is lowkey a filler chap.
note this is 20 screenshots of pure bullshit. this is what i get for making this while delirious… also. the taglist is CLOSED!!! i appreciate the love, but taglist is already so long, and it’s a bit hard for me to keep adding ☹️
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━━ PLEASE JUST TAKE MY SISTER OUT SEQUEL.
(🥐) After Riki Nishimura’s hundred-dollar boyfriend scheme works a little too well, everyone now has to survive the aftermath: family dinner.
bf! jake x fem! reader ˗ˏˋ riki is your younger brother, he's annoying, romcom, highschool au, (kind of) mean reader, patient jake, fluff, just fluff, cute stuff 📌💌 very short ficlet sequel of PLEASE JUST TAKE MY SISTER OUT. anj’s note: i didn’t expect the amount of people to ask for a sequel, im honestly soo happy you guys enjoyed please just take my sister out. i literally did not see it coming at all?!?! i also didnt realize how many people would relate to y/n LMAOOO anyway a few asked the meeting with riki’s girlfriend for the sequel, so here it is! i really enjoyed writing this so i hope you would as well. i might write an actual part 2 because i really do enjoy their dynamic ughh im just not sure how to rn!! ALSO very important, jake and riki is exactly how i picture them age-wise in the photo.
Jake Sim has always been the only person who knew how to hold you without making you feel like something fragile.
He had seen the sharpness, the control, the way your love sometimes came out harsher than your intentions, and it held on through a kind of grip you didn’t know how to adjust. He knew what everyone else called cruel from you was usually just your fear, standing with its arms crossed, pretending not to care. Somehow, he never flinched from the ugly parts. He never tried to smooth you down into someone easier to like, and never prayed for it either — because he liked you the way you are.
Unfortunately, Jake’s personal experience with loving you did not come with a training manual for the general public, to everyone’s unfortunate fate. Other people, tragically, were not Jake Sim.
You were better now, in ways that mattered. Not kinder, exactly, not in the way that made you softer or easier to digest, but more patient and less convinced that every person who entered your life needed to be assessed for specific requirements. Maybe you were a bit classist in the sense that it has nothing to do with class, you didn’t care if someone was rich or poor, actually. You cared if they were stupid, careless, or suspicious.
You had learned how to pause and consider how people would react to you. Sometimes. On good days. With enough effort without giving more than necessary — you’d never give in work for people you couldn’t care less about. Your mouth remains a separate legal entity that needs strict supervision, far greater than your own, wherein Jake actually steps in.
Now, he didn’t have you tethered on a leash, because that would mean he had control over you, and Jake doesn’t believe in fairy tales. He also believed in dismantling the kind of patriarchal system that insisted difficult women only became lovable after a patient man sanded them down into something more socially acceptable. So to say your boyfriend has managed to tame you down and has completely changed you for the better of fitting in social codes! is bullshit and is something that would never happen. That was propaganda. That was something a man with a podcast would say.
It was more of… he had emergency preparedness.
Which was why, by the time you finished preparing food, Jake had already arranged the plates on the dinner table to help you out without getting in your way and letting you do your own thing. Forks on the left, knives on the right, napkins folded neatly beside each plate. He even set out water glasses, juice glasses, and, for some reason, wine glasses.
Riki stares at the table. Then at Jake. “Why are there wine glasses?”
Jake scoffs, like Riki was unreasonable. “For drinks.”
“She’s seventeen. She doesn’t drink wine.”
“I know.”
“So why are there wine glasses?”
Jake picks one up and inspects it like this was a very normal conversation. “For juice.”
Riki blinks. “Juice.”
“You can put juice in a wine glass,” Jake says.
Riki only stares at him for a long second before looking at you, as if expecting you to step in and restore reason to the room. Unfortunately for him, you are too busy adjusting the serving dish in the center of the table, making sure it sits exactly where it should.
“It looks nice,” you say simply.
Riki exhales, defeated. “She’s just coming over for dinner.”
You glance up. “I’m aware.”
Still, you leave the wine glasses where they are.
It is not that you are nervous. At least, that is what you tell yourself while wiping the counter for the third time, checking the food twice, and pretending not to notice Jake quietly moving around the dining area in the way he always does now, helping without getting in your space. He knows better than to take over. He only fills the gaps you leave behind, setting down plates, moving chairs, handing you a towel before you ask for one.
“You’re doing too much,” Riki says finally, watching as you wipe the edge of the counter one last time.
“I made dinner because she’s coming here for the first time.” You glance at him, and for once, there’s no sharpness in it. “I want to put effort,” you say. “She’s important to you, so I’m going to treat her like she is.”
Before anyone can say more, the doorbell rings.
Riki freezes dramatically — shoulders stiffen, his hand goes briefly to his hair, and for one second, he actually looks seventeen with his first love, scared because you’re meeting her. Your expression softens before you can stop it, watching him mumble a few things beneath his breath and reach for the foyer.
You straighten, inhale once, and deliberately relax your face. Your eyebrows loosen first, then your jaw. You try to make your mouth sit neutrally instead of in the natural line that has apparently made several people assume you find their presence uncomfortable. You even relax your cheekbones, which is a ridiculous thing to become aware of, but you do it anyway — only to try and smile anyway.
