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Woods

I have seen what the darkness does, Say goodbye to who I was

Blue Eyes

There are certain things that I adore

There are certain things that I ignore

You are an addiction, I need my fix

Let me in and I will be yours

Blue Eyes

I find new ways to carry on each day

These days take so long without a glimpse of you

I wish you knew how much love I need from you

One day we will reunite and the flame will burn stronger than ever

Your gaze, the way you walk, the words you choose

I need to feel relief

I put color on my cheeks

I listen to tunes that make me think of you

Do I wanna know, if this feeling flows both ways

I need to feel relief

Blue Eyes

There’s a war inside my core

I fight, I roar

I danced with the devil in the dark

Go ahead, love me as deep as you can

Blue Eyes

When I think of you my heart literally starts beating faster. I hold my hand against my neck to feel the pulse. My heart feels like it’s on fire. My mouth is dry and I start chewing my lips. I play a song that reminds me of you. You treat me like a drug. You light me up and then put me out when you are done with me. You are hot and cold.

My soul is on fire: I am a warrior

My soul is on fire,

I feel sparks in my belly & chest

Why am I so afraid?

The fires surround me, the fires consume me

I drown in my regrets

I set myself on fire everyday

Somehow, I am still here

Somehow, I am still breathing

Somehow, I carry on

I AM A WARRIOR

My soul is on fire

Saying goodbye can lead to new discoveries

I imagine myself standing in the middle of an empty street. The air is foggy. I see you appear from the distance. I grind my teeth, move my thumbs in circles, and continue to breath. My heart is on fire. I start anxiously cracking my back. I move my body in weird ways. I watch you walking towards me in a black coat. I say, “Hi, Daddy. Remember me?” *panic is all I feel* You whisper to me, “I will never disappear, for forever I’ll be here.”

Relive: To experience again - as an emotion

On February 11th in the year of 2008 I found out that my father had died. My mother walked into my seventh grade classroom after school and told my teacher that my father had died. The moment the news hit me, I felt shocked, confused and lost. Something had died in me the moment I lost my dad. My mind, body and soul had immediately started to work in my defense. I felt like I was in a dream. My consciousness had been suspended. A part of me slowly became angry, bitter and scared.

Eight years later I still experience the same emotions. I am determined to turn my grief into something positive.

#partofmystory

Your eyes talk to me

You have already changed me

Holding you tight is my strongest craving

Your eyes talk to me

Lover

I am endlessly curious about you

Touch my skin to feel the rush

Don’t be scared of the spark

Every touch makes me fall harder for you

Baby

I’d really like to know you more

Your eyes sing a song to me

Blue Eyes

You now know I’d do anything for you

Think of me while you are playing your video games

Heaven is a place on earth with you

...now I am falling for you

Your sunshine

I am the one for you

Bind my hands,

I can you be your sunshine,

Our bodies move in harmony

Follow me, I can be your paradise

My blonde hair drowns all your miseries

I’ll be yours till the very end

Blue Eyes

Call it magic or call it a trap

It’s it my blood,

There’s no way to tame me

I am a broken human, that is the precious truth

Blue Eyes

You said the words I needed to hear

Keep me under your wings my dear

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