relaxation blog

blog for being myself. I'm Pat. He/him pronouns. I love batoids. I go through some periods of inactivity on this account

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Kākāpō believes in you ☀

[alaskanay]

American Kestrel | Raptors of North America

[wbbuser0727]

[mirudraws]

Wallace&Gromit:Vengeance most fowl

Catching up on my movie watchlist lately—here’s a piece I drew inspired by one of them. Such a lovely movie!

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Garden

[snookie3000-deactivated20260511]

who gaf abt this show

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[pokemonarchive]

Pokémon Mystery Dungeon: Red & Blue Rescue Team (2005) - Save Selection Screen Artwork © Pokémon / Nintendo / Creatures / GAME FREAK

[kirbywithagun64]

Not sure how to caption this. Just thought it was cute and funny

[manta-ray-space]

Hello! It has been a while since I have used this account. I kind of forgot about it. I went through a really bad depressive episode from December to March. I snapped out of it last month and I actually felt really motivated to change my life. I want to develop independent living skills like learning to cook, being responsible for my medications, maybe learning to drive. I just suddenly had a huge drive to change everything about my life. Perhaps it was a touch of hypomania, but I'm doing okay now. I got rejected by two jobs and that has been a bummer.

All of these changes I'm making and thinking about making have been really overwhelming me. So I've come back to this account to relax and de-stress.

[wbbuser0727]

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White and blue betta fish | 鲸落斗鱼

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I am pretty excited that it is December. Feeling a bit festive. I watched a bit of the movie A Christmas Story last week, and I got gifts for my two best friends, and we're probably going to get a tree and do some Christmas shopping next week. It's all pretty exciting. I'm trying to let the Christmas cheer distract me from how stressful it is at school, it being finals week. I've been studying a lot and working super hard! I will probably be pretty preoccupied until the 9th. But after the 11th I will be on winter break! So that's exciting.

I got a Nancy Drew book from the library, the 8th volume of the series. I am also excited to start reading that.

[timsplayhouse]

Reblog this to sprinkle some love on prev!

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I am reading a book called A Disability of the Soul: An Ethnography of Schizophrenia and Mental Illness in Contemporary Japan, and one thing that really struck me about Bethel House is how people are so open about their troubles and experiences. I have always been a quiet person, even as a child I was very quiet, so the idea of expressing myself is very foreign. I tried coming up with a list of why I stay so quiet about my problems, even now that I'm an adult. These are just a few of the reasons:

sometimes it feels like there's a physical barrier in my mouth and throat preventing me from speaking

I don't want to burden/trigger/traumatize others by telling them about my symptoms or thoughts or feelings

I sometimes have beliefs that if I tell people the truth it is betraying someone's (my) privacy and they'll be mad at me

Feeling like nobody else will understand and their response will make me feel worse/more symptomatic

There are more reasons, those are just a few. I'm going to bring this up with my therapist next time I see her.

[amoebeau]

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