Jake notices, obviously. He comes to stand beside you, his arm slipping over your shoulders, warm and easy. You glance at him, trying not to ruin your work. “What?”
He presses his lips together, but his eyes are already amused. “Nothing.”
“You’re laughing.”
“I’m not.”
“Are you making fun of me?” You glare at him, but unfortunately, ends up ruining all the work you have just done.
He laughs under his breath and pulls you a little closer, not enough to make a scene, just enough for his thumb to brush once against your shoulder. “No. You just look cute.”
The front door opens, which makes you and Jake both go quiet at the same time, though his arm stays comfortably around your shoulders while you immediately stiffen.
“Relax, okay?” he murmurs, low enough that only you hear him.
“I am relaxed.”
“You’re not.”
“I was,” you whisper back, eyes fixed toward the hallway. “Riki is making me tense. You’re also making me tense.”
His mouth twitches. “He’s nervous.”
“He said it himself, it’s just dinner.”
“I know, baby.”
“You’re not helping.”
“I’m literally holding you.”
“Exactly, now I’m tense again.”
He laughs under his breath, and you glare up at him again, which, unfortunately, ruins your face for the second time. He only looks more amused, his thumb brushing slowly against your upper arm as if trying to smooth the tension out of you by touch alone. From the foyer, you hear Riki’s voice, lower and softer than usual, which makes something inside you pause. He says something you don’t catch, then a girl answers, her voice careful but sweet. There is the quiet sound of shoes being removed, then footsteps moving closer toward the dining room.
Jake’s hand starts moving lightly over your arm, not enough to distract you, just enough to remind you to breathe when he can feel that you’re growing nervous too.
You’re nervous because for the first time since Jake, you care about being liked.
Riki appears in the doorway first, already looking embarrassed before anyone has even done anything. His hand hovers at the small of her back, not fully touching, just guiding her forward like he wants to be careful with her but does not want anyone to notice. That alone makes you want to be nicer immediately, though instinct comes first and you also want to make fun of him.
The girl, neat and pretty, exactly the kind of girl you expected Riki to like. Not loud kind of pretty, or trying too hard to be noticed. Just soft-faced and carefully put together, with her hair tucked behind one ear and both hands holding a small paper bag in front of her. She looks nervous and polite, but not helpless and boring. There is something bright in her expression when she glances at Riki, something that makes his ears go red when he catches it.
He clears his throat. “This is her.” He immediately looks annoyed with himself for a shitty introduction. “I mean, this is my sister.”
The girl smiles at you, a little shy but trying. “Hi. It’s nice to meet you.”
You make sure your face is still behaving before you smile back, lifting your eyebrows and relaxing your eyes. “It’s nice to meet you too.”
“And this is Jake,” he says, already sounding tired before the sentence is even finished. “My friend. Her boyfriend.”
Jake smiles. “Hello.”
For a second, it goes very well.
Riki’s shoulders lower slightly and Jake’s arm loosens around you. Riki and the girl steps further into the dining room and she notices the table, the food, the glasses, the napkins, the ridiculous amount of effort you had pretended was casual even though you really did give more than you would.
“This is really nice,” she says, smiling so wide and bright, then seems to remember the paper bag in her hands. “Oh, I brought something. It’s just pastries. My mom said I shouldn’t come empty-handed.”
“That’s sweet,” you say, already nodding in appreciation.
Then she adds, with a small nervous laugh, “Especially if it’s you.”
What the fuck does that mean?
You pause, though it isn’t a big, dramatic thing. To anyone else, it probably looks like you are simply processing what she said like a normal person. But unfortunately, everyone in the room knows you and knows that you are not doing that. Riki freezes first, because he has lived with you long enough to understand what careless words mean to you, his face going blank.
Then you nod slowly, because the worst part is, you are not even mad. You are curious, deeply curious, academically curious, the kind of curious that has ruined evenings before because you’re an older sister who can’t let things slide.
“Sorry,” you say, still polite. “What does that mean, exactly?”
She looks suddenly unsure. “Oh. Riki just told me you’re a bit unhinged sometimes. So I wanted to put my best foot forward.”
She is smiling, though not plainly rude, she looks like she has said something funny and is waiting for the room to understand it as a joke. Riki seems to understand this too, because he lets out this small, awkward laugh, like he is trying to help her land the joke before you set it on fire. Jake does the same thing, smiling polite and easy, to smooth the room over, but his arm tightens around your shoulders, and he straightens beside you, casual enough that it might pass as posture.
You, however, are not laughing yet. You are looking at her, a little amused, even impressed. Because she is standing in your dining room, holding pastries with both hands, looking sweet and proper, and somehow still had the nerve to call you unhinged to your face before the dinner you made yourself.
Interesting. Very interesting.
You nod once, slowly. “Okay.” then you breathe. “Calling me unhinged five seconds after walking in is —”
Then Jake’s hand covers your mouth.
One second you are speaking, the next his palm is gently but firmly over your mouth, cutting off whatever fire had been lining itself up behind your teeth. The room goes silent, then you slowly turn your eyes up to him. Jake smiles at Riki’s girlfriend like this is normal, like he did not just manually mute you in your own house.
“She thinks you’re funny.”
