Nagulat nga ako kasi sinurprise nya ako. Feeling ko tuloy may chance ako sa kanya.
I told my workmates/trainees na uuwi na kami. Hahaha. Ng biglaan dahil nga nasa mall na sya. I do not want to keep him waiting there. So nagmadali ako, para puntahan na sya.
So first time ko sya nameet in person, almost same kami ng height. Moreno, maganda eyes nya. Maganda nose, Maganda lips, maganda ngipin. Naconscious ako. Parang ang perfect nya. Mukha sya nerd na cute. Ewan, basta mas nagustuhan ko pa sya. We stroll around and talked a lot of stuff. We had dinner and nag kwentuhan. Ayun. He said he needed something from a bookstore so ayon, we bought something there. Nagulat lang ako kasi bigla nya hinawakan kamay ko habang nag hahanap kami ng need nya. HAHAHA! Pero patago, so ayon. Kinilig ako. Hahaha he looked at me and smiled. Basta ewan. Sarap lang sa feeling.
I enjoyed every second na kasama mo sya. Sabi nya may I’m confused kung namiss ko lang may nakakausap or dahil gusto ko talaga sya, infatuation lang daw. Pero iba talaga, gusto ko talaga sya. Pero minsan natatakot akong isipin na baka mamaya tama sya. Pano kung ganon nga, namiss ko lang ung idea of being with someone. Ewan ko.
It was our first time na nagkita at nagdate. Nung pauwi na kami sabi nya ihahatid ko daw ba sya, sabi ko oo naman. pero sa terminal lang ng sakayan pauwi nya kasi wala naman akong car. Hehe mejo nahiya ako at nanliit sa sarili ko bigla. Pero ok lang yon. Atleast hindi naman ako nag sinungaling. Hehe. Natawa lang sya. Sabi ko san ba sakayan nya, sabi nya may dala daw sya. Nasa parking. Shhet, lalo akong nanliit. I thought na baka ung mga previous nyang dates, may mga car and offered him to drive him home. NAKAKAHIYA. Wala ehh, mahirap lang ako. I support myself lang, I don’t have my parents na din to support me. hahaha. Basta ang mind set ko, to be myself and show how much I value our friendship and his company. Sya pa tuloy nag yaya na i-drop ako sa inuuwian ko. Hahaha
Sa parking, he was very nice to ask me if pede daw ba mag holding hands. I dont see anything wrong naman kaya I said yes. We talked sa loob ng car nya for a few minutes. Kung ano daw first impression ko sa kanya, I asked him the same, etc. It was never boring with him, we laughed at kung ano ano pa. Basta, this guy has something na hindi ko alam kung ano.
“Gusto mo mag kiss?” Feeling ko lumaki mata ko ng slight nung tinanong nya yon. I did not expect to hold hands with him on the first date, pero I said yes, and now? Kiss? Haahha! Hindi ko alam kung natutuwa ako or naeexcite. Hindi yata ako nakasagot for a few seconds, pero “hmmm.. sige..” hahaha. Bumigay din. When we kissed. NO. 1 RULE, if magkikiss sa loob ng car, make sure hindi naandar ang vehicle, attanggaling nyo seat belt nyo. Ang hirap kaya! Hahaha. Pero it was okay. Mejo naninibago ako. my last kiss that I can remember was probably around May of 2018. So more than a year na. Hahaha. Kinalawang nko.
“Hindi din ako magaling mag kiss” sabi nya. So may din, so hindi sya nagalingan saken. Hahaha sabi ko, may “din” haha. He reacted weird na parang nahiya din sa sinabi nya, hahaha. Ang cute nya. He said hindi un ung ibig nya sabihin. Hahaha. So we gave it another try. Haha. Feeling ko malandi ako. It was the same. Haha. Siguro dahil hindi ko inexpect. Kaya hindi ako ready. Hahaha. yung totoo, I don’t really care and know how a good kiss should be. Basta it is with someone you feel ready connected to. Saken lang naman yan. In a way proud ako na hindi ako magaling, ibig sabihin, wala talaga akong practice. Hahahah
In short, he kept surpirising me today na in a good way naman. Mejo kapag naalala ko lang ung about driving him home and owning a car mejo nasasad ako. I mean, wanted him to experience din na idrive home pero wala eh. I’ll make this as my motivation na lang. Na someday, I buy a car, and drive for him. Someday.