✮`,— Tenna .ᐟ.ᐟ

he/it ★ 20 ★ fictive heavy system

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★Hello and welcome to our blog!★

this is our intro post!

I’m Tenna, and I’m the host of our system! Collectively though, we go by Shadz/Shadow, and Anthony/Ant ! We are a fictive heavy, traumagenic DID system, and are Autistic and have BPD.

We are bodily 20, and collectively identify as a gay trans man! We are taken, however our partner system does not have a tumblr!! Please use he/it pronouns for us !!

We tend to use “we” and “i” interchangably but since this is a system space we will probably use “we” more often, especially when referring to us as a whole rather than one specific alter.

this blog will probably be very rb heavy since that was the original purpose of it, however, we may just ramble too, and those posts will have a signoff depending on whos fronting! (probably a little graphic of sorts). when reblogging things however we will rarely sign off, especially if its fanart. just take a wild guess if youre curious who reblogged stuff. (textposts we relate to though may be signed off on. ok sorry im rambling EEK!!!)

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currently, our most frequent fronters are:

Tenna: he/him, host/BPD holder

Shadz: he/it, host/ANP

Telebi: he/she, co-host

Cosmo: he/him, drowser/soother/caretaker

Velvet: he/she/it, co-host/persecutor/BPD holder

Tungsten: he/him, anger holder/protector

Of course, this is not all of us, and this list will probably fluctuate and change quite a bit.

BYF:

WE ARE ANTI ENDO/WILLO/ETC. We firmly believe that, to be a DID/OSDD system, you NEED trauma, as it is a trauma disorder. Please do your research and stay away from this blog if you associate with those spaces and ideologies.

We have a very heavy amount of Tenna fictives, both from various AUs, as well as entirely brainmade alters who use a Tenna faceclaim to some extent. This is because Tenna, as a character, is a very important part of our personal identity and we are very attached to him as such. Theres a lot of TVs in here, get used to it, haha

We are autistic, as mentioned above, so sometimes it may be hard for us to understand tone and socialization. Please be patient with us!!

DNI

Please DNF if you’re under 18! We do not feel comfortable having anyone -18 in our space, thank you!

Basic DNI criteria

Proship/Profic/Darkship

Pro-para, ESPECIALLY PRO CONTACT, GO AWAY!

Trans-ID, and anything surrounding those identities

Radqueer (MOGAI is a-ok though!)

Personality disorder romanticizers/demonizers

If you’ve read this far, thank you! ^D

[anti-willo-sprout]

Why do so many autistic people shit on narcissists and act like they’re superior for doing so it’s actually fucking weird

“ ugh why are narcissists so soulless and apathetic, i could never! “ hey man. What if I told you that people with your disorder also have to deal with low emotional empathy and it’s a very common thing with autistic people. What about that. You guys are distant cousins at best. Being neurodivergent yet putting other neurodivergents down because you aren’t comfortable with their existence is directly shooting yourself in the foot

Sincerely an autistic person with BPD and narcissistic traits

[lana-belem]

why he ourple !!

alt version with different colors!

[quenderine]

Quick gif

[coildog]

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i love being a graphic design student irl wdym i just made a logo for my system

not sure if the stroke color around “static” is final or not but idc lol

[hops-and-binkies]

I heard you were taking art requests? May I politely ask for a sweet little Tenna regression doodle? Perhaps he is wearing a baby onesie, and playing with a little mousey toy, because he is just a little kitty. If you would be so kind <3

waaa u asked so politely yaaa!!

[hazardousyuri-deactivated202510]

me when i get one (1) note on tumblr dot com from my beloved mutuals: they lovme❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️🙏🙏🙏😭😭❤️❤️😁😁😁😁😁✨️✨️☝️☝️☝️☝️😁😁👅👅👅👅👅👅👅💜💜💜💗❤️‍🩹❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥❤️‍🔥🫂🫂🫂🫂i love them 😁😁😁❤️❤️❤️❤️💜💜💜 f ried n

[latiyao]

ew

[manicstatictvtime]

how it feels to work on every alter playlist at once

(theyre all perfectly curated trust me)

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ok so. funny thing. that i am. realizing.

i may have greatly underestimated my amnesia. hence why i thought labelling my system as an OSDD 1 system felt correct?

and of course im the one typing this (if you know ANYTHING about my source you know how funny this is) /lh

ramble under the cut bleh bleh blehh

i always thought after years and years of research that my system had to fall under the category of osdd-1(b). specifically because, to me, my amnesia was nonexistant. i didnt black out whatsoever. i didnt just blink and seemingly teleport post-blackout, therefore i didnt have amnesia.