You make a muffled sound against his hand.
He glances down. “You do.” He keeps his hand there even when you glare at him.
Riki stares at the two of you with a mixture of horror and resignation. “Yeah. They’re like that. Sorry. It’s kind of their dynamic.”
His girlfriend looks between you and Jake, then at Riki, then back at you. For one second, she seems unsure whether she should apologize, laugh, or leave the pastries on the nearest surface and run — which is what most would consider the safest option, but instead, she laughs. It is small at first, but it turns real when she sees the way Riki’s ears have gone completely red and the way Jake is still holding you like a person trying to keep a cat from knocking a glass off the table.
“I’m sorry,” she says, smiling now. “I really meant it as a joke. I just thought of breaking the ice a little.”
Jake slowly lowers his hand, but his arm stays around you just in case. You hate that, you hate being treated like a rabid animal (you are, in this scenario, you really are). You inhale through your nose and fix your expression with as much dignity as possible. “I know. I understand the joke.” but you’re not laughing.
You nod once, polite. “I just think it’s very brave.” Jake’s eyes close for half a second. “It takes a lot of confidence to walk into someone else’s house shamelessly —”
Jake’s hand covers your mouth again, faster this time around. More resigned, like he knew the first intervention had only delayed the inevitable and was now dealing with the consequences of optimism.
You freeze beneath his palm, offended all over again.
Jake smiles at Riki’s girlfriend. “She appreciates your confidence,” he says smoothly. “And the pastries. We’ll eat them for dessert.”
Your eyes narrow, attempting to talk but your words are muffled. He keeps his hand there.
Riki, who looks like he is aging in real time, turns to his girlfriend with a stiff smile. “Let’s just eat. She cooks great food.”
The sudden rushed compliment makes you pause, which works better than Jake’s hand. Your irritation loosens by half an inch, and only then does he slowly remove his hand from your mouth, before placing both his hands over your shoulders and gently steer you toward the kitchen.
The second you reach the kitchen, you whip your head to him and whisper, “She called me unhinged.”
Jake reaches past you for the serving spoon. “Technically, Riki did.”
You stare at him. “And she repeated it. In my house.”
“She was just joking, baby.”
You grab the bowl of pasta from the counter, still whispering because you are civilized, apparently. “And you covered my mouth twice. That was crazy of you.”
He sighs. “I had to.”
“No, you did not have to.”
“You were about to call a seventeen-year-old shameless.”
When you freeze because he did make a point without having to rub it on your face, he then exhales a laugh and takes the heavier dish from you before you can protest, carrying it like he knows you’ll keep arguing better with your hands heavy. “You’re doing fine. Just be careful with her, she’s new.”
You inhale once, slow enough to remind yourself not to speak in weapons, then head back to the dining room with Jake following behind you, dish in hand and looking far too pleased for someone who had just done censoring. Riki and his girlfriend are already seated when you return. She sits neatly with her hands in her lap, taking in the table with careful politeness, while Riki looks like he has not breathed properly since he opened the door.
You smile again, because she’s new and you don’t want to scare her anymore. Jake catches it and has the audacity to look fond. You then sit across from them while Jake sits beside you, close enough for his knee to brush yours under the table, which you pretend not to notice.
For a few moments, dinner begins normally.
Plates are passed around, the wine glasses are filled with juice, as Jake planned. Riki relaxes little by little, especially when his girlfriend compliments the food and you do not immediately ask her for a detailed explanation of what she means by that — even though you want to ask just that. You only say thank you, which makes Jake glance at you like you have just performed a miracle.
Then Riki reaches for the tongs. “What do you want?” he asks her, voice quieter than usual.
She looks at the food, still shy. “Maybe just some of the crab rangoon bread.”
He nods and puts a few on her plate, carefully enough that you have to look down at your own plate to stop yourself from smiling too hard. Because it is sweet, sweeter than the teenage boy had ever been to anyone.
Unfortunately, Jake also notices. Without a word, he reaches for the tong, mimicking Riki’s careful expression so obviously that when you realize, you immediately swat his hand away.
“Stop.”
Jake bites his lip, trying not to smile. “What? I’m just serving you.”
“Stop it.” you hiss before you give him a look, but he only lowers his head and reaches for his glass, still smiling into it like he thinks he is subtle. He is not subtle. He has never been subtle a day in his life when it comes to annoying you.
Across the table, Riki stares at both of you. “Can you two stop?”
Jake, unhelpfully, says nothing, while you sigh and apologize.
Dinner continues after that, though with the fragile peace of something that knows it has survived two near-death experiences already. Riki’s girlfriend eats carefully at first, then relaxes when you ask if she wants more pasta instead of asking for her full academic history. Riki, to his credit, keeps checking on her without making it too obvious, which unfortunately makes it very obvious. Then she looks around the dining room, her eyes moving from the shelves to the framed photos, the organized sideboard, the little dish near the entryway where keys are kept. “I really like your house,” she says. “It feels so put together.”
You glance up from your plate. “Thank you.”
She smiles, encouraged. “Riki said you did most of the organizing.”
You are in the middle of taking a bite of pasta, which means the thought arrives before the social filter does. You chew once, swallow, then ask very casually, “Did he also tell you why I had to?”
