Living on the edge

25F, interested in edging and denial

[marina-on-edge]

A GOOD GIRL'S CREED

A few weeks ago my Master ordered me to write this, so I thought that I might as well post it here.

I am a good girl and I don't cum without permission.

2. The purpose of my existence as a good girl is to bring pleasure to others.

3. I realize that my orgasms are completely useless and that I must try to avoid them at all costs.

4. The only valid reason for my orgasm is to entertain others, and only if my Master has given me permission.

5. I understand that I don't deserve to orgasm.

6. Even though I don't deserve to orgasm, every time I get close to it, I beg for permission.

7. Not because I hope to be allowed to cum, but because my Master enjoys seeing how pathetic and desperate I become.

8. I understand that my personal pleasure is completely insignificant next to my Master's pleasure.

9. I passionately desire to be used for the sexual pleasure of others.

10. I especially crave to have my mouth used, as that would certainly not bring me physical pleasure.

11. I always swallow every drop of a man's cum.

12. If I'm given the choice between experiencing a man's orgasm in my mouth or my orgasm between my legs, I will always choose the man's orgasm, because it's always much more important.

13. Between a ruined orgasm and a full orgasm, if I have the choice, I will always choose the ruined one.

14. I try to edge as often as possible to keep my pussy constantly aroused and wet.

15. I understand perfectly well that my pussy doesn't deserve a man's dick, but it still needs to be ready to take it at any moment.

16. I do everything possible to avoid cumming when I edge. But if an accident does occur, I always ruin the orgasm and ask my Master for punishment.

17. I am always happy to please both my Master and other people of any gender at his command.

18. I am happy to endure pain and humiliation for the pleasure and entertainment of my Master and others.

[the-girl-belongs-to-her-deactiv]

Why good girls should edge?

Good girls should edge because it makes them needy. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it makes them less selfish. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because orgasm is temporary, but arousal from the edgings is endless. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it helps them to behave. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it disciplines. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it teaches them self-control. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it teaches them to reject their own pleasure. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it makes them humble. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it teaches them patience. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because it shows their place. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because they deserve to be desperate. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because they are much cuter when aroused. I am a good girl.

Good girls should edge because they were told so. I am a good girl.

[damsel-n-denial]

I want to be an edged & denied good girl

[marina-on-edge]

Tomorrow. What should I do?

This week has been so long to me. But finally I am going to b meet my Owner tomorrow. I am so excited but at the same time it feels so unusual. Long story short, my Owner used to allow me to cum during our encounters. And I was quite used to take an orgasm for granted when I meet him. But two weeks ago I asked him to prolong my denial till my birthday in March and I am most assurently not going to cum tomorrow. That’s such a mindfuck. I’m getting wet just from the thought that I’ll meet him, but my clit starts to throbs and pulsate with aching as I realise that orgasm is not going to happen tomorrow. My orgasm that is. My Owner, of course, will cum as many times as he wants. That’s so frustrating, but so interesting at the same time.

Even though I meet with my owner only every other week, we still talk a lot by phone and over messngers and he is giving me a lot of tasks to keep me mentally stimulated. For example he instructs me to listen to orgasmic moans of other women or sometimes even of my own orgasmic moans instead of music. I often have to meditate thinking about how good it feels to experience an orgasm. Things like that. That’s quite devilish to be honest. Such tasks help to keep me as needy as I can be even despite longer period of denial. There is a tricky question however. Previously I used to edge as many times as I could the day before and on the morning of the day of the meeting with my owner. I used to do so to be as needy and desperate I can be when I am with him and to make the release even more special. But this time... knowhing that there won’t be a release I am so unsure. Should I do it anyway? That would be so damn frustrating not to cum after such treatment. But I am sure he will be pleased if I do it. What should I do?

[marina-on-edge]

How edging and orgasm denial influenced my ability to cum

In this post I’d like to tell how orgasm denial and edging influenced my sexuality. Before I started to practice edging and denial it wasn’t easy for me to reach an orgasm. I wasn’t anorgasmic, but a lot of things had to click for me to get there. In most cases I was only able to cum if I was in a very comfortable position, in the right mindset and with a lot of stimulation preferably with a vibrator. I was rarely able to achieve an orgasm with my fingers and never had an orgasm from penetration, and wasn’t even able to cum from clitoral stimulation while being penetrated. Somethign inside my pussy was just too much of a distraction for me and I wasn’t able to concentrate on my feelings and get there. Oh, and I was never been able to cum with a partner, only on my own. When I started to practice edging and denial the fact that it was difficult to get there for me turned out to be a huge asset, and not a problem at all. I was able to relax and just enjoy the sensations I was getting without any pressure that I either had to meet my partners  or my own expectation and to cum no matter what. And also I was able to practice it without much fear that I can “fail” it by accidentally going over the edge.

Over months of practicing edging and denial my sexuality evolved in many ways. But the most notable I think is that now I am able to cum or get to the edge much easier and faster than before. These days I was able to cum fnot only rom vibrator or fingers, but also from humping a pillow, from combined penetration and vibrator on my clit. I was able to cum while having sex with a partner. It involved quite a lot of clitoral stimulation, but still. I was also able to cum in many not very comfortable positions (e.g. while kneeling, tiptoeing or being tied up), while receiving some pain (clamps, vacuum pumps, wax etc). All of these wouldn’t be even possible for me before. And even though I haven’t achieved it yet, but I am getting close to being able to cum from penetration alone. 

This is of course not the only way edging and denial influenced my sexuality. I’ll be probably telling about other stuff later, in this post I wanted to specifically focus on this aspect. Edging and denial made me able to cum much much easier and faster than before and I am getting much more pleasure now from edging, being denied, occasional ruins and full orgasms when allowed than I was getting from sex and masturbation when I was “a normal girl”.

[marina-on-edge]

Sunday

I love Sundays. There are two reasons for that. First is that I usually meet my owner every other Sunday, the second reason is that when it is one o those unlucky Sundays when I don’t meet with him I still don’t have to work and can stay at home, scroll tumblr, read edging blogs and edge over and over again.

Last week I had a session with my owner. I am usually allowed to cum during session, but then I asked him to deny me longer this time, till my birthday in March.

It has only been one extra week of denial above my usual denial period (3 weeks in total) and I am already so desperate, needy and frustrated. It is driving me crazy at times. You probably can’t even imagine what it takes me not to have “an accident” when edging. Just to think that I have not one but a few extra weeks of denial before me makes my womb to shudder and tension down there between my thighs becomes almost intolerable. I wish I could release it, but I know I can’t without his permission and this feeling of helplesness is so damn sweet.

At such moments all I want is to press a soft pillow as tight as I can between my legs and hump it over and over again until one more edge. Lol, it is literally what I am doing now.