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My beautiful friends

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And then myself

My friend just told me that she is done with our friendship, but is too lazy and horrible at human interactions to go out and make new friends. She then went on for about 15 more minutes about how this makes it hard for her in her life while I just kind of layed there silently breaking apart piece by piece trying my best to choke back tears, and thinking of all the things I’ve told her that hold no value now. I’m glad I finally understand that I’ve only been here as “filler company” while she shops for new friends. Now she’s been telling me that she doesn’t understand why I haven’t talked much since that conversation ended.

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I Saw You And I Became Bittersweet

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Scott Pilgrim Vs The World

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Hey Dudes and Dudets you should go check out my film blog (thatassholehipster). It’s for nerds and the film-curious alike. Also who doesn’t enjoy some rad stills and gifs from awesome movies?

To Her,

I had a hatred for a while. So, I pilled it away. Then came the sadness, so I left. I was high off in some far away place not really thinking, not really feeling anything, but calm. No, numbness. Calm is not calm anymore when it is constant. That is numbness. I was NOT living. I was merely perceiving life as it passed my by. I was an outsider to my own existence. Then, all at once it sped up and hit me. It being my frenemy good ol’ reality. Suddenly I did not know who I had become. My life was nearly unrecognizable and not to mention unquantifiable. I was an equation in my own mind that remained unsolved. For I could not find the sum, the product, nor the quotient of who I actually was. Then, the world fell. And I didn’t realize until it was too late. For now that’s where I am. I cannot rely on others. I cannot afford liabilities nor the chance of one. I am already a risk. I am alone. That is how it meant to be. Because, I won’t stand to hurt anyone, but myself. I hope you stalked this post and you except that I am trouble. I am a lost cause. I’m gone.

Current Support System

Me: I don't know if I can do this.

*Cricket chirps*

Me: k...

Sweeter than candy, better than air...