Jake nearly chokes on his juice, the liquid gurgling in the cup though not loudly, but enough that his hand immediately goes to his mouth and Riki looks like he has just aged another five years in front of the girl he likes. Under the table, Jake’s hand lands on your thigh so fast it might as well have been an emergency brake.
You look at him and he looks back at you, eyes wide, expression painfully calm. His hand squeezes your thigh once, gentle but firm, because apparently this is what your relationship has become now. Morse code for please be more careful.
Riki’s girlfriend looks between everyone, confused but still polite. “Oh, I mean, he just said you’re really responsible.”
“That’s one word for it,” you say.
Jake’s hand tightens again, which makes you look down at his hand, then back at him. “What?”
He smiles at the table. “Nothing.”
Riki puts his fork down slowly. “Can we not?”
His girlfriend presses her lips together, trying not to smile, and the effort makes you pause. She does not look scared this time, because if anything, she looks like she is starting to understand the rhythm of the room. She’s starting to understand you beyond Riki’s unhinged stories about you, and for the second time, another person doesn’t feel like scurrying away.
That should embarrass you. And it does, at least a little, because you’ve learned social awareness. So you pick up your glass and take a sip, choosing to let the subject die before it grows bones and starts walking around the table. After a second, you say, “Sorry. Thank you. I do most of the organizing.”
Jake’s hand relaxes on your thigh and Riki exhales. His girlfriend smiles, warm and careful. “It’s nice. It feels like someone really takes care of it.”
That lands softer than you expect, and your spine relaxes so profoundly. For once, you do not make a joke out of it. You only nod, looking down at your plate. “I try.”
Jake’s hand stays warm on your thigh for another second before he lets go and reaches for his glass. He looks across the table, eyes moving between Riki and his girlfriend. “So,” he says, lighter now. “Where did you two meet?”
Riki pauses with his fork halfway to his mouth. “School.”
Jake nods slowly. “Wow. Detailed.”
You huff a small laugh before you can stop it, and Jake glances at you, pleased with himself. Riki glares. “What else do you want me to say?”
His girlfriend laughs softly, then looks at Jake. “We got paired for a project.” Her shoulders loosen a little more. “He was really serious about it. I thought he didn’t like me at first.”
Jake turns to you, voice low but not low enough. “He’s your brother.”
You nod solemnly. “Unfortunately, yes.”
His girlfriend smiles wider now, looking more comfortable than she had when she first walked in. “It was cute, actually. mean, he was responsible,” she says. “During the project. He kept checking if I was done with my parts, and he fixed the slides when the file got messed up.”
No one says anything right away, not even Jake who usually teases the shit out of the younger boy. Not because there is nothing to say either, but because Riki looks so embarrassed that teasing him feels too easy, and maybe a little unfair. His ears are red again, his fork held loosely in his hand, his eyes stuck on his plate like looking up might make the compliment worse.
You look at him and feel something quiet pull at your chest.
Responsible and nice.
It is strange hearing someone else say that about him, not because you do not believe it, but because you know him differently. You know the boy who forgets to answer his phone, who leaves his shoes by the door, who argues about curfew every time. You know him as your brother before anything else, the one you have to keep taking care of. But she knows this version too, the one who fixes things, checks on people, and doesn’t freak out when there’s a problem.
You clear your throat and look back at your plate before your face can do anything embarrassing. “That sounds like him.”
When you glance up again, Riki is looking at you. Not shocked exactly, because he is not unused to you caring. His expression shifts, small and unsure, like he does not know what to do with being seen properly by you. Not just as someone you have to worry over, but as someone who could be responsible without you standing over his shoulder. Maybe you have been so busy seeing him as a problem waiting to happen that you forgot he could also be someone else when you were not looking.
Maybe you have been unreasonable, and once the thought settles, you look down at your plate and take another bite before your face can fully betray you.
Jake notices anyway. And so he takes over for you.
He sits back, smiling now. “So, what tricks did he pull out of his ass after the slides? Did he act mysterious? Pretend he doesn’t care?”
His girlfriend laughs, and this time it comes out easier. “A little.”
Riki looks at her immediately. “No, I didn’t.”
“You kinda did.”
You and Jake laugh before you can stop it, and Riki points his fork at you. “Don’t laugh,” he says.
His girlfriend smiles into her glass, clearly enjoying this more than she expected to. The nervousness has not disappeared completely, but it has softened enough for her to look around the family table without looking like she is waiting for someone to test her.
After that, the questions continue, though you make sure they sound less like a background check and more like actual interest. The stories come out between bites, one after another, most of them harmless, some of them embarrassing, and nearly all of them at Riki’s expense. Jake keeps the teasing light, Riki keeps hating it, and his girlfriend keeps laughing in a way that makes him look down at his plate every few minutes like that will hide the fact that he likes hearing it.
The room relaxes in small things.
Riki stops sitting so straight, his girlfriend reaches for the juice herself, and Jake’s chair shifts closer to yours without either of you saying anything. At some point, you stop trying so hard to manage the room. Jake does most of the talking now, the three of them fall into conversation easily, voices overlapping, laughter coming in small bursts.
