So. Been awhile.
Yeah, I’m still alive. Surprisingly. I’m like…. 99% sure all of you have forgotten about me by now, which was what I wanted. If you still do remember me, howdy.
I’ll say it flatly. This isn’t a coming back post. It’s more the… finishing, of a thing. A part of my life that was a fairly fun experiment for a few months, but it got dangerous for me.
First and foremost, to everyone that thinks I was grounded; I lied, I’m sorry. My parents didn’t find my Tumblr and stop me from using it, and I didn’t have to stop using it in the first place.
But this place, or really, social media as a whole is stressful as all hell for me. Far too much so. Even with only 300+ followers, having to constantly keep up a public image to the most finniky crowd I’ve ever seen was taking a sizable toll on my mental health. Most of you I would consider very nice and amiable, but a few sweet people did not outweigh the surplus of death threats and messages to kill myself because I was “Homophobic and Transphobic” for- I shit you not- being straight and cisgender.
Never had I said one thing in either of those directions, but it seems that if I wasn’t a part of the crowd, no matter how supportive and amiable I was, there was no way in hell I would fit it. I spent too many hours racking my brain for any damn way to stop the hatred I was getting for existing, but I couldn’t get a single result no matter what I tried.
And then, it came to me, clear as day.
Make a cover story and disappear.
So that’s exactly what I did.
So, for everyone who may have expecting me to be gone forever, you’ve definitely gotten your wish, and for the ones who had any hope of me coming back, I’m sorry. I’ve meant to write this message for months now, but with life… I’ve been happy with being too busy to do so.
I’m 17 now. I have a job, and a very sweet girlfriend, and good friends in a safe place where I can just coexist. With that said, I finally had the emotional peace to want to write this out.
So, for everyone who was nice to me, thank you. You were a great friend. If you want to keep in touch, my Discord is 「Mal, Just Mal.」 #1299.
Catch you on the flipside, Tumblr.
