♡ Une Belle Âme ♡

I'm Mandy Nicole Phillips. I'm 26. I Smoke, Drink, Party, and just about anything that's fun to do I'll be down to do it. I'm a black belt, In karate and Weapons, so watch out or I might kick your butt. ;) Always down for a good time. Especially if you're cool to chill with and stuff! I try to avoid drama as much as possible so take it elsewhere and leave me out of it please and thank you! Head over to my ask, and talk to me, ask me questions, talk shit, or tell me how awesome I am, it don't matter, just Do It!.

[euesworld]

“If nobody told you today, you are so beyond beautiful that the horizon is closer..”

Beyond even that, the edges of the universe is nearer than the edges of your beauty - eUe

This is for you mandy..

[persephones-fruit]

“I needed someone to listen to me, even if I made no sense to them.”

— Susan Blauner, How I Stayed Alive When My Brain Was Trying To Kill Me

[euesworld]

"I just want to throw my hoodie on your floor, jump on the couch, and cuddle with you.."

..until we fall asleep.. I could listen to you breathe all day, your whole existence is beautiful - eUë

[pieces0fconsciousness]

"The floor just won't do, I'd probably be wearing it to feel even closer to another part of you... and you'd probably be wearing one of mine, that is if you'd want to..."

- cuddles it is, i could guarentee me falling asleep to your heartbeat mx.

[euesworld]

"Whispers that enthrall us in the darkness are the very same whispers that destroy us.."

They become an addiction and like an addict we just want more and more heart throbbing excitement in a dark room, covered in sweat, and lit by the moon - eUë

[euesworld]

"If I make you hate me, will you still love me? Or would you think that I am really ugly?"

Would you hate me forever?? Or would you put that shizz in a blender?? - eUë

[euesworld]

"My head is like a circus, I can't find my way out.. I am going insane and I'm afraid to look down. I'm afraid that I'll hit the water and you will leave me to drown.. we all float down here except me, so says pennywise the clown."

It's a good song, you should give it a listen.. I wrote that it's not part of the song but inspired by it - eUë

[euesworld]

"I miss you babe, I miss your face, I miss your taste, I miss you being in this place with me.."

The thing is.. I just really miss you and what we had, everything is different now and kinda sad - eUë

[euesworld]

"Ink runs through my veins, it drives me insane.. poetry flows through my brain, and it leaves me amazed. In a daze and a cloud of purple haze it seems the dead have been raised, but that's just my brain breathing magic.."

Abstract thoughts of an abstract visionary - eUë

[ourtwobodiesintoonepinkcasket-d]

Where am I?

This is not who I want to be. What happened to the real me. Am I hidden away, Under lock and key, Or am I just going crazy.

Looking in the mirror all I see, Is a stranger staring at me. Speaking with my lips, Using my hands; fully in control. Doesn’t anyone hear me calling out.

Why can’t you see the lost little girl, Watching her life be over run, From behind the scenes. Oh won’t anyone see through my eyes, Way down deep, To the very center of my being.

To discover that I’m trapped, Trapped inside my own head. I try to scream, But my life on the big screen Is louder than it seems.

Searching for a way out, But I’ve been here for too many years. I have no friends, no family, They’re all just in a hazy stream, Flowing by without noticing me.

Why did I lock myself in here, All alone and oh so cold, I never should have thrown that key Down that fiery hole, I could have carried it’s toll.

Wishing for change, Doesn’t make it so, But oh I can’t do this, Not all on my own, But how could anyone help, If they don’t even know.

So many voices yelling at me, Each trying to be louder than the rest, Each cooing for my attention, For me to listen to them instead, The voices each tugging me into a different direction, Slowly but surely, Ripping me apart Piece by piece.

Always searching for reasons to be angry, For reasons to keep going like this, Avoiding the escape I so desperately crave. Arguing and picking fights Trying to push away the ones I love, Seeking the comfort of strangers Who could disappear at any time.

This is not who I want to be. This isn’t the real me. Locked away and crazy, I can’t even recognize my own face And I don’t even know my own name, My memories Are fading faster by the day. New ones don’t even bother to take there place, I’m just an empty shell. Don’t attempt to look, You’ll find nothing there.

submitted by @mandybear143

[tiroxy]

You describe very well how I feel

[mandybear143]

Right on!

[ourtwobodiesintoonepinkcasket-d]

Where am I?

This is not who I want to be. What happened to the real me. Am I hidden away, Under lock and key, Or am I just going crazy.

Looking in the mirror all I see, Is a stranger staring at me. Speaking with my lips, Using my hands; fully in control. Doesn’t anyone hear me calling out.

Why can’t you see the lost little girl, Watching her life be over run, From behind the scenes. Oh won’t anyone see through my eyes, Way down deep, To the very center of my being.

To discover that I’m trapped, Trapped inside my own head. I try to scream, But my life on the big screen Is louder than it seems.

Searching for a way out, But I’ve been here for too many years. I have no friends, no family, They’re all just in a hazy stream, Flowing by without noticing me.

Why did I lock myself in here, All alone and oh so cold, I never should have thrown that key Down that fiery hole, I could have carried it’s toll.

Wishing for change, Doesn’t make it so, But oh I can’t do this, Not all on my own, But how could anyone help, If they don’t even know.

So many voices yelling at me, Each trying to be louder than the rest, Each cooing for my attention, For me to listen to them instead, The voices each tugging me into a different direction, Slowly but surely, Ripping me apart Piece by piece.

Always searching for reasons to be angry, For reasons to keep going like this, Avoiding the escape I so desperately crave. Arguing and picking fights Trying to push away the ones I love, Seeking the comfort of strangers Who could disappear at any time.

This is not who I want to be. This isn’t the real me. Locked away and crazy, I can’t even recognize my own face And I don’t even know my own name, My memories Are fading faster by the day. New ones don’t even bother to take there place, I’m just an empty shell. Don’t attempt to look, You’ll find nothing there.

submitted by @mandybear143

[happy-sans]

I’m fucking crying.

[mandybear143]

Me too.

[thepowerwithin]

“It takes a tremendous amount of energy and focus to change bad habits. Be patient with yourself. It's not an easy task.”

Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin | Twitter

[thepowerwithin]

Please give yourself more credit, my friend.

[thepersonalquotes]

[thetattedstoner]

If they treated you like shit before they’ll do it again

[destroymylife]

[eliminated]

[theanimalmemes]

The video you didn’t know you needed right now.

Pup @journeythegolden