You let yourself sit quietly while you continue eating your food, listening more than speaking, watching Riki talk to someone who looks at him like he is not a problem to solve or a boy to keep alive through constant reminders. She looks at him like he is someone she likes, someone she chose willingly.
At some point, his girlfriend glances across the table and catches your eye. You know you could nod politely or look away or pretend you had only been reaching for your glass.
Instead, you smile at her. Not the careful one you had built earlier with relaxed eyebrows and softened cheekbones. But a small and sincere one.
And she smiles back. Something quiet settles between you, not approval exactly, because you are not her teacher and she is not there to pass. Just an understanding that she is trying, and so are you.
Later, when everyone has started moving around after dessert, the room breaks apart naturally. Riki and Jake end up near the sink, arguing over who is actually helping and who is only standing there only trying to look useful, obviously not wanting to get an earful from you. Your brother’s girlfriend gets pulled into the conversation for a while, laughing softly when Riki complains that Jake is “too comfortable” in the house, but eventually the noise settles behind you as you slip out to the front porch with one of the pastries she brought.
You lean against the railing, pastry in hand, and take a small bite. It’s good, soft, sweet, and clearly homemade, which makes you feel slightly worse about almost interrogating the girl who brought it.
The door opens behind you a minute later. You glance back and find her standing there, hands clasped in front of her like she is not sure if she is allowed to join you.
“Hi,” she says.
You swallow. “Hi.”
She looks at the pastry in your hand, then smiles a little. “Is it okay?”
You look down at it, then back at her. “It’s good.”
Her face brightens, visibly relieved. “Me and my mom made them.” She steps out slowly, leaving enough space between you like she is still learning the proper distance. You appreciate that more than you probably should.
For a moment, both of you just stand there, looking at the front yard while the muffled sound of Riki’s voice carries from inside. She breaks the silence as she says, “I’m sorry again. About earlier. The unhinged thing. I really thought it would be funny.” she winces.
“It was funny,” you say. She gives you a look like she does not fully believe you. You take another bite. “Eventually.”
That makes her laugh, small and careful, but real. Still, you notice the slight rigidness of her shoulders, and her fingers when they fidget with one another. She’s trying, that becomes obvious because you don’t recall anyone willingly staying alone in one room with you — not before or after Jake.
You take another bite of the pastry, buying yourself a second before you say anything too sincere. “I’d like to think that I’m not scary all the time.”
She smiles. “I know.”
You try not to snicker. “You don’t know that yet.”
“I kind of do,” she says, then looks embarrassed by her own confidence. “I mean, Riki talks about you a lot.”
You lower the pastry slightly. “Does he?”
She nods. “Yeah. He complains, but not in a bad way.” she says, laughing softly. “It’s more like… he’ll say you’re annoying, but then he’ll mention you picked him up from practice. Or that you made him eat before school. Or that you texted him because it was raining and he forgot an umbrella.”
Inside, Riki says something loud enough to make Jake laugh, and you remain quiet here. His girlfriend looks toward the door, her expression softening in a way that makes you pause, because you recognize that look. It’s the way Jake looks at you when he thinks you aren’t looking.
“He acts like he hates it,” she says. “But I don’t think he does. I think he likes knowing someone checks.”
You do not answer immediately, because there is nothing funny sitting close enough for you to grab. No sharp comment or an easy correction, just the truth, standing there on your porch in the shape of a seventeen-year-old girl who somehow sees your brother clearly.
So you nod once. “Maybe.”
She glances at you, then says, quieter, “I like him a lot.” Her eyes widen slightly especially when you look at her, like she has surprised herself by saying it directly. “Sorry. That was sudden.”
“No,” you say with a chuckle. “It’s okay.”
She tucks her hair behind her ear. “I know we’re young, and it’s not like I’m gonna marry him right now or anything. I just wanted you to know I’m not trying to get him in trouble or make things harder for you.”
It isn’t some grand statement, but it makes you freeze. It is actually the plainness of it that gets you, the fact that she says it like she understands there is something to make harder.
You are not Riki’s mom, you have never been his mom, and you will never be his mom. But somewhere along the way, between your mother leaving and your father forgetting the smaller parts of parenthood, you had become the person who checked the locks, remembered his schedule, asked if he ate, picked him up, got mad when he lied, and stayed awake when he was late. You gave up so many normal years to make sure he was safe, and he gave you so much shit in return, so much stress, so much noise.
A boyfriend too, apparently, which was still deeply annoying.
You blink once, but your eyes are already starting to sting.
She notices immediately. “Oh my God, I’m sorry.”
You let out a small laugh and look away, wiping quickly beneath one eye with your finger. “No, you’re fine.”
“I didn’t mean to make you cry.”
You sniff once. “I’m barely crying.”
That makes her smile, nervous but relieved. You both stand there with the porch light above you and the muffled sound of boys arguing inside, just before you take another breath, then glance at her.
“He told me,” she says softly. “Uhm. Just. About your mom. And your dad.”
Your face stills and she rushes to explain, eyes widening. “Not in a bad way. He wasn’t gossiping. He just said you had to do a lot. That you’re strict because you had to be. And I think I understood that more after meeting you.” She smiles a little, almost apologetic. “I mean, yes, you’re scary.”
You laugh despite yourself, and she laughs too. “But not in the way he made it sound. It’s more like...” She pauses, searching for the words. “You were kind of just left with him.”