but it turns out i DO have amnesia and i just greatly misunderstood it as a concept (and took the “blackout” part ultra literally).

the thing is, i DO have amnesia. but i completely misinterpreted it as complete total blackouts. like fainting and waking up on the floor (and after i experienced something like that for the first time last year it furthered my self assurance that “yeahhh my brain doesnt do that between switches therefore i dont haaave amnesia”) but NO. NO. I ALWAYS DID. and that’s the point of it? id argue?

the fact that i dont realize i have amnesia is ironically enough .. amnesia!! that and the fact that i experience things like greyouts and emotional amnesia up the WAZOO. and dare i say, i DO black out. but it isnt like my original misinterpretation of it whasoever.

take for example my most recent BAD “blackout” (from what im speculating at least). i had a really really bad episode back in March. i have photos in my camera roll taken and saved during the episode, and i know the trajectory of what happened? like i know the bullet points ? metaphorically? but when i try to remember things it was just, episode started saturday. then it was that next thursday/friday. that week happened. that episode happened. i just have no memory of it. and if i try to recall it its just blank. with maybe a little tumbleweed bouncing by (for comedic effect).

and there are big spans of time i barely have any memory of too. summer of 2024 is a big example for me. it happened, yeah. i know some big things that happened, such as that i went camping with my best friend and graduated high school. but i dont REMEMBER it. i cant recall it or any fun casual moments or things that happened like i can with other parts of my life. and id argue its because i was so unwell and stressed and depressed that whole summer that my brain didnt see it as important to keep around as a memory so its just. blocked out? that or maybe i was dissociated for so long and so hard that my memory didnt even collect it to begin with.

and come to find out that even if you have amnesia as “minimally” as i thought i did, it still counts as AMNESIA, therefore it does not fit the criteria for OSDD-1, BECAUSE THERE IS STILL AMNESIA.

so, ultimately, its for a psychiatric professional to truly decide. but for the sake of my own personal desire for a label, maybe its time to look more into DID rather than definitively pinpointing my experience as OSDD. and even then, theres no “knowing for sure” until a doctor knows for sure. (but even then, is it so wrong to come to a conclusion about my brain based on my experience with my brain after researching why my brain behaves the way it does?)

anyways extensive rant over. toodles!

[manicstatictvtime]

i want peach gummy snack

[manicstatictvtime]

CW weed mention (its legal where i live)

on the topic of starlight, its making me giggle that he said this specifically because back when he was our old host our childhood friend gave us a tiny little piece of a peach ring gummy edible on the fourth of july and we started TWEAKING. little did we know that A. our weed/thc tolerance is hilariously low. and B. we’d have a rendezvous with 2 25 mg gummies a year later that would literally send us to neptune.

oh starlight. never change. amirite *canned laugh track*

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so we have this really pretty fur coat that a previous host of ours used to wear like CRAZY. its hot pink and fluffy on the outside, and the print on the inside is black with white stars on it. since our old host fragmented and eventually fused with that fragment into who we now know as Starlight, he’s been wanting that fur coat back again.

guess how long it took us to stop procrastinating and go find the coat in our basement?

7 months.

we go down there multiple times a week to do our laundry.

why did it take us THAT FUCKING LONG.

[manicstatictvtime]

genuinely just watched the most manipulative person ive ever met get confronted. they like. deflected every single thing. they lied. their lies CONTRADICTED LIES THEY TOLD IN THE PAST. insane.

im personally taking this as a win though because said person manipulated the FUCK out of my partner system, and even manipulated me during the most vulnerable point in my life into believing they cared about me only to truly have ulterior motives of pushing me away so they could take my partner away from me and have him to themself. and even then theyd probably have ended up cheating on him with their track record. in a way this feels like some weird fucked up closure. theyll never apologize to me face to face for how horribly they treated me and demonized me to my partner, so watching their downfall in real time kinda works in its place lmao

and yeah my partner sys also stole their entire friend group. because he stood up for all of them and actually cares about them all unlike the genuine supervillain i described above. jackpoooot 😜😜😜😜😜

[daily-specilfeacher]

Day 69: Comeback Specil

[eveotg]

Burn-in memory

[spedles]

Watching this a billion times over now

[manicstatictvtime]

i feel like telebi is like. lurking. for some reason. why is moe on the mind right now…….