Marian? Do you hear me?

Stupid poetry/vent account

[ptr-sqloint]

no great deed is commemorated here

[mariandoyoucomein]

i can only compared my existence as a trans man and my experience being trans as an ouroboros

i am forever consuming myself and remaining endlessly hungry despite it

[vamphellsing]

you know the dysphoria is bad when you start taking serious advice from transmeds

[dirtyd4wgboy]

Crying again because I just wanna be seen as a real man. I just to have a guy affirm me that I’m his homeboy and be gay with. I wanna be big and strong too for my love. I need to pin her down and kiss her, call me your handsome man. I need to be forcemasced or just told that I’m a guy and I should take it

[mariandoyoucomein]

i waited so long to be myself that now there is nothing left and i am only the one who waits

[eatfeet69]

being trans truly is just mourning and mourning and mourning and mourning and mourning and mourning and mourning and mourning and mourning and

[ominiousvibrator]

" I'm still holding onto hope that you being trans is a phase "

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! I would like to specify I am not currently in danger! Please do not worry unnecessarily. I am alive. !

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g᥆᥆ძᑲᥡᥱ 𝖿᥆r ᥒ᥆ᥕ mᥡ ⍴ᥙ⍴іᥣs ꨄ

[mariandoyoucomein]

i wish to imagine a future where i am myself and i am complete

[mariandoyoucomein]

my therapist warning me it will get worse before it gets better somehow still did not prepare me for it to get Worse™️

[forgotn1]

I think that when you're a kid, if you get in trouble a lot it's hard to feel like your parents love you. I know my parents did and do love me, but I remember being yelled at and punished a lot more than I was praised or shown love.

And I'm pretty sure that's why I still feel like nobody could ever love me.

[things-i-learned-in-therapy]

i cant fix the world

[mariandoyoucomein]

I don’t think i’ve grown since 2020

I don’t think i’ve grown from 2018

I don’t think i’ve grown from the moment my feet touched the earth and soil got under my nails and I was told it wasn’t for me but my body knew it always had been

[hineinihineini-moving]

Deer On the Side of the American Highway by Devin Kelly

[thegigglejiggle]

“I’m so ocd I like my books aligned by color!” Oh yeah cuz I just visualized kissing my own father after I ate from the same spoon as him and now I’m about to throw up all the shit I just ate

[branzza]

I always feel like I am on the verge of realising,like words stuck on the tip of my tongue.I've been close to an epiphany so many times,but then , like a premature wave,it retreats back into me.

[heavenleah9999]

Summer reminders

made by me

[mariandoyoucomein]

tomorrow is my birthday

and i have never been more hollow