It ruins you enough for your throat to tighten and your eyes to grow wet again before you can stop them. She looks panicked again, hands up like she wants to hold you. “I’m so sorry. That sounded so sad.”
“No,” you say quickly, laughing under your breath as you wipe at your eye again. “No, it’s okay.” You nod, then look down at the pastry in your hand because it is easier than looking at her. “It’s just weird.”
“What is?”
“Hearing someone say that,” you admit, voice quieter now. “Other than Jake.”
Her expression softens and she laughs quietly, looking down at her hands. “Riki talks about him too.”
You blink. “Jake?”
“Yeah.” Her smile grows a little more embarrassed, like she already knows what she is about to say will sound too sweet. “He said Jake is the only one who can tell you to calm down without making you mad.”
You stare at her as she glances toward the door, then back at you. “I think I get it now. It’s just nice. The way he looks at you.”
You immediately look away. “Okay.”
“I know. Sorry. That was cheesy.”
“It was very cheesy.”
“But very true.”
You take another bite of the pastry, mostly to give yourself something to do that is not react like an idiot. “You’re bold.”
“I’m learning from you.”
That makes you laugh. “You’ll need it,” you say, glancing at her. “If you’re going to be around a lot.”
For a second, her face goes completely still. Because the meaning seems to land, and her whole expression brightens before she can stop it, which isn’t loud or dramatic, just this shy, happy thing that she immediately tries to hide by looking down at her hands.
Riki appears halfway through the door a second later, squinting at the two of you like he has walked in on a meeting he was deliberately not invited to. His eyes move from her face to yours, then immediately to the pastry in your hand. “What are you doing?” he asks, already suspicious. “Are you threatening her?”
You give him a deadpan look. He stares back, of course.
“I’m eating,” you say.
His girlfriend laughs softly and steps closer to him. “She’s not threatening me.”
He still does not look convinced, but his hand finds hers anyway, like he has forgotten to be embarrassed for half a second. She lets him, smiling down at their joined hands, and the sight makes your face do something dangerously close to softening.
Jake then appears behind Riki. He takes one look at the porch, at the way Riki and his girlfriend are standing together, then at you. He steps around Riki and comes to your side, his arm slipping around your waist before he presses a quick kiss to your temple.
Riki’s face twists immediately, while his girlfriend, however, makes the worst possible sound, somewhere between a laugh and a squeal she clearly tries to hold back.
Jake ignores them completely, looking down at you instead. “Can I steal you for a bit?”
You barely get to frown before he guides you back inside with a hand at your waist.
“Steal me?” you repeat under your breath.
“Borrow,” he corrects, smiling.
The kitchen warmer from the leftover food and the light above the counter. Jake brings you there gently, not cornering you exactly, just turning you until your back rests against the counter and he stands in front of you, hands on your hips while yours stay on the pastry.
He only looks at you, then his gaze drops to the pastry on your hands, just before you take another bite. “I wasn’t done.”
“I can see that.”
“It’s good.”
His brows lift, innocent in a way that has never worked on you. Then, without looking away from you, he leans down and takes a small bite from the pastry in your hand. He straightens slowly, chewing while eyes remain on yours. For some reason, that makes your face warm faster than anything else he has done all night.
Then, very maturely, you say, “Ew.”
Jake laughs immediately, the sound low and pleased, because he knows you well enough to hear what you are actually doing. You take another bite from the same pastry anyway, mostly out of principle, and his smile only gets worse. Then he leans closer, pressing his forehead down against your shoulder with a quiet laugh. His hands stay at your hips, warm and steady, keeping you there without really keeping you anywhere.
“You’re so mean,” he murmurs.
“You know what you got into.” You huff, but it turns into something too close to a laugh when he presses a kiss to your shoulder. Then another, higher, near the side of your neck, soft enough to still feel like teasing. You try to keep eating like this is not affecting you at all, but Jake knows you too well, and the small smile against your skin says he caught it.
“Stop,” you mutter, though you make no actual effort to move.
He lifts his head just enough for his mouth to brush near your jaw, playful and warm. “Did she call you unhinged out there too?”
You glare at the cabinet over his shoulder. “No.”
“Did you call her shameless?”
“No.”
His brows lift, impressed. “Really?”
You swallow the bite of pastry and give him a flat look. “I don’t like how surprised you sound.”
His smile tilts. “‘Cause I know what I got into.”
You stare at him for a second before realizing he has only thrown your own words back at you, and you roll your eyes, but the smile slips through anyway. Instead of saying anything, he lowers his face and rests his mouth against your hair. Not quite a kiss, just there, warm and quiet and resting. You sigh and lean into him too, your weight shifting from your feet to him, and Jake takes it without needing to adjust.
“I like her,” you say after a moment.
His lips move against your hair. “Yeah?”
“A lot.”
Jake lifts his head just enough to look at you, and his expression is teasing, but his eyes are too soft to fully sell it. “Wow. A lot?”
You narrow your eyes. “What?”
His gaze drops to your mouth for half a second before returning to your eyes, entirely too pleased with himself. “I thought I was the only person allowed to understand you and survive.”
