history knew her as many different things, she had lost track of the tales she had started long ago. the burning sun, the guiding light, the shepherd. but there was always pieces missing. they never captured her image right, her laughter, her joy. maybe if she got all the pieces together she could form into one person, but even then sol doubted anyone would get it right. she had hidden pieces of herself away over the centuries. the longing, the desire to simply rest. as the years went by more and more of her became hidden, internalised in a way that she knew wasn’t healthy.
it became a habit after a while, to find others with the same longing; sombre voices, the same hunched shoulders that spoke of secrets never told. as his words trailed off she tilted her head intently listening for more. she laced her fingers under her chin, leaning forward to better capture his words.
“it can be hard,” she mused, voice soft but her tone implied that she understood. “how do you know they’re the right person? sometimes some secrets are best left buried and forgotten.”
how do you know? he wished he knew the answer to that. it would make his life a little easier if he could look at someone and tell he could trust them implicitly. life had a way of being complex and complicated while being simple in ways he didn’t always comprehend. he sighed and shook his head.
❛ you don’t. sometimes all you have is faith that they are. it’s not easy... no, in fact... it’s really hard to put your faith in someone else. but i just imagine how relieving it may feel to be accepted despite harboring those secrets. ❜
he let himself sit in silence for a moment before looking at her intently again. ❛ then again... maybe you’re right. maybe some secrets do more harm when they’re out in the open... ❜ he could tell no one...
❛ ... i’m sorry you feel your secret should be forgotten. ❜