A laugh slips out before you can stop it, light and embarrassingly fond. He lets out a faux disappointed sigh, shaking his head but his smile is kinder. “Now there’s competition.”
“She brought pastries.”
“Very strong opening.”
His thumb brushes once at your side, your throat tightens before you can stop it. Jake lowers his voice. “I’m still the one who gets to hold you after.”
You only look at him, standing close enough that the kitchen feels smaller around you, the pastry forgotten between your fingers, his hands steady at your waist. Jake looks at you for another second, like he is waiting to see if you will tell him to stop.
You do not.
So he leans in and kisses you, soft at first, careful enough that you almost hate him for it. Your eyes close before you can think better of it, and the hand not holding the pastry slips up to his shoulder. Then his hand tightens at your waist, just a little, and the kiss deepens enough to make your thoughts go quiet. Your other arm finds its way around his shoulders too, pastry and all, awkwardly trapped somewhere behind his neck.
He laughs against your mouth, a smile pressing into yours. When you pull back to breathe, he does not go far, his mouth drifts to your jaw instead, and you let out a small, helpless laugh before you can stop it.
“Jake.”
“Hm?”
You tilt your head anyway, trying to sound annoyed even though you are smiling. “Behave. They’re still here.”
He pauses against your jaw before he laughs, low and quiet, his forehead dropping to your shoulder again. “These fucking kids, bro.”
You laugh properly this time, unable to help it, and shove at his chest with the back of your hand. You point the pastry at him. “You’re literally twenty.”
Jake lifts his head, face still tucked too close to yours, and shrugs like you have just made his point for him. “Exactly.”
He only smiles, then wraps his fingers around your wrist and gently brings your hand closer to his mouth. He does not even ask this time. He just holds your gaze, entirely too pleased with himself, and takes another bite from the pastry you were very clearly threatening him with.
You stare at him. “You have a problem.”
Jake swallows, still smiling. “You’re my favorite problem.”
Your eyebrows pull together immediately.
His smile drops by half. “Wait.”
“I’m a problem?”
“No.”
“You just said I’m a problem.”
Jake presses his lips together, clearly trying not to laugh because he knows that would only make this worse. His hand is still around your wrist, but now he looks like he has realized he is holding evidence at the scene of his own crime.
“I meant,” he says carefully, “you are my favorite person who causes problems.”
You stare harder. He closes his eyes for a second. “No. That’s worse.” He exhales a laugh. “Okay. You’re not a problem.”
“Good.”
“You’re just a lot.”
You scoff. “Wow.”
“No, no.” Jake’s hand tightens on your hips you try to pull away, though he is smiling too much to look even slightly sorry. “I like a lot. I love a lot.”
Your face warms before you can stop it. Then, because apparently he has decided to make it worse for your health, he shrugs. “I’m greedy.”
A laugh breaks out of you before you can hold it in, sudden and helpless. You turn your face away, but he follows just enough to catch it, smiling like he has been waiting for that sound all night. “You say terrible things.”
Jake’s smile softens, but he still looks entirely too pleased with himself. “I’m being honest.” His hands settle at your waist again, warm and steady. “You’re scary that I like. Mean that I like. Bossy that I like.”
You stare at him for half a second before another laugh slips out, softer this time, shaking your head because he is genuinely ridiculous. “That is not how compliments work.”
“It worked.”
You hate that he is right.
You hate that he is looking at you like that again, like every difficult part of you is something he has already made room for, and does complain about it. Like he is not trying to soften you into something easier. He’s seen it, and still somehow looks at you like you are the easiest choice he has ever made.
So you stop arguing. You catch the front of his shirt, fingers curling into the collar, and pull him down to you. Jake’s breath catches a little before your mouth meets his again.
This kiss starts soft, but only for a second. Then his hand tightens at your waist and your arm slides around his shoulders, the pastry still trapped awkwardly in your other hand, and you cannot bring yourself to care.
Riki and his girlfriend are somewhere outside. The dishes are still in the sink. Someone could walk in and you should probably be thinking about any of that, because it’d be embarrassing to be caught pressed on the counter like this.
But you do not. Your mind goes blank in the simplest, stupidest way, all because Jake is here.
Jake is close, the warmth under your hands, the smile against your mouth, the person holding you like he already knows where all your sharp parts are and has never once thought to let go.
So, for once, you let yourself stop thinking. You just kiss him back.
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chapter three: just rotting in her orgasm funk
in which you accidentally let jungwon know he's been cheated on, and instead of killing the messenger he... falls in love with you?
pairing senior center director!jungwon x preschool teacher!fem reader genre crack, raunchy, neighbors au, angst, fluff warnings profanity, crude humor note the taglist took so long oh my god. Yeah ok.
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ーthe ride.
this is what happens when you avoid confession.
written spinoff! gc #37. ft. wonie. mdni. also don't text and drive. mlist! prev. next.
ABOUT A MONTH AGO...
"go ahead and pull over baby." his harsh tone is on speaker, blutooth overriding your playlist as you speed up to a hundred.
𝖦𝖮 𝖡𝖨𝖦 𝖮𝖱 𝖦𝖮 𝖧𝖮𝖬𝖤 ─ 𝗌𝗍𝖺𝗋𝗋𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗌𝗃𝗒. + 𝗉𝗌𝗁.
!! pairing: jake sim + park sunghoon x fem. reader
!! synopsis: after a messy breakup your best friend says you needed to get laid, she wasn't wrong. and luckily for you two strangers at a party decide you're exactly what they want. one night. no feelings. no promises.
!! warnings: smut (mdni), dom ish jake, dom ish hoon, sub reader, threesome, oral, fingering, pet names, dirty talk, spanking, mxm if u squint, cream pie, squirting, multiple rounds, piv, unprotected sex (dont!), praising, tit play, spit kink, prob more js lmk!!
!! wc: 4.5k
!! a/n: forgive me for the straight filth i have written i js wanna be sandwiched between jakehoon
Three months. That's how long it had been since you'd felt anything but numb.
Ningning set the soju down. "When's the last time you've seen someone other than me?"
The silence was an answer enough.
"That's what I thought." She was already on her phone. "There's a party tonight. You're coming. Wear the black dress your shitty ex said made you look desperate."
You almost smiled. "He said that?"
"He said a lot of things that weren't true. Prove him wrong."
PINK LACE nishimura
🪽 ˖ falling into his arms
⋆。 niki × 𝑓!reader ʚɞ katseye reader meetcute fluff downbad niki kinda awk slowburn part2soon ˖ ⋆
you swore your recurring lateness wasn’t something that happened on purpose, but the wired headphones blasting music in your ears and the half full matcha in your hand kind of said otherwise.
the cold air of the hybe building hit your skin once you entered . . . probably because of your clothes, or lack of them. a lace pink bra under an open matching pink zip up and black sweatpants low on your hips.
today was the dance practice filming for the collab with illit and le sserafim which meant katseye had been dragged halfway across the world for schedules.
so, the jet lag and exhaustion were what you would be blaming your lateness on. the phone clutched between your fingers buzzed repeatedly and you didn’t even have to look.
sophia if ur ass isn’t here in two mins ur dead !!
meg i stg if u got matcha without me
amazing! now you were going to get yelled at for your attendance and your beverage choices.
while reading the group chat and mentally preparing for the long talk you would receive, you walked directly into something solid . . . like a wall?
“oh my god—”
a shocked sound left your lips as your feet caught and you almost stumbled backwards, but a cold hand around your waist held you before complete humiliation could set in.
your eyes widened because that was definitely not a wall. you warily looked up and . . . nishimura riki.
you could probably recall a few times you’d seen enhypen’s youngest in person before, but it had always been from afar or through the big screens at music events.
now in front of you — six foot something, dressed completely in black, hood pulled over messy blonde hair, and glasses covering his ridiculously handsome bare face.
his own eyes were kind of widened behind the glasses, and his hand almost immediately disappeared from your bare waist.
you tugged out one of your earbuds and briefly caught something he mumbled in korean that sounded like an “i’m sorry.”
for a good second, neither of you moved, just stared at each other in mutual confusion. you noticed his gaze fall downwards to your open zip up, to the pink lace not covering much.
he didn’t seem to have much of a reaction other than one eyebrow raising in . . . amusement? god, you physically felt heat rush to your face.
“i’m so sorry. it’s nice to meet you, niki.”
you adjusted your bag strap and laughed a little too awkwardly.
his eyes stayed on you for a couple seconds longer before he finally reached up and pushed his hood back.
“nice to meet you.” his voice came out low and raspy and reminded you it was only around eight in the morning.
the look on his face made you wonder if maybe he didn’t know who you were . . . or maybe he did and was just confused why some half dressed girl had practically thrown herself at him in his place of work.
“. . . and i’m yn, from—”
“i know,” he quietly cut you off, saving you from feeling even more embarrassment.
the corners of your glossed lips lifted as your phone continued to buzz.
thirty five unread messages.
you could already hear the warning from management about excessive unprofessional behavior and all that bullshit.
“again, it’s really nice meeting you, but i’m literally a minute away from getting fired.”
that look of amusement seemed to take over his expression again as you stepped around him in the big hallway. i mean, how could you possibly have run directly into him in a building like this?
before you got too far, you paused, turned around, and blurted, “also, you’re beautiful.”
it was met with absolute silence. why . . . why would you actually say that out loud? before he could respond, if he even was planning to, you walked away at an abnormally fast pace.
you pressed the elevator button around ten times when you realized you had just called nishimura riki beautiful at eight in the morning after almost falling on your ass.
so, as you entered the elevator and the doors slid shut, you were stuck staring at niki who was still standing exactly as before and praying you weren’t unemployed.
you physically ran into niki. involve me immediately.
niki genuinely wasn’t sure what had just happened. he couldn’t decide whether it was the fact that you thought he possibly didn’t know who you were or how you were way prettier in person than any clip online.
he forced himself to move . . . enhypen’s designated studio was on the complete opposite side of the building and he had gotten direct instructions for a solo live he was supposed to film.
all he could think about was the soft skin of your waist, that stupid pink lace top, and the sudden blunt compliment. what kind of person actually said something like that and then left?
his ears felt warm as he dropped onto the couch in the studio and stared blankly at the ceiling. the live was supposed to start in fifteen minutes, but he didn’t care.
niki pulled out his phone and opened jungwon and his messages.
niki im in love
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